More gracefully
Than the single sweep of a dove’s white wings,
More elegantly
Than the royal blue-green of a peacock’s tail,
The stage lights reflecting off her
Like she is Selene herself.
She paints the wood canvas beneath her feet
With every step, every practiced motion, every note
That glides through the air as a dragonfly takes flight.
A celebration —
In its entirety, of her life, of her vibrance,
And of her, as she reaches for the skies and
Ascends the stage.
Exo 145B Report #33: Deep Space Ex.Team B632D Report.
Entry 1: On 02/05/54/12:00 galactic standard time, the one man team Deep Space Ex B632D departed
from Foundation Spaceway node #72 to explore planet 145B7, a potentially life possessing plant. There
were no abnormalities at launch.
Agent Patterson’s vessel touched down at 02/05/54/14:32 galactic standard time. Exploration logs were
Exo 145B Report #33: Deep Space Ex.Team B632D Report.
Entry 1: On 02/05/54/12:00 galactic standard time, the one man team Deep Space Ex B632D departed
from Foundation Spaceway node #72 to explore planet 145B7, a potentially life possessing plant. There
were no abnormalities at launch.
Agent Patterson’s vessel touched down at 02/05/54/14:32 galactic standard time. Exploration logs were recovered by an extraordinary transmission. The logs can be viewed in addendum 1; Notes on the
recovery can be found in addendum 2.
Addendum 1: Recovery
On 01/25/54/07:12 galactic standard time, Dyson station 227 uncounted unexpected solar activity. The
station sent several emergency distress signals, each appended with a series of messages later identified to
be written by Agent Patterson. The primary cell regulator ceased function after maxing out available
processing resources, and was unable maintain position of the solar cells.
The Dyson station suffered extreme radiation damage resulting in the loss of all on site computers and
personal. No data was able to be recovered. The station is still under recovery.
Agent Patterson was not aware of these events at time of departure.
Addendum 1: Exploration Logs
Exploration Log 15, Agent Patterson, Relative Time 03:09:23:32. Local Time Approx. 17:00 – The time
vessel is completely discharged; I reserved the shut down notification moments ago. I am approaching the
metal deposit previously located by the radar. The forest at the base of the mountain is not like the ones
from my present. The trees seem to be made of old concrete and plastics, now covered in green, yellow,
and purple fungal growths. The whole of the forest floor is covered in similar spindly fungus, which
rebounds when crushed. The whole forest is pin drop silent. I keep seeing floating lights. I must be going
mad.
Exploration Log 16, Agent Patterson, Relative Time 03:12:26:02. Local Time Approx. 20:00 – The sun is
below the horizon now. The forest still seems like day. The mold on all the structures seems almost
timeless. My vision is getting worse the longer I stay here. I suspect the mold must have some kind of
psychoactive effect. I’ve put my helmet back on and am using my suits filters. The meter on it is busted,
but the air seems to be getting filtered.
Exploration Log 17, Agent Patterson, Relative Time 03:14:40:58. Local Time Approx. 22:00 – I don’t
think the filter is helping. The lights of my hallucinations are getting worse, and I can hear a buzzing
wherever I go. I think I can hear a voice in the buzzing. I need to keep focused. The deposit isn’t much
farther.
Exploration Log 18, Agent Patterson, Relative Time 03:15:12:48. Local Time Approx. 23:00 – I can hear
the voice in the buzzing clearly now. It’s endless and calm, and continues with out breath for hours.
There’s cracks and pops in it’s voice. The buzzing bobs up and down. The voice is reading platonic
commentary. It seems to take the perspective of a philosophy student from the 1960s, and is endlessly
praising Plato, often going on extend criticism of other ideas. The deposit is at the bottom of a ravine.
Floor of the ravine seems to shift and move like the pond near my house. I’m going to attempt to descend
the ravine.
Exploration Log 19, Agent Patterson, Relative Time 03:12:54:32. Local Time Approx. 23:30 – I’ve fallen
while trying to descend. Not far, only a meter, but I jammed my leg pretty hard. It’s swelling, and I
suspect I may have sustained a skeletal injury. I can’t walk. The buzzing and the voice are louder. The
bobbing has morphed into a chant. It’s strangely harmonic. It sounds like some new age experimental
chant.
Exploration Log 20, Agent Patterson, Relative Time 03:13:05:18. Local Time Approx. 23:40 – I’ve put a
splint on my leg. I can’t walk yet, but I am trying to fashion a cane from the box of the med kit. So far
unsuccessfully. I feel like I’m being watched. I keep seeing fight green, yellow, and purple lights, and
moving figures at the corners of my vision. I’m beginning to doubt the psychoactive effects of the fungus,
I think I’m just mad.
