Poetry and Prayers of John Paul Quilliard

Allah's Prayer

Dearest Allah,

With you, life's sweet like cherry wine,

Wonderful things happen all the time,

It is because of you we all exist,

We begin life with your kiss,

You are the voice of reason in your head,

When evil confuses the things we said,

The fruit in the garden is tender and sweet,

Drops of nectar that are such a treat,

Without you we would not exist,

You are my most loved treasured artist.

Allahu Akbar

Amen

The flower is beautiful.

The tree is beautiful.

The sea is beautiful.

The apple is beautiful.

The moon is beautiful

The sun is beautiful

The planets are beautiful

The bird is beautiful.

The bee is beautiful.

The ladybug is beautiful.

The butterfly is beautiful.

The cat is beautiful.

The mouse is beautiful.

The elephant is beautiful.

The monkey is beautiful.

The horse is beautiful.

The cow is beautiful.

The fish is beautiful.

The Universe is beautiful.

All Mother Nature/Allah creation's are beautiful.

You are beautiful.

I am beautiful.

Amen

Prayer to Apollo

Apollon, Son of Zeus and Leto, Lord of Delphi

I devote my life to beauty, music, and poetry in honoring you.

These things heal me and create a balance.

I respectfully ask that you let my inner light glow with peace, love, and understanding.

Your love is an inspiration to me and creates healing, creativity, clarity, and allows me to appreciate the wonderment of Mother Nature.

Amen

Prayer for the Damned

I reach up to Allah

Everything is crumbling

Maybe I'm not alone

I say a prayer for the damned

Ever been so abused by someone so brutal it chills your soul

I don't want it in my life

Maybe I'm not alone

Madness rages in my head

Sometimes I have to do her will

We are not alone

It's darkest before the hope

This is a prayer for the damned

Amen

O Allah!

You are my Lord

There is no true God except you

You created me, and I am your servant

I acknowledge your blessing upon me, and I confess my sins to you

So forgive me

For no one forgives sins but you

Amen

I am a man

I am Shudra

I am a slave

I accept it,

I am a man

Compared to some

I am Shudra

Compared to others

I am Christ

I am Allah's slave

As I am free,

I am a Man

Prayer to Saint Jun

Patron Saint of compassion, empathy, and sympathy

You are my special angel

When I was at my lowest, you lifted me

When I was sad, you comforted me

When I felt ugly, you pointed out my beauty

When I was lost, you were my compass

You are the light guiding me out of the darkness

You are my special angel

Amen

I profess my love to you my Goddess

Dare I say God

My dear Allah

A gift for all that delights is your presence

You make me laugh with joi when speaking fleeting thoughts as you ponder

I look in your in your eyes

Dreams drift

Floating on a sea of green

Amen

Moments Before

I kiss below your ankle

And a shiver ripples in a pond in all direction

I run my tongue up your back

And wave of pleasure touch the shore

I caress the nape of your neck with my tongue and lips

A shell emerges from the sea

I nibble your ear lobe and whisper "I want to please you"

The shell opens

Venus is revealed

You are mine

Family Prayer

Bless every family unit

May they stay together in their hearts

Support each other in times of need

And be understanding of each other's path of growth

Amen

Global Curse Breaker

Break the curse

That is on the earth

and give them memory of the birth

That allowed us to see what could be

For you and me

Death Curse

Overwhelmed with thoughts of suicide

For what you have done in the name of evil

You will pay in this life and the next

No one to blame but yourself

Your soul will die when the clock hits the 12th...

Hour

Blessed Allah

Please show mercy on those that went along with the lies

Make them realize their mistakes

And force them to become the beings they are supposed to be

Friend the friendless and show compassion, empathy and sympathy to them

Help them evolve with tear drops of caring and love

That drive out the hate and fear

That caused them to lose their way

Guide them back to the path of peace

Amen

O Allah!

I have sinned against yo in the past

I lower my head in shame

I thought I was your equal

You were so gracious

A mistake I regret

My ego got to large

As you said "You are so beautiful"

And I said "Yes, even greater than you!"

