First of all, I want to apologize for my poor English. I know I’m not as good as I think I am, but I try my best. Hopefully, people will understand what I’m writing.
Throughout my life, I’ve met so many people, it’s unbelievable. Because of this, I often forget their names quickly. If all the people I’ve met stood in my village, the entire place would be packed. I’ve met so many people through work, various churches, and different sports like judo and soccer. Even at school, people knew me better than I knew them. I was always loud and present, maybe even a bit unique, and I made many friends along the way.
When I think about the people I’ve met, I realize I don’t remember their names well—it’s just not my talent. Lately, I’ve also become a bit cold toward others, turning into something of a lone wolf. Why? I used to think I always needed to be around people, but over the years, I’ve gone through a whirlwind of experiences. As of today, 14-09-2024, I’ve been weed-free for 225 days. It’s been a learning process, understanding how different life is now. I smoked for 15 years, and that was a very different life. Now, I’m learning how to live all over again. Since I quit, I’ve gained 17 kilos, and the best part is that I can dream again every night. I even remember those dreams, including the nightmares where dogs chase me, a recurring one. Thankfully, I’ve developed the strength to wake myself up during those dreams, which I consider a powerful skill.
I also learned in rehab that when you fall back asleep, the dream sometimes resumes as if it was on pause. But I’ve discovered another powerful trick: if I think about something nice before sleeping again, I won’t return to that same nightmare. Instead, I’ll enter a new dream. The dog dream is strange, but it also says a lot.