Close to you

The flowers I can see, your laughter in the breeze

Too faraway to reach, too beautiful to leave

A spider lily wilts, your slumber deepens till

You smile in your rest, and take your final breath

And there I was again, giving you my thanks

That's how we used to be, the life of you and me

The meaning of "goodbye" was never on my mind

Until it came to be. The grief is killing me

Because, in honesty, and selfishly, I need

To feel your beating chest and see you smile again

My tears I'm holding back again, I cannot let them break my line of sight to you

I never wanted this to end. We could've been forever, don't you wish it too?

The sparkle in your eyes reflect the night, saying even stars will fade in time

But in the Now, I hold your soul, and you hold my soul

I wanted to be close to you, forevermore, entangled by a scarlet thread

To have your hand in mine again, instead I mourn a warmth that I can never get

Although I cannot hear you anymore when I call, your smile says it all

And yet I still cannot accept, it can't be the end

So let it melt away like a dream. Please don't leave

And with a form to hold, time is ticking slow

I can't escape my age, you can't escape decay

Without a form to hold, time has all but froze

How can I let this be? Oh, please come back to me

Because, in honesty, this is reality

I'll never get to see you by my side again

My tears I'm holding back again, I cannot let them paint the sky in mourning blues

I never wanted this to end, so I pretend that I can find my way to you

The sparkle in my eyes reflect the night, saying even stars will fade in time

Forever beating in my soul, so just take my soul

I wanted to be close to you, forevermore, entangled by a scarlet thread

I'm reaching for your hand again, I took your warmth for granted. What a fool I've been

Although I cannot see you anymore, I recall your smile as I bawl

And yet I still deny it all, you're not really gone

Forever, no, it's all a bad dream. I can't leave

Replaying it again, replaying in my head

Beginnings have to end, a life will end in death

But you, who wait alone, at home within my soul

Why are you laughing still? Hey…

My tears I'm holding back again, I cannot let—

—All my tears, I cannot let them break my line of sight to you—

—I never wanted this to end, so here I am, forever, living for us two—

—The sparkle in our eyes reflect the night, saying even stars will fade in time—

—But in the Now I hold your soul, and you hold my soul—

—I promise I'll be close to you, forevermore, entangled by a scarlet thread—

And everything I feel for you, the tears I shed, they all transcend our start and end

Although I cannot hold you anymore, without form, you paint the sky in red

And now the rising sun will set, everything will end

I touch your heart and wake from my dream. Be at peace