Luna's Diary

Dear Diary,

Sigh I guess that I should start writing down how life has been going on so far.

Well I think that Melissa, Simon’s daughter likes me quite a bit but I’m finding it hard to talk to her at times but I got a feeling that she’s suffering after me telling her that her dad Simon (sigh) can’t even remember her and even me. I want to help but don’t know how. Currently I’ve been avoiding going into work because of the heartbreak I am currently going through about that situation. It hurts… so much. I got to try and be there and be patient. As I know it will take time as Hawkins told me and also Kyle…

They are trying to help and it is making me feel better but I’m still hurting over the situation with Simon not even remembering who I am. It breaks my heart to see him there. But… he isn’t there… It’s like he’s miles away but he’s standing right there in front of me. Having no clue what we have together.

I can’t stop thinking about it. I went to the beach to stair at the stars and the moon hoping everything will get back to normal but it won’t happen overnight. I try to move forward but this won't leave my mind… Whatever I do I keep thinking about how Simon is doing.

I can’t stop… What’s wrong with me.. Is what I’m feeling here bringing more of my feelings for Simon deeper. Is all of this deeper than what I am thinking it is…

Sigh. I’m probs over thinking like I usually do but yeah.

I don’t know what to do!!

Dear Diary,

Some of my friends and my boyfriend Simon met at the beach and went on a camping trip. After this we went on a boat and here is where I saw a lot of love in his eyes. Simon is showing a lot more emotions then he did before he lost his memory. We did the titanic on the boat. He was behind me in front of everyone in the sunset. It was ever so romantic. After that we kissed. That moment I knew that he was starting to remember more from what we had.

After that we had a stalker. They run me over, go after Melissa and then hurt Hawkins… by causing an explosion. That moment I thought that I had lost one of my best friends to die right in front of me… I will never forget about that part...

Sigh… There have been a lot of things going on since the trip with my fellow colleagues. Hawkins got released from hospital. But he ended up reopening his wound after spending sometime with both me and Simon. Ever since Hawkins was in hospital for a long time and I stayed by his side every moment.

I cried… I still think that's my fault through…

When I got to the hospital. I was exhausted. Simon insisted for me to get some sleep as it was going to be a long night at Pillbox. I was distraught about the fact that Hawkins might not make it but Simon was by my side all that night. Comforting me. I fell asleep after an hour on his lap.

I hope Hawkins is going to be ok…

Dear Diary,

Well a few days ago both me and Hawkins spent some time together talking about everything that has happened over the past few months since Simon lost his memory. I remember everything but he doesn't… I think that he’s pushing me away but then when I needed him the most. Hawkins was there instead of Simon.

We talked it over and I found out that Hawkins basically loves me. I don’t know what to say about that but I feel the same way towards him. But what about Simon? To be honest it feels more like a friendship between me and him and me and Hawkins there is more…

That night it rained and he took me out onto his house's balcony. I’ll be honest here, I wasn't expecting him to kiss me then and there. But then I knew… All this time I thought I was in love with Simon but the tides turned and I fell head over heels for Hawkins.

How has this happened? Is it because we have spent so much time together since the accident. That’s probably it. And we have so much in common as well.

Well yesterday on shift we ran together all day long and everyone who we treated together, made me fall deeper for him. Working as a great duo, I can say XD

Probably this is meant to be… Hawkins, I’ve noticed that he does seem to be watching me a lot in every scene that I’m dispatched to as a paramedic. When we are together, everything that has happened to me. He’s always been there… Like my guardian angel that I never knew that was there to begin with.

Dear Dairy,

Well I’ve been enjoying the snow along with my new family. Currently I’ve adopted Melissa Hill as my own daughter now and she’s now known as Melissa Stone with my surname. I’ve met my long lost brother Nova Stone who’s older than me by a few or so years. He also looks a lot like me. He has pale blond hair (same colour that I’ve dyed mine for work) and he’s a deputy for the San Andreas Police Department. He’s an officer. Not that long ago he got kidnapped and the kidnappers tried to get through to me about bringing at least a million dollars and myself but I didn’t do it as the other officers on the radio kept me safe and saved my brother.

I’ve had at least 3 snow ball fights, 2 against my best friends and boyfriend, Hawkins and Matthew outside my house. The first one I lost and the 2nd I won as I ambushed them in the snow with my camouflage as I’m so pale and white in the snow XD I’m a snow demon when it comes to the snow XD back to the diary…

Well I love it here in LS as I’ve been growing even more as a person as the days go on and I find myself falling even deeper for Hawkins. I wonder what’s going to happen here as time goes on.

