Hanging on; Perseverance

Okay, okay, okay! I hear you! I am sorry I didn't write for the past few days. I'm just kidding, I know no one reads this (yet :) but I still feel a responsibility to write to y'all. I like documenting my life, I guess. So a few things.

My significant other, of 9-ish months (I think) is now my best friend. It's so sudden, too. I know it isn't really my fault, they just kinda moved on, but it still hurts a little. And it hurts a little more that the day after they started seeing someone else. And it hurts a little more because I was writing something for her. Scrapped it though. What hurts the most is how much I conceded to still be with them. Like... I don't want to make it too personal, and I know its over, but like to put you in my position, they cheated on me. And I stood with them said, "It's okay, I still love you." Maybe I should've just taken the out, right? Whatever. I know I'm not perfect either. I can recall one particular time where I said something to them that really hurt. Not intentionally, of course, but it still hurt. I guess maybe we both conceded a little too much.

I said my power was out, and I meant it. While it was out, I was writing a story for my anthology. Isolation explores how I felt during that time. It's under the 'Larion' tab. 

While I am struggling through this I ask you for patience. I don't know if you are even there, but if you are, patience would be nice. I'm trying to focus on my accomplishments, rather than my failures right now. Deep breaths, right? I saw a clip of Junpei talking to Chidori in the hospital after... well if you played Persona 3, you know. Anyways, that clip taught me to hang on. Or it spoke to me, rather. I'm a fairly emotional ASPD person. (I'm not diagnosed cause people of my age, cannot be diagnosed for that, but my doctor says it is very likely :/) Emotional in the sense that I expirence lots of emotions, I just can't express them in a good way, I guess. ASPD or not, I'm just not great at social interaction in general. Maybe that's why I have this blog. Well anyways, I just need an outlet, so that I don't do anything rash. 

I don't know what else to write here right now, (alliteration who?) so I'm gonna work on ToL. Ciao~