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Clustercord! 2/12/26

I've finally made a Discord server for Chaotic Clusterfuck! (yay for the 2 people who have played the mod, I guess.) But anyways, you should totally join it if you want to meet new people and recieve new CC updates through DC! You also get some sneak peeks of upcoming features, enemies, and everything all-around! Join now! 

Why I think vibe coding sucks (and why you should too) 2/9/26

Hey! Haven't posted here in a little while.  It's currently 12:46 AM right now on a Sunday (I have school tomorrow and I'm miserable as shit)  and I've been pondering about something. How the hell do people enjoy vibe coding? If you have no clue on what that means, it's basically when some random person decides "Hmm, I want to make a website/app!" and instead of actually learning how to code with a coding language like HTML or Python (the two of which I'm currently learning myself) they prompt an AI to do all the work. This completely ruins the fun in coding! You can't even call it "coding" because you're prompting a bot to do everything for you! If this community (yes there is a community of people who do this and are proud of it) actually learned how to code manually they would be much better off! AI is notorious for being a HORRIBLE developer,  making errors left and right and "fixing" said errors by making even more issues. Moral of the story, vibe coding bad, normal coding good. If any of you guys are interested in coding (which I doubt because barely anyone knows me and likely nobody will read this) you can check out some excellent For Dummies books on Amazon for many different coding languages. I bought the HTML, CSS, & JavaScript 5 in one book from them and it's taught me close to everything I need about coding with HTML! That's all I've gotta say for now, thanks for reading!

Unstuck 1/23/26

I just finished a new map for CC! It's the longest yet, and took the longest to make. It took me about 1 and a half weeks to make but... here it is! Also, I remade the intermission music as I feel it sounded bad. I'll probably end up remaking all of the MIDIs i've used in the past levels (Roti Quest, Bugfield) because they admittedly also sounded very trash.

Stuck 1/20/26

Here it comes again.... I'm experiencing even more art block and can't combat it in the slightest. I don't even know what else to say here, but I feel like shit.

Certified Video Gaming 1/14/26

I've returned to CC to kickstart 1.5 after a lot of procrastination and battling my own perfectionism, and have started to work on a new map. I also learned how to code with HTML in the span of one class period, which is pretty cool, I guess. Back on the topic of CC, I really want it to go big someday, but I doubt it ever will. I just wish I could have a small fanbase, at least but all the fans so far consist of: me, my cousin, & my friend Colin (the main playtester of this mod.) I can't hope for fame so early, though, as CC has a long way to go.

Happy New Year! 1/4/26

It's the new year! I've stopped working on CC for now, but I will eventually return to it. I'm actually working on a deathmatch mod now which is quite a surprise, knowing that I'm not very good at making multiplayer stuff. Anyways, I've released CC 1.4 as a little new year's gift! Go play it!

But... maybe not? 12/16/25

I don't know if I should end Chaotic Clusterfuck this soon. Even if I've been working on it for 5 months and have added more content than I ever have in any other mod, It just feels... wrong to end it so abruptly, no?  I might finish this specific half of CC and pick it back up a few months later. I need to focus on more stuff in my life (work, projects, planning, etc.) and need to take a break from modding. I have some concepts for what to add but don't necessarily know what it's gonna be just yet.

The End of The Line 12/15/25

Well... It was a good run. I'm pretty much out of ideas for CC, and this will likely be the final update. There's truly no "saving" this mod anymore,  and I'm gonna wrap it up with a bang. It's going to end with a continuation of Save Grape. I don't know if I'm gonna be working on any more WADs for a good while, but be ready for my arrival when I do! I will notify you guys when I release the final update!

Plinkin' 11/27/25

It's currently 9:00 AM, and I just added something big to CC. A new weapon! Say hello to the Plinker, the most powerful handgun out of both the .44 and the Spreadygun! It definitely isn't a perfect weapon, but it's amazing for sniping. But, you may ask "Hey, doesn't that leave both the Spreadygun and the .44 useless?" For the spreadygun, yes. It was meant to be a starting weapon and wasnt supposed to be consistently used throughout the game. The .44 on the other hand, no. The altfire on the .44 that fires a .410 shell (dont ask how that works) makes the weapon not useless as that altfire alone is a devestating attack. That's all I gotta say, for now. More updates coming soon!

The End of The World 11/26/25

Friends were dropped, new friends were made. I won't get into detail, but I'm happy to say I've been working on 1.4 more and less at the same time. I've been taking day long breaks between updates, but when I finally drop a new build something either new or a good change is made. CC 1.4 probably won't be released until December at most. I've got maps to make, and a lotta shit to do.  If you're wondering about the title, just like many of the other posts under this, this is a line from the song Any Last Werdz By Eazy-E. It's a great song, and I've been listening to it a lot. I'm gonna go to sleep now, It's 11:00 PM. As the dude at the end of Toy Box by ICP said: "Fuck oof!"

