This section contains intention statements. In my first year as an undergraduate (Spring 2023), I developed an "I am" statement describing who I was at the time. I also had written an "I want to become" statement describing my goals in aspirations. Both statements are found below. There is also a reflection containing some context about what was happening in my life when the statements were written, a comparison of how I am now compared to then, and if any of my goals had been reached/changed. For the H496 class I am currently enrolled in, I have written new "I am" and "I want to become" statements.
H200 "I am/I want to become" statements
"I am..."
I am an immigrant. I am anxious. I'm most inspired by my parents. I am caring and determined which is fueled from discrimination and injustice. I am joyful after spending time with animals and kids. I am happy after finishing projects, especially on my car.
"I want to become..."
I hope the family and friends around me are filled with love and happiness. In the future, I want to give my parents a relaxing life. I hope I’m living sustainably and able to be self-sustained in the ways that I choose. I hope I find the perfect house for me, and I make it into a beautiful home. I hope I have a car I’m super proud of. I hope I find connections with others. My life will feel balanced. I will connect more with my background: I will regain my accent, be more aware of my culture, and meet more people like me. I hope, in the future, I feel less lost and know myself more. I will have more confidence. My environment will fill me with peace. I will have the space to let my creativity flow. I will always remember where I came from and continue using it as motivation to do good and help. I will learn to be completely grateful for my past and appreciate all experiences I’ve had. I will make a difference with my Real Food project. I will create a composting system for my home. I will be successful in investing. My future holds incredible trips to beautiful places. My graduation from IUPUI will be a beloved memory; and my path to certainty of my career will be a beautiful one. I will be
surrounded by animals and live alongside them. The time I spend taking care of the earth will be the same time that I’m on the clock.
Reflection (Spring 2026):
Who was I then?
When I had written the two statements about, I had just started college and adulthood. With graduating highschool, I began exploring the faucets of freedom that can with being an adult. With this transition into adulthood, I was doing a lot of reflecting on my childhood and life before that point. I had just completed my first semester of college. I was beginning to learn about myself and who I was and wanted to become. I was obsessed with my car, which I had for about a year at that point, and all the different things I could do to it. The war in Ukraine, my birthplace, had made me hyperaware of my differences and pulled me to think about home more regularly.
Past self v. current self:
I am still an immigrant, that is not likely to change for as long as I live in a country other than the one I was born in. I still get anxious, but not often enough for it to be something I identify with. I think I am still caring and determined but now I don't have much reasoning behind it, just that it feels right to be that way. I still love spending time with kids and animals but I also equally love spending time with my friends and family. I still gain satisfaction from finishing things in general - projects, assignments, household tasks, creating something, etc. I have a different car now and I don't do much to it other than clean it, which is also satisfying.
My friends/family seem happy, I hope they continue to be full of love and happiness. I haven't ben able to give my parents a completely relaxing life just yet but I do little things for them as much as I can. I try to be as sustainable as I can. Looking back, I'm not sure what I meant by being self-sustained. I haven't found a house yet, I don't it's been the right time for me to get a house, but that is still a big goal for me. I have a car I'm happy with; being super proud of my car isn't a priority for me anymore. I've made so many short and long term connections my freshman year! I think my life is well-balanced but there's more work to be done in that realm. I think I'm less connected to my culture; I still wish to be more connected but it'll require more effort on my end and overcoming some internal barriers. I've gotten to meet many people since then that share my culture. I have gotten to know myself better over the years and I think getting to know myself will be a life-long journey. I wouldn't say I feel lost, but I think that feelings will come and go depending on my circumstances. I would say I've grown more confident. I have indeed created a peaceful environment for myself. I have began crocheting, knitting, coloring, using pastels, painting, and playing with makeup to express my creativity. I have grown very grateful for past good and bad events because it's shaped me into who I am today. I didn't make much of a difference with the Real Food Challenge, but I did get experience working with data. I did compost in my home for a few years, maybe I will start it up again. I've done a little investing in a variety of ways, but I'm not sure that I value being successful in that aspect anymore. I haven't taken too many trips, but I plan to this summer! I haven't graduated yet, but I am certain I will go to graduate school and I know I want to continue doing research. I'm live with my dog and go to the park often and see many different animals there.
H496 "I am/I want to become" statements
"I am..."
I am a dedicated researcher. I am a scholar for life. I'm so inspired by the people around me. I am open-minded and excited. I fill my world with as much happiness, love, and positivity as I can.
"I want to become..."
I would like to publish many scientific articles. I'll fall more in love with research and it will feel more natural to me. I will be more involved with the Insect Welfare Research Society (IWRS). I will be excited for and proud of the work I do. I will be tired from traveling so much. I will go on many long walks with my dog. I will finish all my crochet/knitting projects and only have one in the works at a time. I will have read so many books about everything (romance, spirituality, health, meditation, classics, fiction, nonfiction, etc.). I will have bought the perfect house for me. My community of friends and family will be filled with inspirational, loving, kind, compassionate, fun, and intelligent people. I will have a permanent tan year-round from all the time I spent outdoors.
I will be a better listener. I will be grateful for all the incredible conversations I get to have. I will become a better conflict resolver and negotiator. Gratitude will fill me every second of everyday. My value for peace will be present with me in all I do. I will feel more like myself in my culture and language. Being open-minded will come easily to me. I'll get along better with myself. My life will be filled with peace and fun. I'll be appreciative of all the kindness, love, and success I have. I will get so many opportunities to see the people around me grow and succeed.