Celestia is one of my friends now. We met when Hawkins almost lost his life and before I realized I had fallen head over heels for him. Lets see how this is going to go from now, I hope that everything keeps going the right way for all of us. My stalker has been put in jail as well so I’m safe for the time being. I hope....

Dear Diary,

In a few days I'll be getting married to the love of my life. My god I can’t wait to say I do in front of our friends and family. Hawkins makes me so happy!! Happier than you can imagine in this world. Hehe I’m becoming a Hawkins.

OH yesterday I went on shift and when I came back off a call Hawkins surprised me with a visit to the station. I was at Station 6. I also had a proby who was fun to ride with in the ambo but I gave her some tips and tricks when it comes to treating patients.

Funny thing is, right after I left for another call a lot of peeps were waiting for me at station 6. Hawkins looked handsome as anything in his suit and also Kyle was in his to show off to me XD After this he came on shift and ran the engine for the rest of the day alongside me on medic. We both had a proby each XD Made it easier for the both of us at the time.

My god I can’t believe that me and Hawkins have a little daughter running around now who goes by the name of Skyler. She’s adorable as anything. She has Hawkins eyes and my hair. Its blonde but a lot paler then Hawkins XD

I’m loving life as everything is going in the right direction and I’m ever so happy!!

Dear Diary,

The days so far have been great. Most recently got married to the love of my life, John Hawkins and became a Hawkins myself. But since I got back things have gotten worse… My sister in law has walked away without a word leaving my brother Nova alone, taking the twins with her. I’m wondering why? We were so close. But what annoys me is that she didn’t say a word. Nova needs me more than ever right now. I’ll do what I can to help. As he always says, the Stone kids always stay together through the toughest times.

I’ve decided to stand up and help with what I can do to help him and also a family friend was also killed in the line of duty. This has made me feel sad as well as losing my dad as well. Sigh the day before my wedding. This has torn me apart but… I have to stay strong for John, Skyler, Melissa and Nova. I just have to do what I can to help support my brother.

I feel so sorry for him and also I am slightly pissed that he let himself go after Teagon left but he’s got a daughter now. Who’s he’s adopted lately. This brings a smile to my face because it seems like he needed it.

I wonder what’s going to happen now… I hope that things will get better from now. I just hope Nova will get better. Sigh… All of this makes me feel like why? Why has all of this happened and at the wrong time? She was also pregnant with triplets as well. This also makes me feel like shit. But I can’t do anything about it.

Dear Diary,

Well I haven't wrote anything in my diary in a long time. Well a lot has been going on lately...

Yesterday I met John at the Sandy Sheriff's office. He just got off work. I invited both him and Nova for a drink at the Yellowjack to have a heart to heart kind of. I even got Nova to dress like him XD His face XD Was a picture through. Hawkins wasn't very impressed XD

John was ever so quiet for some reason. I asked what's wrong he said nothing is wrong and he is keeping it away from me. I keep insisting but in the end I couldn't take it... I walked out to sit by my car to cry. I know that he has 2 jobs to worry about. Being apart of the navy and sometimes never telling me when he's being called back on duty... Why does he have to keep all of this away from me. He has a daughter after all. This hurts me... It's like my heart is being ripped from my chest, being thrown off a boat into the ocean.

After this he went outside, telling Nova to take me home. Not long after this he wanted to talk to me but he didn't have long. This was at the Fort where he worked. He kept asking questions on where I've been... Not believing me when I say I've been at home, looking after Skyler. I stuttered and he walked off and shouted saying, "Come back to me when you got your story straight".

Doesn't Hawkins trust me anymore... When he got a break, we met up again and we cleared things up but he still left me on my own with the others at the gas station. I got this feeling that he doesn't love me at all anymore... That his work is more important than me...

What can I do... Why does it feel like he doesn't care... I've been thinking, is Hawkins the right man for me? I'm not sure anymore...

Dear Diary,

Yesterday I ran away from home with Skylar in my arms. I left a note behind for the man who's hurting me behind. As I said in the prior entry that I was going to file in a divorce to finish and get out of this continuous cycle of pain with Hawkins not talking to me anymore...

The same question stands... Does he love me anymore? Well I went to Celestia's house to hide and spend some time away but I couldn't get away... As soon as this happened Nova and Melissa came over to comfort me during this hard time... My heart is hurting so much right now... I can never go back...