Freight Train 11/17/25

Dapper Duck is gone. I've officially rebranded to JToTheB, as it has become my new alias. I needed to rebrand at a certain point, as staying as dapper duck was going to do me no good. An update on CC, I've been making a few marginal updates to it. That's all I gotta say. Enjoy the rebrand!

You really don't understand, don't you? 11/16/25

I've been analyzing how i've improved in Doom modding and wow has it been wild. I went from thinking I was the best mapper ever from making a box with monsters in it, to making fully fledged megawads with months worth of effort. But I don't think I truly get what it was that made me change. Was it the countless playthrough videos of my maps from people like the lamp who gave me serious advice I never took seriously? Or could it be all the people on Doomworld who tried to actually teach my ignorant ass on how to do things correctly, and me not listening like the "badass" I was? Looking back, the things that I thought were impressive were actually not good. The people online were truly right about my work. I'm just happy to know that I've changed. That's all I've gotta say for today. Thanks for reading, and I'll see you guys the next time I decide to post here.

A manual, you say? 11/12/25

I'm thinking about making a manual for CC, as I feel it deserves one. I have no clue why I even gave TLM:RR a manual, as it was pretty bad.  Anyways, I might release the manual in a future update or I might scrap it entirely. Thanks for reading! (I'm for some reason bringing that back)

No Strings Attached 11/8/25

Development for CC 1.4 has started with a bang! There may be a bit of a quality over quantity in this update, so there won't be many maps in favor of more content. I'm looking to make longer maps, as the maps in CC usually last a minute or less. If you're wondering why this post is called No Strings Attached, it's because I've been listening to this song by Mr. Bungle of the same name. It's off of one of their demos, called Bowel of Chiley. 

Another update down... 10/18/25

Chaotic Clusterfuck 1.3... I'd consider CC as my magnum opus when it comes to doom mapping because I've simply made nothing like it. This new update adds many new maps, altfires, new enemies, a custom cast call, and Dr fucking Pepper.  Go play it!

Molly 10/14/25

I got a cat! Her name is Molly, and she's a calico. As I'm writing this at my desk, she is sitting in my lap. Everyone say hi to Molly!

Sata Andagi! 10/3/25

Been working on CC less, because I've started to watch this anime called Azumanga Daioh. Peakest shit ever, hands down. But besides that, I've been doing fine lately. I had my birthday on September 19th, which was good. I've been sorta bored and confused on what to add to CC, but I'm still brainstorming! 

Still Alive 9/13/25

Hey, so I've been working on Chaotic Clusterfuck like... a lot. Expect lots of new content, if you thought version 1.2 was good 1.3 is that times two. Cutscenes, car battery stores, fodder killing, and even a Dr. Pepper boss fight? I was kinda thinking about deleting all the posts about me absolutely fucking malding about youtube, but i'll probably just add them to a separate, unlisted page for memories or whatever. Be ready for CC 1.3, because it's coming soon.

Seriously? 9/1/25

Ever since the day VYTHRS made his website I knew it would just be some copy of mine. I don't mean to go after him, but at this point I just need to.  His website isn't even original, it's basically just a cheap copy of my website with some half assed "new" pages.  If you're reading this Vyond, please just be original for once.

Grapevine Elites 8/26/25

I've been researching about a doom modding group called the Grapevine Elites, the people behind infamous terry wad B4NM.  I can't find much information on them besides their website friggingrapevind.6te.net/index.html. The most i've found is that they have a Discord server and a list of the people who worked on the mod. If anyone from said group or anyone who knows anything about them is reading this, hit me up on my email! My email is jacksonsmailstuff@proton.me if anyone is wondering. And a tiny update on Chaotic Clusterfuck, there is more content and more maps coming soon!

Bombshell 8/12/25

It's here. Chaotic Clusterfuck 1.2 has been officially released. Three new maps, some new enemy overhauls and the Dualsaw, a replacement for the Chainsaw. There will be more to come, and it will be better and better. Good luck on these new challenges, because they get a little unfair. And also if you felt the map "Save Grape" to be a bit short I'm kinda sorry, it was mostly just a map to progress the "plot" of the mod. And as it said, it will be continued. As always, don't take anything seriously, everything is in good fun, yadda yadda yadda. 

Trial and Error 8/9/25

An issue has arose: Beer Land crashes the game. Basically I was trying to code something that made the level end when you picked up all the beer, but there's SO many entities in the map to the point where if you give every single one a tag, the game gets overwhelmed and shits itself. So I'm currently stuck trying to fix it. The ZDoom forums have been my saving grace throughout this entire project, and a special shoutout to Enjay for helping me with the code on Beer Land. More maps are likely coming, but it may be a bit before they're made. As I always say, do not take anything portrayed in this mod seriously.