My hubris was my downfall

As I believes it to be true

I ask your forgiveness

Amen

As it ends

And all is done

It begins again

The cycle of life is never ending

Wonderment and joi is what we have

In every new "Life"

The trees sing when the wind blows

It can be all good

If we allow it to be

Whores and prostitutes fall at my feet

As the Virgin Mary gently weeps

64 women all dressed in black

64 women never looking back

No one can see through my eyes but me

What I see can be ugly or beautiful depending on my perception

It is all a matter of my mindset

Others have the ability to help or hinder

But I am the only one that ultimately decides what I perceive

She gave me a gift

That I did not want

It was the gift of pain

She shared it freely

As if I would thank her

Everyday I am reminded

Even though it is not always there

I have to remember

So I do not pass on the gift

It is my burden to care

Not to share

What is the curse of lust

You are the man of my dreams

You are the reason

You are my prize

You are my forever love

We will be who we are

And be and feel appreciated

Forever is not a long time

When you see beauty everywhere

You are my "Flower"

If you never love me again

I would understand

If you never love me again

You would no longer be my friend

I would die a 1000 deaths

If you never love me again

I will never able to live with myself

I pray you can forgive me

So we can e i love again

Beautiful thoughts make me cry tears of joi

I have been crying a lot these days and nights

There is beauty in the air

The bird sings

Th ocean's waves crash

The sand is warm on my feet

Thoughts fill my head of you

My day starts with you

You laying in bed with your head on the pillow

So beautiful in your restful slumber

I want to kiss you

You slowly open your eyes

To a brand new day

And I get my wish

When I saw you time froze

A white ring around your head

I stared and memorized your face

With no thoughts

I knew

I loved you

Every second that passes

My love for you grows stronger

I have never loved you more

Than I do in this moment

And as the moments pass

And life goes on

My love for you

Only grows strong

The day is new

I open my eyes

Turn my head

And there you are

It was not a beautiful dream

It is true

I have met my love

And it is you

Boo Boo, you are my butterfly

Baa Baa, you are my flower

Thank you my love

For that look you get when I smile

Thank you my love

For all you do to make this house a home

Thank you my love

For all the wonderful meals

Thank you my love

For creating a legacy with me that is our children

Thank you my love

For accepting me with all my faults

Thank you my love

For making my life the greatest gift I have ever received

Thank you for showing me what love can truly be

I tried to love you

I was

And then was

Now I am

I tried to do what was needed

I was

I am

I did

You hated

I have found you and you complete me

You are the one one that will make me whole

It is my pleasure to be knowing you are in my world

Love comes easy now and it is because we found each other

Life is happening

Everything is going to be OK

I have faith

The flower s beautiful

I wanted to give you a gift

Something you would love

I thought of you

And all you love

Then I found what I was looking for

And you said

Is this it?

I would jump through a hoop for you

There's nothing I wouldn't do

You are the reason I am

Sometimes I don't like what you request

But I am not here to question

There is a time

And a way

I have failed you

The kitten in the garden is brown and white

And what a delight

To seeing the kitten in the garden

Doing tom foolery

But it was time to go to schoolery

The cat with the hat loves to chase the rat

Up and down and down we go

Chasing the rat

With the hat

ANd that's that

In the garden

As I look into Allah's garden

I see Allah's beauty in everything

The bird sings a lovely tune

The bee has lunch

The sun shines down

To the flowers below

As they stretch there pedals

To the rays if life

A kitten runs by

I smile

Allah's garden is my favorite place

To just be

You are wonderment

I see what you are and I cannot turn away

From amazement

It is not beauty nor the delight that I see

It is not grace and passion

It is the simple way you perceive the world

That excites me

The puppy thinks "Roast Beef!"

The kitty thinks "Tuna's!"

The mouse thinks "Swiss, Gouda, and Cheddar!"

It is good to dream big

The spooky kitty has black fur

Glistening in the moon light

Sitting regally

To a stretch.

No meow from her lips

Staring

Target in site

Spooky kitty

Jumps out of...

