And Suddenly

And suddenly… 

Suddenly, you’re brought into the group chat

And suddenly I’m storming to rage at you over something so silly

And suddenly I apologize 

And suddenly we’re talking

Suddenly, the group chat falls

And suddenly we stay in touch

And suddenly we’re spending time together 

And suddenly we’re off sending silly videos to one another

Suddenly, we feel comfortable around each other

And suddenly you’re opening up

And suddenly so am I 

Suddenly, you’re a close friend

And suddenly we’re playing games together 

And suddenly I’m talking about you

And suddenly you’re flirting with me

Suddenly you confess

And suddenly… I say yes

Suddenly, we’re on our first date

And suddenly we’re all giggly 

And suddenly we don’t want to hang up

And suddenly I’m getting butterflies 

Suddenly, you’re wishing me a happy birthday, and I’m wishing you a merry Christmas 

And suddenly we’re saying good morning and goodnight 

And suddenly three months go by

And suddenly you say ‘I love you’

Suddenly… I say it back 

Suddenly Valentine's is here

And suddenly we’re watching movies together 

And suddenly we’re more closer than ever before 

And suddenly I meet your friend

Suddenly, I’m giving you letters and other such physical things

And suddenly I’m watching you tear up at the sight of them

Suddenly, you buy a plane ticket

And suddenly the idea of meeting is brought forward 

And suddenly the warm summer days fly by 

And suddenly I’m nervously bouncing in my seat, waiting for the plane to land

Suddenly you’re here

And suddenly we’re hugging

And suddenly we’re laughing, filled with nervous energy 

And suddenly you’re meeting my family

And suddenly you’re meeting my friends

Suddenly we kiss

And suddenly we’re kissing behind closed doors

And suddenly you’re beauty is unmatched

And suddenly you’re essence is addictive 

And suddenly I realize there’s no place I’d rather be

Suddenly, you head back home

And suddenly it’s our one-year anniversary 

And suddenly I’m over the moon

And suddenly I’m picturing a future 

Suddenly Christmas arrives

And suddenly you’re here as a surprise!

And suddenly you meet my whole family

And suddenly they adore you

And suddenly we’re at a New Year’s party

Suddenly, drinks are involved 

Suddenly, you’re on the flight home in tears

And suddenly you’re texting me in a fit of rage

And suddenly I panic and respond coldly 

And suddenly we’re taking a break

Suddenly, you blame me fully

And suddenly I can’t look in the mirror again

And suddenly I feel like the worst partner ever 

And suddenly you get more upset

Suddenly, you stop saying ‘I love you’

And suddenly you can’t say it because you don’t mean it

And suddenly you tell me to change all that I am

And suddenly I’m stressing over every action I take

And suddenly I’m walking on eggshells that were never there before

Suddenly, you hate my friends

And suddenly, you’re friends hate me

And suddenly I’m terrified of drinking 

And suddenly we’re taking another break

Suddenly, you breakup with me 

And suddenly I’m wondering how this all happened in less than two weeks

And suddenly I’m wondering if you were always like this

And suddenly I’m wondering what happened 

And suddenly I’m wondering how you could say this after everything 

Suddenly, I beg you to stay

And suddenly I’m pleading how much I love you

And suddenly I can’t imagine a life without you in it 

And suddenly you agree reluctantly 

And suddenly we take a break from romance

And suddenly we’re friends

But suddenly you become cruel, so cruel

Suddenly, you yell at me

And suddenly you accuse me of things I never did

And suddenly I see signs of toxicity 

And suddenly you’re texting my ex

And suddenly you’re not listening 

And suddenly I realize you can’t handle a single small conflict 

And suddenly you don’t care

And suddenly you mean everything you say

And suddenly you won’t talk to me

And suddenly it’s all falling apart 

And suddenly I’m trying everything I can

And suddenly my friends are giving me that look

And suddenly I’m that anxious kid again

And suddenly I feel you leave

And suddenly I don’t know what to do with myself 

And suddenly it’s all too much 

And suddenly-!

Suddenly… so suddenly… I realize you never loved me

And suddenly I pull the final thread

And suddenly…

Suddenly we’re strangers again