Hated That I Trusted

We’re talking like normal

Something mindless that I can’t even remember now

But it’s exciting and enjoyable 

Because it's them!

I love them

There was a tug on my sleeve 

They keep going, not noticing 

But I feel it

It tugs again 

Trying to grab my attention 

I hiss

Refusing to look down

But the message gets across

And the tugging stops

It was too soon

We’re talking like normal

Something sad that I can’t even remember now

But I’m listening and comforting 

Because it’s them

I love them

But there was a tug on my sleeve 

The conversion dies down for but a minute 

Once more they’re blind to it

But I feel it

And the tug pulls my body toward the force 

Begging to be seen again

I curse 

Turning my head away so I don’t have to look

The message gets across 

Though it took longer that time

I knew it was bound to come up

We’re talking a little different this time

Something sweet that I can’t even remember now

But we’re cuddling and touching 

Because it’s them

I love them

And there was a tug again

I went silent, they never took notice 

But I feel it

Tugging and grasping onto me desperately 

I hesitated 

Looking down

She doesn’t meet my gaze 

Her eyes are locked onto them

A sparkle within those brown eyes 

I glance at them as well

They ask and once more I hesitate 

They shouldn’t meet each other

It will end horribly

But i wanted them to know her

Wanted them to know me

I decide to step aside

Slipping into the depths I don’t often slip into

She typically resides there

But maybe… Maybe just this once I’ll let her take the lead 

They’re yelling

Something aggressive that I can remember clearly 

But it’s mean and hurtful 

Because… 

I love them

But they’re attacking her 

I emerge once more

Curses falling past my lips

I should have never trusted them with her

I should have kept her silent just as I always do

She cries 

Cries like that’s all she’s ever known what to do

But they don’t care

They keep blowing smoke into her face 

I try to pull her back

She needs protection 

She’s too young 

But I can’t

I can’t protect her

They lunge forward 

I can’t protect her

They drive their hand into her chest

I love them

They rip her heart out 

Does love bleed like this?

They crush it between their fingers

Like it never meant anything to them 

She wails and only after the damage is done am I able to step in

But it doesn’t matter 

They already crushed it

They already cut into her skin

They already pulled tears

I trusted them with her

With my heart 

And they treated it like a parasite.

I hate them.