What is something you are passionate about? When someone asks me this question, a lot of things will come to my mind, and asking myself what is something that I am good at. In 25 years of my existence honestly, I still can’t figure out what is really my passion is.
Passion is a strong feeling of enthusiasm or excitement for something or about doing something. Am I good at cooking? I don’t think so. Dancing or singing? Arts? Maybe? Those are just the common passions of a person. While typing this, reading definitions and stuff, I came to realize maybe my passion is being a mother to my child. It is something that I know that I am good at! It is something that I do and for sure will never get tired of. When I became a mother, I became selfless. It's not a bad thing though because when I think about my life before having a child it’s a chaos. I’m a college student who is too lazy to go to class and hang out with my friends instead. We drink alcohol at 10 am until we are wasted. I smoke packs of cigarettes and don’t care about my health. I can’t even remember the time I became sober. If I had the chance to talk about my old self, I would slap her in the face. Yell at her and ask her what the hell are you doing with your life? Wake up! I know that you’re hurt and you’re mad because someone destroyed you but it doesn’t mean that you will destroy your own self! Grow up and don’t wait for someone to fix you because you are capable of fixing yourself. But yeah, things happen and we learn from our own mistakes. Before you realize that what you’re doing is wrong, it’s done. And it already happened. The decisions you made from the past are the fruit of your future. And I don’t regret it.
I remember praying to God to give me genuine happiness. And he gave me Nadia my daughter. When she came into my life everything felt so light. It feels like I can do anything without hesitation without negative thoughts. Some people say “YOU’RE JUST A MOM” I am not just a mom. I am someone’s jack-of-all-trades. I am my child’s cook. Her teacher. Her nanny. In me, she relies on. And just doesn’t come into it. I am not just a mom. I am a mom with no sleep. No sick days/ sick leave. No pay. Through my sacrifices, my child gets everything she needs. Through me, she grows. I am not just a mom. I AM A MOM. And yes, being a mother is my passion.
-Azennith Raven Lui