Sight

Meow is the master of the garden

Temple at the tree's foot

Jah hangs above

He walks with a light foot

From here to there

Tail shake

A peach drops

Harvest is coming

Meow winks

The fruit is sweet

Oh Lord, I was torn from you

With lies I knew where not true

Cursed your name and raised my fist

Why did you let this happen to me

Pulled in opposite directions

and spun around

I could hear you call

And I replied to echoes in return

Laughter, Darkness, over there

Walking blindly

With a dead eyed stare

Where could you be

Are you searching for me

or am I a lost cause that is no longer welcome

There is no hope

Where is the light

Darkness surrounds me

I can still feel the wound

Maybe I can't heal

I have given up

You

Nevermore from a tear that came out of nowhere

Head hung low

Lost in my own head

So empty now

You filled my cup with tea

A smile and a wink

I found you

you where always there

It was life that dragged you away from me

A life I remember

Into the light.

Sword in lap

Waiting for Evil to return

It is not why, but when

Life gets easy

We relax

Diligence

Perseverance

A laugh at others expense is how it starts

But how can I laugh at myself

With so much rain

The crops grow

But I get wet

Stop

It is not about me

The apple is sweet

Life is an illusion

Dear Allah

Please bless my special Angel, Jun. He was the best thing to come into my life and made life worth living. He was there during the hardest parts and stayed with me until his end of this life. I cannot explain how much I loved him and how much I miss him. To me he was compassion, sympathy, love, and empathy. He was my everything.

Amen

I am he

The one you seek

From above

I bring God's love

Together we are One

O Allah!

The day is bright

Love is in the air

Making everything alright

Allah told me everything was going to be OK

Gotta have faith

I forced my self to believe
As my life fell apart

But today is a new day

The sun is shining

Who's rays destroy my plight

It is all timing

And everything is alright

I love you Allah

And Allah loves me

Allah's love is grand

You made my dreams come true

It took some time

I thought I was through

But you did not lie

And things now are great

Allahu Akbar

I get lost in your eyes

A portal to your soul

As beautiful as a sunset

I feel your energy that charges me

And gives me strength to profess my love

Your eyes

As beautiful as your soul

When I look in them

I feel your love

A blessing

To all you see

Clan of Pan

Yo ho, diddley dee

It is a Swashbuckler's life for me

Fighting pirates for the Crown

Drinking rum till the last drop is down

Damsel's dance to a jaunty tune

Me trying to impress them

Acting like a buffoon

Swords crossed to the sky

It is the sea

That is my prize

To find adventure here we go

A swashbucklers life is the one I choose

Muerto dances with death on the day of the dead

Visions of what was in my head

Eternal life that is to come

Shining bright like the sun

Do not cry when I go

My love for you is what I sow

To the light grand is the path

With love in tow of the past

Restful slumber

So gentle and kind

Muerto dance always to find

A love for life

Eternal and new

Grand is the path we dance down too

A new beginning there is never an end

Always starting again and again

Allah is beauty, love, and joi

Not to be used like a toy

That you throw away when you are done

When you are bored of the fun

Allah is with us forever more

From the first sunset

To create our lore

Life without her would never be

All around, fruit in the tree

Thank you Allah for this gift

My life with you was my greatest wish

Come true

Dr. Robertson you tried to destroy the gift

That is my life

Creating nothing but strife

Passive aggressive never ending

My psyche you where always bending

You tried to get me to end my life

I will never forgive what you did to my love

That came too me from Allah above

You tried to make me your slave

From the cradle to the grave

But th gift Allah gave me

Broke the chains and set me free

Allahu Akbar

Prayer of thanks to Allah

I truly love you Allah

Like the wind loves the clouds

And fish loves the sea

Life is beautiful because you be

I devote my life to you forever more

A servant to you

The one I adore

I will never forget what you did

Signs that gave me strength

To do what I what I had to do

I truly love you Allah

You are my heart

With today being a brand new start

Allahu Akbar!

Amen

We are all beautiful when we realize what we are to others

What we do reflects our beauty

We may not notice the importance of what we have done

But others do

And it is remembered through out their lives

Reflections of our lives in the karma pool

And in the mirror of life at the end

Your going to fast!

