Let me be the first to admit that this level of "openness" is a step towards much more than I know it will mean in the future; right now. I only know that I love words. I am still trying to find ways to arrange them to match the concepts that form in my head. I know what you are saying: "Concepts can not form without words". Right I agree but the purpose of this platform is to arrange that ever flowing derangement that is thought. I thought I would be powerful enough to avoid this step. But it means more to me now to complete the process of understanding by writing. I did not know that it was a natural progression. To have a thought without writing is to abort that thought without full development. I apologize if that sentiment is abrasive and brash but I now realize in my growth that I have to commit to thought to understand how I am perfectly imperfect. This blurb of thought is an attempt to beg for your understanding as I attempt to share with the world my cycle of birthing and nurturing thought.