𝐖𝐡𝐲 𝐜𝐚𝐧’𝐭 𝐈 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐞?

I found the following factors that contribute to why I can't give my parents having peace:

𝑮𝒐𝒂𝒍-𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒅

• It means that my goal is swinging. Once moving to BCS, shifting to Abroad (Scholarships/internships/fellowships). This duality of decision-making engulfed my two years minimum.

Another point, if I had determined to my goal, I wouldn’t have slept peacefully, as I have heard Abdul Kalam A. P. J, the 11th president of India quoting “Dream is not that which you see while sleeping it is something that does not let you sleep. And thoughts result in action.”

𝑵𝒐𝒕 𝑻𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝑫𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏-𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒓

• Had I been a timely decision-maker, I couldn’t have wasted time rather I would have utilized them significantly, and reached to the way of my desired goals, like scoring 7.5-9 in TOEFL, publishing a few articles, researching ‘Downloading theory’ etc,.

𝑳𝒖𝒔𝒕

• Maybe, I am dreaming to get a beautiful wife and have sexualities. This thought might be ruining my goals away.

𝑴𝒚 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒄𝒓𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏

• It might also be one of the key reasons for why I have been unable to give my parents having peace. I must be vibrant at my work, love the work, and perform it without expectations. Ex. Of my procrastination – sleeping 9,10, or 11 hours per day, using social media hours after hours unpurposely, visiting friends, fellows, and relatives forgetting about dreams, or having an arrangement of delicious cooking/ food-party.

𝑫𝒆𝒗𝒐𝒊𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝑺𝒑𝒊𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚

Spirituality is sometimes required to hold, it might make one good, and protect from decaying morally. But I mustn’t prioritize spirituality over work. In regards to this, my father would insist ‘work is worship’. I mustn’t forget it.

Feb. 13, 2023