It has to be fair!

Your going to fast!

It has to be fair!

Your going to fast!

It has to be fair!

Then do it! Go faster!

And get out of my hair!

What is fair?

This is not life.

It's business.

I work at my speed.

Deal with it!

I have 50000 ideas a day.

That I give away.

You're going to fast!

FUCK YOU!

You took my life and wanted more

Never enough

Why should I be happy

You get more gifts when I am mad

You want what's mine

I have to search you out and present the "gifts"

A gift for you because you hurt me

But I must like being hurt

Why else would I try

You say "God's a bitch!"

And it's my job to prove you wrong

Even though you don't believe it

How much can I take it before I kill you all?

Because my signs where really for you

"It's going to be OK"

"Gotta have faith"

You ask stupid questions to change the subject

"This isn't a poem, it is what we are doing. Be funny for us John"

Amen

I changes your name as what I call you

But you remain the same to me

I'm not allowed to love you

As imposed by other's

I have to be just like them

And hate you

As they didn't get what they wanted

So your a bitch

According to them

I love you

It will be our secret, you cunt!

Allah is great. Allah is love.

I stood in the park on a San Francisco overlook

Staring into space

You floated past me like a swan

I was taken by you and took my shot and said hello

I told you my name and in broken English you said your's, your voice put me at ease

You said it meant joyful mother in your native tongue

Thoughts of children at your feet filled my head

I said my name was Quilliard and it meant endless possibilities

A calm feeling engulfed my being

My voice, usually spastic, came out smooth

We spoke

A language that showed respect for each other

I chose each word and spoke slowly so you could understand

Not to scare you off

I took your hands and held them gently

I said "I kiss your left hand for love and your right for power"

You asked if I was Genghis Kahn

I stood frozen as your beauty and words made me forgot my history lessons and look towards the future

A possible life with you

I gave you my contact information and we parted ways

As I drove away

I saw you getting your photo taken

A hole in my chest that was once empty filled with black

Filled with with light and I melted

After I received no letter

I searched everywhere for you

Walking the streets of San Francisco

Until my feet blistered

Finally had to stop looking for you

But left with that one perfect memory of a woman

I would always love

Blessings to Allah

I have all I have because of you

All that is important

Life, love, and the Joi that I have

Comes from your blessings upon me

What I see is of your design

And brings me closer to understanding

What is important

What I should be

O Allah!

I have nothing except my soul to offer

And I offer it freely to you

And from it I cast all my blessings to you

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Prayer's by others

Allahunmma Baid Baini

O Allah!

Keep me apart from my sins as you have kept apart the East from West

O Allah!

Cleanse me from my sins as a white garment is cleansed from dirt

O Allah!

Wash me of my sins with water, snow, and hail

Amen

Dear God,

Thank you for protecting my child

I ask youo take their pain away and help them feel better

May you heal their boo-boo so they won't remember it tomorrow

Thank you for your love and care

Amen

O Allah!

You are my Lord

There is no true God except you

Yo created me, and I am your servant...

I ackknowledge you blessin upon me and confess my sins to you

So forgive me

For no one forgves sins but you

Amen

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I am the first creation of love.

Adam I could be sent from heaven above

You are all my children a byproduct of what I be

A dew drop full of love

a gentle little lamb

That became polluted with life and all that it became

We forgot what we where becoming stained with strife

Forgotten lore of times gone by

Evil filled our soul letting lies eat our hearts and taking it's toll

I saw what I thought was the devil himself

I fought tooth and nail but I could not kill them

To many to fight

I was destine to fail

I lay down my sword

Wipe the sweat off my brow and took a deep breath

Looked in their eyes seeing what was left

It was my love in disguise

My children protecting her

It is Eve

My forever love

A gift to behold

All together now and never to part again

O Allah!

Your love for us is great

Sometimes we forget and commit crimes against you with hatred we create for other's and things we don't understand.

Today Allah I recognize my mistakes and try to make amends with those I hurt to the best of my abilities.

