Cutting Wires

Am I broken by chance?

Was this something I should have always known?

Does everyone else see this too?

No, no, of course not.

I have met many people during my time and nothing like this lies beneath them. Literally speaking that is.

Could it be some trick of the light…?

That… doesn’t seem all too likely as it is dark within my room and I see no light reflecting or refracting at any angle.

Though the sight presented before me is truly something that seems to appear as an interesting abstract piece of art. 

A mix of dark silvery grey, blood rose red, deep ocean blue and inky pitch black all resting so peacefully behind pale skin tones.

All once untouched and left to work alone, but now ripped open and exposed to the cold air around me.

Someone could sell this in a museum.

But it would have to actually be worth something, would have to be something everyone wants and craves for.

Something they’ll throw billions of dollars away for.

To me, it's stunning.

To others, it's insanity.

Oh… maybe I lost it… I’ve gone mad haven’t I?

Am I now one of those children that get sent away to be ‘fixed’ only to come back even more broken with missing pieces?

I mean, I did just intentionally drag that stainless blade across my… skin?

Would it even be considered skin at this point?

It feels like skin on top but it does have an almost rubbery feel on the bottom.

There's no thick dripping blood like I hoped there’d be.

Not even the normal sound of natural skin being cut open.

And… there's no pain to make me forget…

There are only wires.

 Red and blue plastic wires connected to stainless steel coated in a very thin layer of dust.

And they feel… well they feel like wires, at least from what I know. 

They’re not wet, not coated in blood or even water, they’re not rusted or seem to be old and straining to work properly. 

They look and feel like ordinary wires.

Average machinery.

Nothing more, nothing less.

But how could there even be regular electrical wires lying beneath my own skin and bones…?

Well… that's a question for another day, I guess…

How do I hide the cut I gave myself?