Well guess what!! Hawkins came looking for me... I clearly said in the note that I never wanted to see him again... He tried calling Nova to find out where I was... He caused so many problems. Would you believe that your husband who's meant to love you, try and get you arrested for kidnapping your very own daughter? This pushed me to the edge!! It horrified me and I went on the run with Nova to stay hidden away from that MONSTER!! I filed for that divorce and he's taking me to court. I need to protect Skyler with what ever it takes. I hope he'll not cause more harm now... Enough is enough, what needs to be done, needs to be done.

Dear Diary,

Well I coulden't stay at 308 anymore because of hard memories there... He almost died there on my bed... So I had to leave that place... So I moved to Mirror park to be near Fox Stryker my best friend of my life at the current time.

Well I'm still terrified of Hawkins coming back to do harm to me. The charges that he has put against me have been dropped and also I have some good news!! I won the court case for custody of Skylar. This is great I don't ever need to see that man again but he has her at weekends once every 2 weeks. I wonder if this is going to last through.

Everyone has been helping me to adjust to my new home. Celestia helped out too with Nova and the others. I even went to see Fox after I moved in to see how she was doing. She was high on medication funny enough so both me and Nova hanged around to make sure she was good XD

So lets see what happens next now shall we hehe :) Also it's going to be a hard transition to being single once again sigh... Is this going to happen again I don't know? Will it?

Dear Diary,

Well, now that I've moved out and settled into my new home more. It's even more cosy then my pervious home funny enough XD On another note Nova planned a birthday party for me at home whilst I was at work working for the SAFR that day... Well a 2 month late birthday party but does that matter nope XD

Once I got home I had a surprise of my life. Fox and Nova at my home got me some home warming, bday gifts. But the best of all was when I reunited with, matter of all people, KYLE!!! It has been so long since I layed eyes on that person.

He left for work in another county but came back... My god Nova has out done himself XD Well on another note he asked me out on a date Kyle did saying I was ever so beautiful since the day we first met. He was such a flirt back then HAHA I denied him back then but now... What a handsome man that was stood in front of me. How could I refuse.

My my... well lets see what happens next shall we... I'm really excited.

Dear Diary,

Today I found out about Fox, who I call strawberry from now on as a friendly thing, her true feelings towards me. SHE'S IN LOVE WITH ME ALL THIS TIME!! Even the first day we met she was being a flirt towards me but I always said nope I'm straight but she always said "spaghetti is straight until it's wet" She's right XD

Do I actually like love her back... I'm not sure... It could be a posiblility I guess. Melissa and Nova found out not too long ago that I had a crush on her. So possibly I do love the sexy strawberry XD Fox does call me nicknames too like marshmallow at times funny enough.

I've also got feelings for her... Well I think it is a crush through but maybe more I donno... After her confession she spoke to me about getting a triforce tattoo on my arm like hers. So that we match. She said I was wisdom and she was courage of the triforce XD I agreed.

Well before we parted ways I... lunged forwards and kissed her... What was I thinking XD I'm already in a relationship... Fox is cute but come on!! And she is in a relationship too!! AHHHHH WHAT CAN I DO!!

Dear Diary,

Well today I got home not long before Kyle got home. I was still in uniform as well, so I took my hair down and little Skylar came up to me asking for hugs. She even started playing with my snow white hair XD

I stayed in uniform and not so long after the man of my dreams walked in, in his sexy PD uniform.

Ohhh my gosh... he defiantly is dreamy. Well Skylar caused some mischief in the house wanting cookies XD My cookies from the cookie jar. Kyle gave her some to calm her down. God she had a hyper session running around XD

Just like how I was when I was her age. As Nora say's my mother haha.

I'm getting over the divorce with Hawkins and I'm feeling even more happier then he could have ever made me. Kyle is a dream. I hope this happiness will last forever. Ohh he even proposed to me in the hospital after a car crash he had but I said the words XD Funny enough! Lets see what happens next shall we.

Dear Diary,

Today Nova came to visit me but he had bad news to tell me. His arm was in a sling after being shot but what's even worse he drops the bomb on me that Kyle.... had been killed in front of his own eyes.

I can't believe it... He's gone... I wish I had more time with him... But I can't. He's truly gone... I'm never ever going to see him again. I... I cant believe it. I know that the job being an officer puts you in harms way but... I have no one anymore...

First memory loss, 2nd betrayal and 3rd DEATH what can be worse... I'll never ever love again.. I'll be alone forever and ever... What can I do? My heart gets pulled out of my chest more then once in my life. Who can I pour my pain and heart onto now...

Dear Diary,