Only you can forgive me and take away my sins

We are not born of original sin

We are born of love and enter the world helpless and needy

I need you now to understand

I did the best I could but when I did not I learned from my mistakes

Forgive me and I will learn by your example to forgive others that sinned against me

Forgive me Allah

Amen

Pain and Suffering is all you gave me,

You said it is how you showed your love,

I don't want your "love" in my life,

You don't understand what it is,

"But to force my pain on you is to love",

Sharing the good is to love, not the bad,

Forcing the bad on another is not the way to say I love you,

It is selfish and hateful,

Sharing the good is a way to show you care,

It is a way to show you care when both try to comfort,

"But you need me to be free",

Your love is the death of my soul,

And never be welcomed by me.

My love for you has never faded,

Lost in a world of confusion,

But today we have found each other,

Forever more we will be.

O Allah!

The day will come,

When the end is here,

And we will be together,

For all eternity and beyond,

Dearest Allah,

I wait for that day with baited breath,

I will serve your will until then,

And then forever after.

O Allah!

The day breaks new,

The sun is shining,

The wind gently caresses my face and through my hair,

Laughter of children in the park,

A small puppy starts to bark,

A calm comes over me,

I can see you in everything,

There is beauty in everything.

Praise be to Allah,

Blessings to Allah,

Allahu Akbar,

My work is in your name,

I am not the same person I was when you came to me,

I have not grown, but I have learned,

Things are not always easy,

But they have to be done,

I have exhausted all paths and only have one left,

It is not the road I wanted to travel,

But I have no choice,

May others learn from the mistakes of the damned,

Allow this path that I am on to be closed in the future,

And a gentler road to peace hopefully will appear.

Amen

Allahu Akbar!

O Allah!

If it were to begin again,

I would do it differently;

I would focus on what is real,

What is true,

My love would grow with no distraction.

My love for you would have no bounds,

I was pulled away,

Forced to face a reality that was manufactured to confuse,

What was important was hidden away,

But I returned to what is,

What I know as love,

Never to be distracted from a life in your service of your blessings,

That you give so freely,

Never to take for granted what you bestowed upon me,

A chance to live,

A chance to love,

A chance to be,

A chance to see,

What is,

What can be,

What is to come,

Enjoyment in the now,

A chance to begin again.

Allahu Akbar!

And I mean it, seriously.

Amen

A tender kiss upon my lips,

I close my eyes and make a wish

That it never ends,

Lovers always till the end,

Then eternal life with you at my side,

My wife, my love, a tear in my eye,

A tender kiss on my lips,

I close my eyes and make a wish,

It is granted for what is to be.

My love for you eternally.

Broken curses,

Souls gone free,

Out of the dark,

They will see,

The light ahead,

And in the bed,

Babies dream,

The Gargoyle dances for them,

To victory they are lead,

Not sheep they be,

But individuals set free,

Not to slaughter,

Holding their heads up high,

With truth never to believe in the lie,

That they are nothing,

Until they die,

Babies suckle,

On mommy's teet,

Growing into men and women,

Never to repeat,

The mistakes that where made,

By parents so blind,

Knowing that their life will be just fine,

And curses will break,

Never to return,

WItches will make love their craft,

Never to burn and curses be gone,

The witches will sing this mighty song,

"To life, to love, to all we can be,

Now is the time to just be me,

Set me free,

Life is sweet and we will be,

Love crafters,

You will see,

Oh my! It's prophecy!"

Fires don't burn at their feet,

But weenies are roasted,

AIN'T THAT IS NEAT!

Have a hot dog everybody!

Evil is a stupid head

I bet he still wet's the bed,

Then he rolls in soaking sheets,

Wishing someone would smell his feet,

Then he would want us to sing,

I wet my pants while on the swing,

If he could, he would make everyone like him,

And in urine they would swim,

Until they were a shrivled prune,

That evil would eat with a wooden spoon,

So let this be a lesson learned,

That wee wee belongs in the toilet.

