Dead/Lucid Self Portrait
Graphite on paper - 2024
In this piece, I was thinking about religion. And how we justify with religion and overcome our greatest fear. The unknown. In old literature (romeo and juliet and catullus 5) the writers play this metaphor of this very short life we live and how we should spend it with loving. Everyone does things in preface to death, either it being memorable for things done in your life or loved by others. This self portrait talks about how death is a part of everyone living or not. Death might be the one thing that controls your life.
‘Sacramento II’
Oil on canvas - 2025
Sacramento II talks about a dream that never got out of my life. Teenage dirty love. Being my first painting I ever tried out it became very imprinted alongside my life. It's like I played with an emotion that wrapped around my brain and heart. This painting is about shameful, very shameful and forbidden love. I wanted to strip away all the elegance and make it very emotional and fleeting. How love doesn't favour one party and it destroys both of them like barbed wire to skin. It mangles.
‘Fauna/Fons’
Watercolor on paper 2025
I came into this with a lot of courage from pen and ink exercises. I wanted to show the stages of this green arena with it’s steps and grass bottom. I wanted to show the intense green I saw in everything around it. How the green changed how we viewed the grays or brown.
‘Ad Monstrum’
Watercolor on paper - 2025
This was the last given project for my first painting class. I wanted to do something on the catacombs and explore the repeating, natural but human made structure of it. I was fascinated by it, that the french made a tunnel system miles long underground a city. I didn’t like water color at all but it gives the choice to really contrast a dark color with the other values. So I learned to love it.
‘Hell II’
Soft Pastel on Paper - 2025
I wanted to show the vibrancy of the colors that was shown in the still life. Whilst still showing some realism I wanted to incorporate my own developing style and homogenize it into this watery eyed still life. In my own eyes, I have VSS (Visual Snow Syndrome) and I have had it for as long as I can remember. I wanted to show what I see constantly. I have to force my eyes in to see the very detail of a contour between objects. In this still life every object is free.
‘Ebb and Flow’
Soft Pastel on Paper - 2025-2026
I wanted to capture the folds of the striped cloth good and how it changes constantly throughout the piece. How every fold seems calculated and also bearing weight. How value kind of makes the folds pop out at you and selected viewing. How the contrast of texture between the white and the striped began to form with the cloudy form of the blank white cloth and the very similar tones of the striped cloth.
‘The Game’
Oil on Canvas - 2025-2026
Coming into the year I wanted to experiment with my limits and test how good I am in terms of putting out my own concepts out on canvas. This was a very beneficial and struggled process for me. I went through multiple processes of renewal and reflection every time I encountered a setback. I was very emotionally tied to this piece, I was so bound with it that I began to have dreams about being in it. The Game is about the human idea of consummation. How we ignore our affects to be in constant bliss, the blatant ignorance for any life shown by modern mass slaughter techniques. I see much similarities between animal slaughter and past historical mass murders in both Great Wars. How to fulfill our human nature of destruction and hate, we mutilate and consume animals without any feelings behind it. ‘Ultra-Violence’ has become so integrated to society as we prop animals as trophies of materialistic value. So, The Game is a direct assault to the unsustainable ridiculous ways we assume value or preference to killing to inherently sentient behavioral animals. And we serve it as an art, the art of killing.