Beautiful Machine

Nia Watson

lately, i

i’m having a hard time being present

my own presence 

feels like too much like 

like i’m presenting 

and existing 

and lately i

i’m trying so hard to interact 

that it feels like an inner act 

and it’s all just so 

so exhausting 

and lately i

i’m feeling so tired that i want to stop running

stop rowing 

and just retrace where

where it all went wrong