Exploration Log 21, Agent Patterson, Relative Time 03:13:57:02. Local Time Approx. 00:30 – Several
yellow figures climbed onto my ledge from the ravine. They are roughly humanoid, but seem to be
entirely fungal. They aren't aggressive, but they have abducted me. There were to many for me to resist.
They’re carrying me deeper into the ravine.
Exploration Log 23, Agent Patter1*2m%32#43, Relative Time 06:45:24:08. Local Time Approx.
00:0000000 – I’m at the bottom of the cave. The mushroom people communicate using flashing, almost
phonetic lights. After seeming to debate with each other, they’ve brought me to a collapsed room, filled
with abandoned computer parts covered in the same kind of timeless forest mold as the surface. At the
back of the room, a heavily damaged screen struggles to display a talking face. A Damaged speaker blasts
platonic proverbs. The mushroom people stomp their feet rhythmically on the metal floors. The
mushrooms edge me closer and closer to the screen. Now I can see a gap in the floor below the speaker,
and the remains of a strange reactor below. In these last moments, I’ve written a virus to pass these logs
on anywhere they can. My last warning is to asNIO%(*oN#JQ~%NnjN/’/\’FOJ(*P3%JpPMmlm ah u +_
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End of Log
There on the sea, a singing sailor sang
His flag flying proudly above
The water beneath him an aquamarine
As the waves give him a gentle shove
Her hand guided him and his boat out to sea
In a flurry of panicked egress
Her eyes closed and shining, the sun leading way
Thinking little of its warm caress
But her eyelids flung open, her hand tense and white
Pulling clouds out and hiding the sun
The sailor, confused at the sea’s sudden fit
Gazed into her eyes and found no one
The sky had turned black and her heart cold as ice
Her eyes piercing into his own
Her waves crashing deadpan in front of him
Telling him that he’s truly alone
Where is he to go? It’s but him and his ship
In the center of her domain
As he covers his head and makes for the worst
The sun comes back to power again
She retreats down below with a scowl of green
Her lifeless stare leaving him pale
The apathy in it struck fear into him
His flag now a mess from the gale
Waves lap against the sand
And the stars outshine the moon
Their twinkling light reflects across the ground
Making constellations as I dance under the night sky
Shining as brightly as glowing flames
Streaking across the sky, full of wishes and hopes and dreams
I look towards the heavens to meet the one I wish to see
This is what I believe—the sand, the sky, the sea.
My brains behind the wheel,
and my heart is a buggy GPS.
It works pretty well,
till my heart makes a guess.
We’re driving down the highway,
200 miles more to go today,
and then my heart spoke:
“Turn off the interstate.”
And I did.
Once I made the turn I couldn’t stop,
both cause the brakes and cause of traffic.
Now I’m in Small Town, Ur Single heArt,
and the locals cause my brain quite the havoc.
Scattered autumn leaves like drifting embers in the air
Golds, ambers, and reds coat the ground.
Fallen in piles, the leaves crunch underfoot.
As small ants march in line scouring the lifeless forest floor,
I imagine little footsteps silent in the rustling of the wind.
Softly treading, I admire the fairies that waltz amongst the swaying trees
As the woodland spirits create a flaming breeze
that sings of magic in the autumn leaves.
The city’s heartbeat speaks in the feet that traverse its sidewalls
Its breath whispers in the talking that travels throughout
Gossip travels faster than little boys running to their mothers,
Faster than the women trying to tell their neighbors
the words that float wandering aimlessly until grasped with a tight fist.
I open my mouth to unleash my voice, but it is silenced as I discover it
It staves me unflinchingly as I choke, my voice failing me in my horror and fear.
It rises from the past, collecting fallen hopes in its frail hands.
It falls into the future, catching whatever there is to catch.
Beneath the heaps of leaves
Holding my breath
Excited to see
The orchards thriving with golden fruit
The birds seem to sing along with me
The dimming light in my eyes has ruined the fun
I turn away from the setting sun
It’s okay, I’ll be back tomorrow.
You will always remain a nuisance to peace.
When the gentle stream of quiet is called for, you staunch its flow with a barricade of sound.
Your dam of noise builds a reservoir of silence, that breaks through your buzzing walls in a pounding torrent.
Maybe you have never heard of me, maybe you do not know who I am.
But when the walls come up, who am I to blame you.
Can you mend the scattered pieces of a broken life?
You will always be a chain to the freed.
When the unbearable stillness suffocates the spirit, you still do not release your grip.
Your unrelenting clutch stifles my voice, suppressing waves of words that yearn to crash on shore.
Maybe you know who I am, but maybe you have never bothered to hear what I have to say.
But when the walls come down, I always reach my arm out to you.
Can you calm the fragments of a churning soul?
Perhaps - if only I could hear you over the roar of deafening silence.