Scribbles Please!

I don’t like my face 

I don’t think I ever have

And wow, shocking

A woman in this society not liking her face? 

Old

Lame

Seen it before

No woman likes their face or their looks

But what can I say? 

Following the grain 

Regardless, I don’t like my face

It’s a rather funny concept because when taking apart each feature

I tend to like them

To a degree 

I think the brown is my eyes is fresh

My nose is cute and perfectly shaped like a cartoon 

Thin eyebrows that don’t betray me often or really at all

Round cheeks

Maybe only my lips hate me but even then that’s a stretch 

So how could I not like my face when all good features are put together?

I’m not sure

I really don’t know

There’s no good reason 

Especially when considering my beliefs

I believe everyone is beautiful 

Body positivity and all that

And yet, I don’t like my face 

Or maybe I just don’t like what looks back when I’m in front a mirror or when I see a photo 

There’s something off when I do

One glance and it’s fine

But I stare too long and suddenly my face becomes…

Misshapen 

It shifts 

All of it 

I can’t even explain it very well

All I know is it just happens and I don’t enjoy it

So I will do whatever it takes to cover it

Whatever it is just so i don’t chance the encounter of seeing it in its raw form

Just so others don’t chance it either

I fear others also visualize the same situation when perceiving my face

The hiding is to protect myself and ward of others

Because what if they see that too?

Surely that’s bound to scare them off just as it does me

And so, the scribble

Oh, how I love the scribble 

It’s profound, it’s mouldable, and it can even be branded 

No matter the situation, I can remove my face with a glob of scribbles

I save myself from being jump scared whenever I look at my account 

And I save others from ever perceiving me 

What a happy medium!

So, I hide behind the scribble

At any given chance 

I search photos and videos high and low to grantee the scribble stays 

And I think I physically panic when seeing others post without a care

So when i ask “scribble please” 

I am only doing both of us a favour