走・路 to . walk

　　序幕以倒敘法，從現在心境，回溯到過去，再回到現在，不斷反覆「尋找 — 發現 — 累積 — 內化」的成長過程，並以〈走．路〉方式感受「靜」的狀態，藝術即生活，生活即藝術，以實際生活修行的方式呈現籌備此次表演的心路歷程。

　　The opening is a flashback from how the performer feels at the moment to the past. It continues the process of “seeking-finding-accumulating-inner growth”, thus practice the “walk” to show what “silence” is. The performance will be showing you how life is connected to art through the transformation of her actual day-to-day trainings.

初 the Beginning

「開門，進門，就像回到了過去。」

“Opening the door and then walked in, it feels like the past.”

　　中學時剛接觸舞蹈，枯燥乏味的基本功訓練，從把杆暖身到中間組合，再到綜合性訓練。以為有了點基礎，出了門，才知道原來自己所習慣的身體是如此的單一。

When I started to dance during my middle school days, the transitions from dull basic trainings to multiple collections of exercises made me believe I have growth. But while I walked out the door, I finally realized that the body I am used to know is in such lifeless condition.

支離破碎 Shattered to Pieces

「不斷與自己展開對話，把身體打破重來，打破再重來。」
“I talked to myself and my body, trying to break the barrier and redo… do it all again.”

　　想打掉自身久存的框架，學習花花世界中各式各樣的新鮮玩意，卻總覺得格格不入，才驀然發現，原來是自己把自己關進了另一個封閉世界。想要衝出籠子，卻總是不堪一擊。

I wanted to learn every new things I discovered but felt that I did not belong to the brand-new world. At this moment I realized that I put myself in another locked up realm. Wanting to break out the surrounding cage but always failed.

轉捩點 the Turning Point

「遇見京劇，生命出現了一個轉捩點。」
“The turning point of my life is when I met Jinju.”

　　深知自己起步晚，不可能成為專業京劇演員。因此這次決定跟自己的喜好相處，再次重新開始，從京劇基本功練起。對京劇著迷，決定用自己可以理解與擅長的方式，嘗試跨領域：京劇與舞蹈的結合。

I understood that I can never become a real Jinju actress because I started late. However, I still became obsessed with Jinju and wanted to befriend with my new hobby. From this time on I manage my way through what I could comprehend, which is learning from the basis of Jinju and trying to combine it with the dances I am familiar with.

鑼鼓經配音｜曹復永

定・錨 Anchoring

「一棵樹要長得更高，接受更多的光明，那麼它的根就必須更深入黑暗。」

——哲學家尼采

“The more he seeks to rise into the height and light, the more vigorously do his roots struggle earthword, downword, into the dark, the deep - into evil.”

—philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche

　　這「錨」代表著過去走過黑暗的根，透過這次回望，期許未來更高，往更光明的高處長去。曾經形容自己像幅度特大的心電圖，有顆非常不安定也不安穩的心！掙扎矛盾中，好像看到了自己，好像找到了目標，又好像知道自己要甚麼，卻又都是好像。徘徊猶豫的心路歷程，都已經變成生命的養分，熔化澆鑄成扎實的「錨」，並在《定 · 錨》過程中，終於找到一個安「定」的自己。

　　This anchor represents the dark deep roots of my past. I wish through this flashback, my future will rise into the brighter and higher areas. I used to describe my life as a giant frame of ECG (Electrocardiography) because I have an unstable and uncertain heart. Through the twists and turns of my life, I thought I have found my goals and knew what I wanted, but really? The past has become the nutrients of my growth, it felt like a melted iron and has been molded into a steady anchor. This anchoring process will fix me to a more secured “me”.

箏曲：《定風波》鄧翊群　曲