For that section, I include a reflection paper I wrote when I was 19, during my first encounter with the play. The paper is far from being perfect but the evoked thoughts and emotions are obvious and strong. With this in mind, I hope to inspire and encourage other people to express their ideas unapologeticly, no matter how raw or unpolished they may seem on the comment section.
"No one in the subway is questioning Lula's murder. Besides, they help her throw the black corpse out of the subway like garbage. Clay was already worthless to Lula, but when he questioned white authority, Lula thought he deserved death. One of the things Lula doesn't like about Clay is that he doesn't seem like a real slave as he should have been. In other words, he doesn't wear clothes made of leaves, and there are no chains on his neck and wrists. He wears a suit like a white man and speaks with a white accent. Lula can't see him growing up under the culture and teachings of dominant white culture.
Clay is just a model, as his name refferes. Lula will do the same to the next black man, just like Clay, because he has books in his hands, and Lula sets her vicious eyes on him. The bloody circle will never end, or the cursed ship named 'racism' will never find a coast.
She says, 'I'm an actress, and I always lie.' Yes, she is lying, and yes, she is an actress like all racist whites. White people have had a scenario for blacks since from the beginning. The stage opens with 'virtuous' white actors. They just want to bring the light, knowledge, religion, and civilization they have to black people who are 'stuck in the dark'. Before long, this mask of virtue is removed, and bloody chains take their place. Thus, lively dances around the fire are replaced by yowlings that lead to the birth of blues music. They lie to black people. They say they are superior to everything. 'If God had liked you, he would have created you white.' says Lula. Black people have no choice but to believe all of them. Black people are not given the chance for education; they are condemned to poverty. Everything a person needs to commit a crime has been provided for them. And when they commit a crime, this stamp is engraved on their foreheads.
This play is different from other theatrical plays. It will never have an end. The actors/actresses will change, but the colors won't change. That's why Lula is telling the truth."
Merve Gökoğlu, 2019