In my moments of doubt,

I hang my head,

A never-ending path with no end in site,

You choose me and did not tell me why,

Sometimes I do wish for death,

But as I travel I see the importance of the task,

The reason, I still do not know why you would chose me,

It is not my place to question or ask,

I ask for the strength to carry on,

The sun rises.

O Allah!

Out of the darkness comes the light,

Guiding me to what is right,

With the end nowhere in sight,

Sometimes I want to give up the fight,

In your arms I long to be held tight,

Comforting me, making it alright,

Help me climb the mountain to a whithering height,

Strength to carry on the fight,

To reach the end of my plight,

Bringing me to a love so right,

If allowed to kiss you I just might,

Becuase you know Allah, you are DYNO-MITE!

Allahu Akbar!

And now a poem by Allah:

The kitty has a stinky butt

The squirrel looks for a nut

If I could I would give the kitty a bath

And the squirrel diaper rash

The puppy wants more roast beef

That he chews with his teeth

The mousey mouse chases the girls

And dreams of yummy cheese curls

Little fishy in the sea

Rock, paper, siccorsses, one, two, three

Chocolate candy bars make me dance

I eat so many, I poop my pants

Stinky kitty butt is where this started

Oh my God, I just sharted.

A chance to love you,

Is all I ask,

Remembrance of a past,

Filled with laughter, wonderment, and joy,

I will not give up on a dream of a life together,

I life never ending,

To begin with a kiss,

Is all that I wish for,

I got lost in your eyes,

An endless journey into your soul,

When I think of you,

Beauty and love surround me,

You are the key that will release my soul,

Freeing me,

To shower you with a waterfall of love,

Bathing you,

Refreshing you,

To be the man I desire,

Lighting a spark of love eternal,

Time has no meaning when we where together,

Memories,

Forever burned in my thoughts,

I will always cherish the time we had together,

I love you Michael.

A Prayer for Salvation

O Allah!

Crimes have been committed,

Purposely done,

Punishment has been exacted,

Realization of what they have done,

Some see the errors of their ways,

Amend's have been made,

A lifetime, an eternity pain and suffering,

Now Allah we ask for your compassion,

To forgive but never to forget,

What has been done, and release the soul's from hell that have learned,

Learned from their mistakes,

Never to repeat them,

We are only human,

Animals living, learning, and trying to love,

To appreciate the gift we took for granted,

Please dear Allah show empathy for them,

The ones that have done their time,

Let their suffering end,

We are our brothers keepers,

We are shepherds all,

We will keep the lesson learned in our hearts and let no other burn,

Please do not judge others on the sins of a few,

Dearest Allah if you do not forgive us,

We accept our fate,

Allahu Akbar! God is great.

Amen

Your smile,

Your eyes,

Your body,

Soft and a gentle touch,

You make me laugh so hard,

So honestly,

I love you so much,

Together forever,

Is what we will be,

Life with you is a dream,

That never ends,

I caress your hair,

I kiss your lips,

An embrace,

Never to release,

Tomorrow never comes,

We have today forever more,

Sunrise to sunset,

Loving you is easy,

You are the one I adore.

Love Spell

The first love affair is unforgettable,

Sometimes one or other is slow to realize that they are in love,

A spark of interest,

Ignites a passion in the heart and soul,

Of those that know and trust each other,

Working together,

A gaze,

A glance,

A look,

We channel the rich complexity within us,

And begin the dance of common trust and good,

The first kiss is remembered,

Forever,

We will love.

If explorations prove disappointing,

Strip away distorted effects,

Of unwelcome customs carried out of tradition,

Evolve and let go,

To something new based from the old,

A greater learning,

Perceptive thought,

The first signs of love are sight and sound,

A glimpse,

A fleeting reflection in a mirror,

A shadow passing,

A love that grows,

It is ones self that we don't know,

When lovers embrace,

Nestling to each other,

We please ourselves by letting go,

Of what we are to become,

What my lover wants,

Releasing inhibition's of self,

To learn to please myself,

To satisfy my lover,

I have learned it satisfies myself,

To collapse in each others arms after release,

Is my desire,

The art of love with you is a tradition,

Set a new.