These whirling feelings spinning till they break.

Even happiness is causing a headache.

Now our memories are splitting up in two and sad is what you are leaving for my charred heart.

While floating I was able to lift what my heart needs.

Fearing them, hoping and then, even while I am screaming it out.

It hurts so much and it's your touch.

I am breaking down, underwater, I am drowning.

Again it's me that's weak.

Hear me.

I swallowed my feelings for so long now. Managed my pain somehow, watching over it.

It's hard taking in that things are passing, yet these footsteps are my past. They are holding a grasp.

Silently I am sensing how life is starting to be reborn, taken away.

Even kindly giving has got it's meaning destroyed. Hey it's destroyed.

While crumbling down I'm asking myself "What are these tears?"

"Do our words still mean the same, dear you?"

"Are we done?"

Reaching out for your arm

And for your helping hand.

The wrinkles on your smiling lips.

"Does it hurt?"

Going back in +REVERSE.

Now I want to leave the monochrome tones of holding on.

Down I scream, blending the scene.

The voice I hear causes so much pain.

And agony keeps killing me.

Again I'm breaking down, wishing for these crippling thoughts to just stop.

So I can start living just like I was back then.

Oh to remember and to forget.