Song essentailly about how I've come a cropper at times in my Adoptee life (a regular theme in my tunes...sorry) as I had role models I couldnt really identify with  etc and my internal decision making department wasn't the best as a result. Decisions too much based on how I felt, doing what others said with out thinking (is this right, right?) but maybe based on level of personal acceptance it bought to fit in (peer / people presh or whatever). kind of a sense of belonging attention deficit borne stupidity. I don't put all the blame on adoption issues, but it certainly contributed to making things that much more difficult to make good/better choices as I matured as a young man. Don't get me wrong, some of the best choices were the "wrong" choices at the time, helped me grow, but boy-o-boy... i made some doozies. It also speaks to my struggles with acceptance because of how different I looked and could never...you guessed it!, quite fit in!. Adoption itself of myself, although off to a less then ideal start, has actually provided a fairly rich personal development landscape for myself, just was hard to recognise that when going through the issues....I'm still pushing on.

Song about how I've been walking this adoptee existence largely figuring out things as I go along and for all the issues and struggles I've faced, there's more gas in the tank to keep going or and haven't worn out my shoes just yet etc, to keep pushing on. And that the worry and stress of life issues were and still are mostly wasted energy which serve to only bring me and others down. Plus there's someone who's really been there in my life to support, my special other half🙂. She knows who she is💖. I've written a number of songs around our bond for over 3 decdes now.

For a period of time in my adult life me and my wonderful Mrs delivered Junk mail to our local area and thought to make a tune out it and how that internal noise or "Junkmail" builds up and can really have an impact on us.  How we need to just try to let go of it. I do this through my music. If we don't we are at risk of drowning in our own thoughts. We all need support to help us work through life's issues and make sure we loose the stuff that is going to pull us down. It takes time to work through issues. Ps sorry for all the junk mail😜  I want to get rid of more junk mail in time at the right time

Songs essentially about having a general ignorance and making choices only based on wants and likes etc not thinking it through more . Imagine some kind of dream-like ethereal entity travelling through space, that comes across earth with all its wonder & majesty, but was seduced by it all and became a human, became lost to itself, as it became "blinded" by its human traits etc.  But in it all it met someone who helps it remember who it was/is and to keep understanding more of about who it was each day, rather than being blinded by the trappings a material life offers. .

Many times stuff happens in our lives. Things don't go our way but the key is being optimistic (keep smile'n🙂). End of the day nothing much to gain by stress'n out, at least that's what I try to tell myself😜 feels natural to have Thumbs point up right? - I tell myself things will be ok (just need to get better at believing this will be the case!)

Song is about knowing that even through we can get down ourselves a bit like I did (and still do at times), never loose sight of that fact that we are doing our best and to give ourselves credit for that and everything we've been through in our lives, adopted or not. We just have a different and special journey unique to intercountry   / interracial adoptees. That you / we are worth it and are like are gold in a pan that just needed a bit of work to reveal your own worth🙂, again finding the right kind of support to help manage better.

Songs about telling myself to keep pushing ahead thesedays to love and be loved living in this beautifully crazy world

Have a surf now everynow and then (just love the water anyways). Suns strong and my skin and crap sunscreen left its mark on me But wrote this song as pretty much life is like a wave I need to just ride into shore! Life's been like my surfing, barely making it on the wave (adoption), once on, keep falling off and can never do much with it when on it🤪, but i keep trying and just just enjoy with water! Just striv'n to be a better husband, father and just well ...a better man. 

Simple Song about my family and how we have had to support each other as well tbh that's all we have had to depend on, even though its not been easy on them from me as I was messed up somewhat with all my issues. Not a religious man, but I've done something right to have what I have now in my world. The just try'n to be a  better unit..but at the same time I dont want to force it into existence - takes good  time right

Song about contemplating the what if's (spnning / tossing coins) about beginning pathways & adoption and how things might have panned out...If things were different ...say had a more "normal" upbringing in a culture and people that looked like myself and then only need to make my way through that realm and not have to be at odds with everything pretty much everywhere I turned...alone...but I guess "it is what it is".  I played with the hand I was dealt.Also this song for relationship ups and downs in general, trying to repair them etc... "its been a dream" 

seeing my boys suffering at times I reach out but realise actually I'm  part of the problem and that my "help" is the problem (flooding their world), so I need to change my tact and approach and through my change I hope they can be see the way forward out of their individual issues also.  no different to the dichotomy of life - help that further damages but those giving the help cannot "see"

Similar theme - never give'n up and navigating through the turning roads with what life dishes out, good bad and just ..ugly.  Keep'n that inner fire burning strong and in my case use'n music to help lighten the load as I walk the path I'm on, until the music ends. Also about profound loss grief which has also touched my journey.

Song about try'n to accept the realities of life's journey and how you just sometimes ...well in most cases personally in my run...is to just improvise my ways through...fake it until you make it as they say...emulate greatness and in time you'll become the source of it.. still dream'n 🤣

Sometimes things get hard but got to keep walking on and persevering. using a powerful AI voice to carry the message. I've had to dig deep at times to stay on top of my mental health.  Literally Walked my way into the clear.