By Jonathan Cooper

I was born on August 20, 1972. To Jim and Judy Cooper. My life started a little rough was born with meningitis and was given only three days to live. God had a different plans for me. I really don’t remember a whole lot of my childhood. I was the last of eight children. I grew up in a Baptist church in Memphis Tennessee. I gave my heart to Jesus several times as a kid but did not understand what I was doing. I was very shy and timid in my younger years. I was always getting beat up by my older brother. My sisters always seem to protect me a lot. Unfortunately my mother was verbally and physically abusive where as my father was there but not there. He had a present in the home but not in emotion one. at least that’s what it seem like to me. I was diagnosed with a learning disability in my elementary years of school so I had to go through special learning classes. From the age of 5 to 15 I was sexually abused by my older brother. He made me submit with force or guilt most of it was With force. He would beat me up and hit with a blunt object to get me to submit. I will admit it got to the point where I wanted to just do what he ask so i wouldn’t get hurt. During my early teenage years I started getting curious about the male body and having feelings towards men. I remember in fifth grade having feelings towards a kid in my class. I did not understand exactly what it was ,I thought it was love. As I got into my high school years my emotions and feelings became stronger towards the same sex. I was wanting to know what it would be like to be with a man to have a man hold me and tell me he loved me. My father never did that it’s up for what he wrote a letter where he said he was proud of me for graduating. My mother unfortunately was verbally and physically abusive. One unfortunate thing I remember that I have given grace to and have forgiven her for was I was Taking out the trash one morning . As I was coming in the wind head cocked the door and slammed it my mother was mad she came out of her room with a rage came up to me punched me in the face knocking me to the ground telling me that I was no good I’d never make it In life and be like my older brothers and sisters who mostly had dropped out of high school and became drug And alcoholics. Look like God gave me the ambition to prove her wrong not to disrespect her but prove her wrong. I have never disrespected my mother in any physical or verbal us since. I tried to have the upmost respect for both of my parents. I moved in with my sister and my curiosity grow stronger. I was going to Adult bookstore to seek out what I was longing for. I had unfortunately gotten into porn early in my life my father had at least six suitcases full of VHS tape‘s. At those times my brother would force me to watch them as we had sexual encounters. At the age of 19 with all the struggling I made a decision to turn to Jesus Christ. Although I was saved I did not understand why I could not love in that manner. I started going to an exodus ministry meeting that happened every Friday night in Memphis and learned that I could be free but still did not exactly understand how. I moved to Pennsylvania in 1994 when the Frankenburger who consider to be my adoptive family moved up there. And started out another group called free which was another part of the exodus ministries. With no one to walk beside me and teach me I struggled and walk the fence for many years. In 2001I am had met a young lady and thought that she was the one. The church that I was going to encouraged me to get married and said that Would help me to be free of my homosexual desires. Boy were they wrong! I was miserable for most of the marriage. The best thing that came out of the marriage was a beautiful son by the name of Gabriel. I also changed my name from Cooper to Frank and Burger because I felt that was where my identity lied with the family I considered my own the Frankenburger. After nine years of marriage I decided to walk away from it because I did not feel the healing or the change in my life that I was expecting. I thought this was how God made me a gay man. I moved to Florida and met a gentleman and we got married I was living the gay lifestyle for seven years four of those I was married to a man. In 2016 I met a godly man by the name of Russ reed. This will give you an idea I’ve got Cincy humor and irony. He was a evangelical Christian who follow the word of God strongly. Even though I felt like being a gay man was who got it made me he would tell me otherwise we became best friends. He would pray the paint off the wall in the apartment he lived in for me to leave the lifestyle. Last 2 1/2 years of his life I wound up taking care of him and helping him and we became best friends. At the same time another gentleman moved into the same apartment he had lived in and I had told me about journey of hope ministries I was reluctant at first but In February of last year I decided to go to one of the meetings. I had told my best friend Russ about this decision he was happy for me and rejoice and praise God for the decision. Two weeks after I started going to the meeting he had passed away. Which makes me wonder if I was one of the reasons he was put on this earth. Do you know that God chases after me and uses someone searches this man to reach me in prayer is it an honor to me. The other blessing out of going to journey of hope I met a wonderful person who walk beside me all this time Duncan Heinly he is another man I can call a true best friend. As of December 13 of last year I divorced the man I was married to to Take another step in to wholeness in Christ. With these decisions God has shown me and spoken to me about a lot of things that I’ve never thought about before here is a wonderful example that I pray any of you can take away they have gods voice. I called this who is he?

08/11/19 who is he? What can he give you that I cannot? Is he not as broken as you? I have given you life. “Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.”

Jeremiah 33:3 ESV. I love you John. Look at the cross and see my love. “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”John 3:16.

Remember what I have said to you. You are not a Gay man! I have spoken over you who you are. You are mine. “In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace,” Ephesians 1:7

“In that day you will know that I am in my Father, and you in me, and I in you.” John 14:20 ESV.

You are a new man, a new creation.“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”

2 Corinthians 5:17 ESV

You are adopted. I am your father (abba father) “For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, "Abba! Father!"

Romans 8:15 ESV

“And because you are sons, God has sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, crying, "Abba! Father!"

Galatians 4:6 ESV