Brick by Brick 8/8/25

You may be wondering "why is this entry called Brick by Brick?" and I'll tell you why right now. Chaotic Clusterfuck is about to become 10 times better. New monster replacements, an ENTIRELY reworked custom menu, custom DIFFICULTIES and so, SO much more. New maps haven't been worked on yet, but may be released in the future. Since Chaotic Clusterfuck will be constantly updated, I will post an update log in the download folder for the game. As always, don't take anything seriously in this mod and have fun playing!

Grand Release 8/5/25

It's finally out; Chaotic Clusterfuck! I've been anticipating this day of release and now here it is. As a side note, there will be new content added every once in a while as it is a work in progress. As I stated in the README file, I don't support any of the things mentioned in the mod or portrayed. The random nazi imagery, the comment on fiddleafox, and most of the vyond stuff are prime examples of this. This was all made in good fun with the ideas and help of my friends. If you're gonna go play it, good luck. Thanks for reading, and see you guys next time.

gm_targetpractice 7/25/25

I've worked on a map called gm_targetpractice for Garry's Mod which you can go play here. It's basically a wooden building with a room including ammo and guns. There's also a  tiny shooting range section outside of the room. As this is only my second map made on Garry's Mod, please do not expect a giant map with hours of content, as I only spent about a day on it. Have fun playing, and thanks for reading.

New Release 7/24/25

Just released a new deathmatch map! Go play it if you want, but no stress. The other mod is almost finished and about ready for release, but I need to make a few changes. Thanks for reading, that's all i have to say.

Doing just fine 7/15/25

Hello again! I'm currently writing this in Delaware (wow, two vacations in one summer!) and have been doing just fine. It's pretty nice being able to get out of the house every once in a while. New posts will be made shortly, but this is all I have to say for now. And an update on that mod I mentioned in the last post, I might actually be releasing it! ;) Stay tuned!

MX 7/5/25

I've been working on a new doom mod I probably won't end up releasing. It's mostly just a test on a lot of things DECORATE related. Been playing a new game called Atlyss which is very cool actually, and I've been playing it on what I'd say is a daily basis. I don't really know what else to say, so thanks for reading I guess.

Update! 6/28/25

Hey, so I'm back from Carolina and it was an absolute honor to be there. I know these are two entirely different things but I've started to get into this anime called "Bocchi The Rock" which is pretty neat, even if I'm not that much of an anime person myself. The reason why I didn't make any posts during the trip is because I didn't bring my laptop with me. That's really all i have to say, thanks for reading and see you guys next time!

Summer 6/16/25

Fuck. Yeah. I've been anticipating this for a while, and I know in the last post I was all sappy but oh my god I'm so stoked. I'm going to North Carolina with my friend soon, and that's my first time ever traveling out of the northeast! Expect more notepad posts along the summer, but not like every day posts. Thanks for reading, and I'll see you guys next time!

The End 6/15/25

Tommorow. Tomorrow is the last day of school. After that it's to a new school I go, and jesus am I anxious. I guess summer's coming which is fine but I just haven't been in a great place lately. I've been stressing about minor inconveniences for months and I can't really help it anymore. Thanks for reading, and I'll see you guys next time.

Ctrl+C, Ctrl+V6/3/25

Decided to check up on VYTHRS out of boredom and found out he made a website! Intrigued, I checked it out and found out it's basically just my site. I don't even think he tried to hide it! I wonder where he got the idea for "On this site you can expect", huh. Sure it's not a 1 to 1 copy but damn does it "borrow" a lot from my site. VYTHRS, if you're reading this I'm not trying to start drama. All I'm trying to say is just be more original. Thanks for reading!

Lifeless 6/2/25

Words cannot describe how fucking jaded I have been for the past week. I have been going through a bit of a cycle. I would work on something, eat and drink occasionally, repeat. The same thing over and over again. I've been reading a book titled House of Leaves and jesus has it taken a toll on my mood. Summer may be right around the corner but I just feel empty. I feel like I might be going insane, honestly. Thanks for reading I guess.

Tomorrow's gonna be better 5/21/25

It's currently 11 PM where I am and I'm really damn tired. Gonna probably go to sleep after writing this, but darn was today boring. I didn't really do a lot, played some GMod and other things I guess. The end of the school year is coming up, and I'm going to a new school! That's gonna be pretty cool I guess. I don't really know how to end this off, but I also wanted to just take note of how angry I was at YouTube. I, in no way support their appeal system but MY GOD was I just rambling. That's all I have to say for now, thanks for tuning in and see you guys next time!

State testing... 5/5/25

Starting state testing today, this is gonna suck. Also dropping the dapper duck character on my new channel, I just don't want to be known as it anymore. I'll keep the dapper duck name though. Thanks for reading and good luck on state testing (if it's starting for you!)

Guess who's back, back again 5/2/25

I'm back on YouTube with a fresh new account! This time I'm going to avoid breaking any guidelines because I don't want to be in that process again. You can check out my channel here. That's all I really wanted to say, thanks for reading this and have a nice night.

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