Blogs and Updates

It's been a while since I've made a blog post! Here are some updates:

• I am incredibly depressed as of late. I think I'm just desperate for human interaction or affection. 

• My new job is good!!! It's easy work, but my mom and my boss be stressing me out all the fucking time. I like getting paid, so that's nice.

• I am stressed about owed art. I will be doing that promptly after finishing this update LMFAO.

I have gotten my first job! I have yet to be contacted by my boss, but I did get a confirmation email from the HR team! It's just an on-call as-needed position, but I'm very excited! Having some experience under my belt will help me get full-time employment in the near future (hopefully). 

I've been feeling pretty tired recently. I need to get working on my coms, but I'm super stressing about it. I aim to get them done this week, at least the big moneys one. Aside from that I've been working on my OCs like usual, as in, uploading them all to my Refsheet account. I'm almost done with my fandom OCs and when I do it will push me to over 500....

Sorry today's blog is short, I just felt like I should update. I'm anxious.

I've been very stressed lately. I have a bunch of coms to do because (drum roll please).....

Going homeless! Probably! Haha.....

The point is that I have been stressed and working overtime. I did have some small good things happen though. I finished watching Gravity Falls and I'm like so so so obsessed.I will never beat the old man lover allegations. Ford, Stan, Mcgucket are my favorite characters by the way ehehehehehehe. I also read The Book of Bill afterwards. Very fun, made me much joy. 

I also made a bunch of symmetrical icons of some of my OCs. All of my cloverse guys (Pillowings, Lintling, and my Flutterfoxes). It was nice to draw them and now I can say that I have drawn all of them! I think most of the icons are very cute.

and then!!! Today I got back a bunch of designs from someone who I am no longer friends with. Maybe one day I'll write up a little  post here and that will make me feel better, but the point is that I got back some of my old OCs and I am so so delighted and happy and eternally thankful to the universe. 

This also reminds me that I need to actually work on a website (or sub page of this site) for my OCs to be displayed on. Might need to look into a better website format for that kind of stuff.... 

It's been a while since I've done a blog update! I was in Arizona for about a week? It was Bullhead, so one day I ended up going to see the Colorado River in Laughlin. It was fun despite it mostly being about building a shed and painting a house. I went with my dad and his girlfriend. Actually, me and my dad found a pretty sick score! They don't really have any lps in stores where I live, so we literally stopped at like every walmart we saw. Not only did I find a whole case brand new, they ended up only being a dollar each! It was so awesome. I took some photography of them, which I'll be uploading on my recent art tab when I publish this blog, haha. I guess I should have taken notes because I have no idea what to write about, sigh.   

It's been a few days since I've updated the website. I just feel a little down? I guess?? No worries though, I'm working through it. I haven't worked on any of my new year's resolutions, unfortunately. I'm going to work really hard looking for a job again soon, so hopefully I can get some money in to help with the food.... Which reminds me! I felt very adult the other day: My mom was supposed to be gone for a work trip, and when I woke up the dogs had no food. So, I walked to the store, bought the dog food with my own money, and walked home. I felt very good about it. :)

I've been drawing a lot lately too. Well, not drawing, but thinking about drawing, which is more than nothing, and I'm happy about that. The same goes for my OCs. My Refsheet account has had a lot of progress as I am steadily uploading my OCs. Perhaps it will be ready within the next few months! Soon I need to shift gears and start working on my Art Fight again, as it's only 5 months away and I need to redo my entire profile.

I also want to write some more soon. I have one draft (which I probably won't be posting here because it's NSFW, hahaha) But I'll probably make another post mentioning when I finish it! I still haven't decided if NSFW will go on this site or if I should make an alternate site for it, my friend wants a nsfw writing piece from me soon, so I'll decide by then!!

OH!!! And another thing; I need to work on the Fruitees's drawn out trait sheet. When I have time. I need to get through my mountain of owed artwork first though....... 

I finished binging Aqua Teen Hunger Force. I am so sad I only have the 2022 movie left to go. I am also incredibly sad that two of my main interests at the moment are the dumbest fucking shows to ever exist. What do you mean I'm in love with two Atari pixels, a green spikey glob, and a box of fries??? (In case you are not familiar I am referring to Ignignokt, Err, Emory, and Frylock). The other interest would be South Park, which I also recently finished binging after about a year and a half on and off. I promise I like good content with plot and nice art style and fantastic characters, but this kind of mindless slop is also very enjoyable. And I don't mean slop in a negative light by any means, I mean slop that has soul, that's just the purest most random and heartfelt "what if the craziest thing we could imagine that makes no sense happened?" in the best way and it all ties perfectly together. I'm thinking of making these blog updates a little longer in the future, but I'm unsure. I would have to really know what I want to write about, but for now it will mainly be expressing some mild thoughts I have.

LIKE.... The very dangerous political climate currently. I don't want to talk much about it right now because it is stressing me out, but I keep seeing people spread misinformation about the hitler salute of all things. It's something that doesn't even matter (the origin of it) in the context of the conversations it's taking place in, but if they can't even do 5 minutes of research, find the Agustus prima porta khan academy article talking about how it was a sign of power, and how Hitler (to mimic the most influential and powerful nation to ever live) stole the roman salute to create this image that he is "the new roman empire" and especially because Hitler was an artist he would no doubt be familiar with this propaganda art piece and it's influence and meaning, how can I trust anything else you're saying?

It wasn't even the point of the video, but it's small things like that that rub me wrong and make me realize how uncredible so many people are and how many people just blindly follow what they say.

Recently I've been obsessed with scene core bases. Something in them just tickles the deepest thoughts in my brain so I've been making a ton of OCs as of late.  Also... Today I was looking for some art trades and all of the sudden I'm being swarmed with people wanting there little pixel icon gifs from me. It was super stressful, so I need to finish those tonight and do my real coms tomorrow. Maybe I'll make some adopts too, but I'm not sure. 

I've been binging Aqua Teen Hunger Force again, the Mooninites and Oglathropians are still my faves. I'm in love with Emory and Ignorkot. Maybe I just really like little green dudes....

An ATHF sona will come sometime soon, I'm sure.

Plans... I have a few plans for the website, but I've been very depressed lately. I feel like my life doesn't have a direction it's heading in. I don't know what to do, I feel so isolated. But, I'm hopping I can get some coms and start making some money that way. Maybe if I can make at least $50 a week that would help. The only problem is I don't have great social reach, hahahaha. 

I've been working on my species Fruitees a lot lately. I'm very excited because they've had a lot of development. I am going to maybe make a website for them, just to organize information. At the very least there will be a google drive for it with all the fun stuff. 

I hope I can get more art done soon. I've already failed all my new years resolutions. But, I'm trying. And that's what matters. One art piece everyday, work on writing for at least an hour. Soon I will have fun and happy updates, please look out :)

So here I am finally doing the blog. I've been thinking about adding this section for literal years, but just never did. This page will be a huge wip (aesthetic-wise) but I'm finally glad to have a public diary. I have insane paranoia and I am always horrified by the thought that I might slip into nothingness when I die. Van Gogh, you inspire me in more ways than I care to want. The first update is less of an update I guess, but yay! We are here and we are cooking. Very happy to finally have this up and running. Maybe I'll get to know you all better in a future update.