Introduction

Quick ejaculation or any other form of erectile dysfunction is the quickest way to deflate any man’s ego. Nothing compares to the devastating psychological effect a willing man suffering from this plague has to bear. It can be suicidal.

About me

My name is Ozwell and I have suffered from this condition ever since my active years. I will be sharing my documented experiences, challenges, losses, shame and victory with anyone in this predicament. It can be defeated, if you are willing. Come with me.

It all started here...

Boarding School

I started boarding school at 11 where I was exposed to a number of vices including homosexuality. I never really continued in homosexuality but the effects will alter the course of my life in years to come. In the dormitories were boys from different backgrounds cohabited.

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"I never really continued in homosexuality but the effects will alter the course of my life in years to come"

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One night around 1am while sleeping at the uppermost deck of my bed, I felt a hand creeping around my body. 4 fingers slowly found their way into my nightwear and headed towards my private part. I can’t remember why I did not resist, maybe I was half asleep and a bit unsure of what was happening. I realized I was erect and the naked actor slowly climbed on top of me. Though the room was dark, I recognized him and just indulged him out of curiosity. After a moment of Kelvin stroking me, I felt a mild vibration around my body, something I have never felt before. It felt like something left me. It was sensual, calming, good and ironically awful at the same time. I was only 14 at the time. Years later, I would come to realize the experience that cold night as ejaculation.

Homosexuality then Masturbation

After that first experience, Kelvin and I would stroke ourselves at night. I was now bold with a feeling of pleasure and guilt. I got to know other boys who were indulging in the same act even with their room seniors or “school fathers”. Months after, I suddenly stopped enjoying it because it didn’t feel good anymore and slowly disconnected from Kelvin. But I was already hooked on the pleasurable feeling of ejaculation and desired it every day. I resorted into masturbation.

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"Every attempt to break this habit proved abortive and the circle stayed with me till I completed high school".

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Apart from the common acts of fondling the genitals with the palm a number of boys indulged in I went a step further. I would squeeze my erect or sometimes half erect genitals tightly between my tiny laps until I ejaculated. Years later I adopted other techniques of masturbation using different techniques and household utensils. In between these years I had attempted to break free and stopped the habit because I felt an overwhelming feeling of guilt after every session and yet longed for it again a couple of hours later. Every attempt to break this habit proved abortive and the circle stayed with me till I completed high school.

Tana and I were 17

Back home, I had a childhood friend “Tana” in the neighborhood whom I had always liked and was really close to. While in school we would exchange letters and desired to see each other during the holidays. It was an era when there was no internet nor cell phones. The public phone was far away in town and most times out of service. We stayed in touch with letters and eagerly waited for deliveries that took months. Non the less, it was a beautiful era. I had just written the general university entrance exam and was awaiting the outcome of the exams when Tana and I got closer than usual.

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"Everything was tensed and heated when I felt the sensation of ejaculation. I could read the confusion on Tana’s face but could do nothing about it. We were both 17"

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One afternoon Tana came visiting when both our parents were out to work. We started kissing and gradually took off our clothes leaving only our underwear. Everything was tensed and heated when I felt the sensation of ejaculation. I could read the confusion on Tana’s face but could nothing about it. We were both 17. Other times we progressed into getting all naked, then I realized I couldn’t get a proper erection for penetration. We were both naive and couldn’t tell what was going on; good or bad. When the exact same episode persisted at other times, I realized there was a problem with me but I had no idea how to go about it. I didn’t know what to do or whom to ask. My parents moved out of the neighborhood to another while Tana and I proceeded to different universities and eventually lost contact.

Ini and The Blue Pills

I met another beautiful girl at school “Ini” and things progressed really fast between us. I immediately liked her when I first met her and I think the feeling was mutual. We went on a few dates before she agreed to pay me a visit. After her 3^rd visit, she decided to sleep over. Considering previously failed erection I panicked and sorted the use of a stimulant. I got one from a drug vendor at the corner of the street a day before Ini’s visit.

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Clothes off, erection on, girl was ready and we got really entangled. The cap of my manhood slightly slipped into her; it was warm, wet and mysterious. Suddenly I...

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By 7pm Ini was at my place. She came along with some fruits and snacks. Whilst she was visibly excited, I was preoccupied with the thoughts of my anticipated performance, was I going to flop like other times like I did with Tana? I was very uncertain and hoped the drug will do the magic. Under guise I took the first pill just before we started getting raunchy at 10pm. Clothes off, erection on, girl was ready and we got really entangled. The cap of my manhood slightly slipped into her; it was warm, wet and mysterious. Suddenly I ejaculated and eventually fell flat. A wave of disappointment and helplessness swept through me but I tried to cheer up so I do not make her uncomfortable. I stylishly swallowed the second pill and started again, few minutes into pre intimacy and locked lips I felt her fingers caressing my turgid balls hanging under a steadily rising penis. As she gently squeezed on them, I felt it coming again, I tried to stop it but bam I forcibly ejaculated again without even attempting penetration. My fluid splattered all over her hand. I was completely devastated and was never going to try again.

Stop Masturbation And Pornography

Before attempting my recommendations on improving your sex life, you must be willing to completely stop masturbation and refrain from viewing pornographic materials. They are a terrible way of twisting your natural settings. Materials or therapists recommending a bit of controlled masturbation to improve sexual performance may have their reasons, I tried it and it completely messed me up until I completely stopped.

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"I tried it and it completely messed me up until I completely stopped."

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It’s been 7 months without Porn or masturbation, I have greatly greatly improved sexually and feeling more confident already. These acts messes with your mind, spirit and all-round performance (in bed and out of bed). Stop by all means.

Dieting and Exercises

Whilst researching I came across articles that emphasized the importance of dieting and exercises to help with erections, a few suggestions where given. I started jogging and consuming lots of fruit and stayed away from sex for about 2 months.

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"she wrapped her palm around my erected penis and gently stroked, at the 4th stroke sperm gushed out of my manhood like a fountain of whitish gel, everything went flat. This marked my....."

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Ini didn’t complain but everything felt awkward, it was only a matter of time before she starts getting irritated. After 2 months, with raised confidence we attempted again. 3 minutes into action after lots of smooching everything got really heated up, she wrapped her palm around my erected penis and gently stroked, at the 4th stroke sperm gushed out of my manhood like a fountain of whitish gel, everything went flat. This marked my end with Ini. Her response from that day went cold. I loved her with everything, but it was game over. She moved on.