i. DANGER

THERE IS A PLACE WHERE THERE ARE NO HEADLIGHTS, AND THE OVERHEADSIGNS BLINK, BLINK, BLINK! BRIGHTLY, THEY BLINK BRIGHTLY, AND YOU JUST SLIDE PAST 'EM SMOOTH AS BUTTER. THERE'S A PLACE AND YOU CAN COME IN ONLY WITH VEHICLE; VEHICLE; VEHICLE--LANDSLIDE, LANDSLIDE, LANDSLIDE! THERE IS NO WINNING HERE, JUST ROAD AND THAT ROAD DRAGS ON AND ON, BLACK LINES. AND THEY GO AND GO AND GO. DO YOU EVER WONDER IF IT'S REAL? ME & YOU WE DON'T HAVE DRIVERS LICENSE, SO WE JUST HEAR 'BOUT THIS PLACE OVER AND OVER. THIS PLACE THAT ONLY EXISTS VIA CAR /  VEHICLE. 

HAVE YOU HEARD?

HAVE YOU HEARD? 

I WANNA GO THERE, I WANNA GO. THERE'S NOTHING FOR ME HERE ANYMORE. MAMA I WANNA GO.

ii. CAUTION

DO YOU GET SCARED?

SOMETIMES I MISS WHEN SUMMER WAS YELLOW? SUNFLOWERS AND BUMBLEBEES AND CARNATIONS; SKIP THE LAST ONE, GOT IT WRONG. WE'LL TRY AGAIN, LET'S TRY AGAIN, AND AGAIN; WE'LL SLOW DOWN, GET IT RIGHT THIS TIME. YOU GOT BURNED BEFORE. YOU GOT HURT AND SMATTERED AND BATTERED AND BRUISED, BUT THAT DIDN'T MATTER MUCH TO YOU. YOU WERE FEARLESS. DO YOU GET SCARED? WEARIN' A GRIN LIKE THAT, MAN, I THOUGHT YOU WERE IMMORTAL, IMPOSSIBLE,       IDYLLIC. GOD YOU WERE IT YOU WERE EVERYTHING. BUT YOU BURNED, YOU BURNED ME. DO YOU GET SCARED? SHOULD I TRY AGAIN LATER?

iii. NAIVE

I AM STANDING ON THE PRECIPICE OF GODHOOD AND FAILURE. THEY CALL THIS HUBRIS; THEY CALL THIS STANDING ON              THE EDGE.  CALL IT SELF- DESTRUCTION AND                       CHASING RABBITS AND GEESE. MAYBE THEY'D CALL IT SOMETHING BETTER IF THEY WERE HERE WITH ME, BECAUSE THIS PLACE IS WINDY AND BRIGHT AND WONDERFUL. I DON'T MEAN TO SOUND SO NEW AT ALL THIS, I CAN'T HELP MY NOT KNOWING. YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW.  MAYBE I SHOULD VISIT THE LIBRARY MORE OFTEN. MAYBE I SHOULD KNOW MORE; MAYBE I SHOULD BE MORE, BE MORE, MORE THAN I WAS BEFORE. MORE THAN I WILL EVER BE. DO YOU THINK IT'S POSSIBLE?

iv. GET GOING, GET GONE

I'M NOT LOOKING BACK THIS IS ALL EXITS, ALL EXITS, I'M NEVER LOOKING BACK. I'M GOING TO TAKE THIS SO FUCKING FAR, SO FUCKING FAR THAT EVEN MY MEMORY WILL OF THIS PLACE WILL BE A VAGUE INDENTATION OF WHAT IT WAS. GOD, HOW DO YOU  BECOME                               SOMETHING THAT YOU DON'T KNOW? GOD, HOW DO YOU GET BETTER? GOD, THIS IS A SEARCH HISTORY OF A PERSON ON THE RUN: HOW DO YOU GET A CAR? HOW DO YOU DRIVE? DRIVERS LICENSE. HOW DO YOU GET A DRIVERS LICENSE? HOW DO YOU START A CAR? HOW TO HOTWIRE A CAR? WHAT IS A SPEED LIMIT? FAR AWAY. HOW MUCH IS A PLANE TICKET? PLANE TICKET. PLANE TICKET TO FAR, FAR AWAY. HOW DO I  START A NEW LIFE? HOW TO RENT AN APARTMENT? WHAT IS A W-2? WHAT IS A TAX RETURN? HOW DO I BECOME SOMETHING I'VE NEVER BEEN?