The song Hier encore of Charles Aznavour played in the background
Hier encore, j'avais 20 ans. Je caressais le temps et jouais de la vie. [...] Sans compter sur mes jours qui fuyaient dans le temps.
Alastair Anchor would sit down on his bed, listening to his music. He just arrived to this new site. He felt weird. Not because of the snow. Not because of the weather. Not because of the site. He felt guilt. He left behind him his whole life. He left his old site. He left his old buddies. He left Epsilon-6. He left her . He left his loved one. He left Katrina.
J'ai fondé tant d'espoirs qui se sont envolés. Que je reste perdu, ne sachant où aller. Les yeux cherchant le ciel mais le coeur mis en terre.
Alastair remembered his old day as an E6 2LT. All the times where he could help out friends and foes, trying to build hopes for a better world. But for whatever reason, he still was transferred. He was transferred to this site and couldn't keep his rank. He had to start back in General security. How come could he lose all of this in such a sort time. How come could his life change to the worst. That was what he was wondering, what he was asking to himself. Maybe it was all a mistake? Joining Foundation? No, no it couldn't. It was for his brother. To find him, to help him. To find Zachariah Je gaspillais le temps en croyant l'arrêter. Et pour le retenir, même, le devancer. [...] Mais j'ai perdu mon temps à faire des folies
Anchor wondered if he went to quick, decided without thinking about others. What if Katrina needed him? What if Zach was still alive and needed his help. What if... What if. He would shake his head thinking: "No... I did everything that's correct. More than 50% of my pay goes to her and we don't have a kid yet. I know she'll be fine. I need to find Zach, to know if he his still alive. I have to." He would look down, still confused on what to think. After a bit, he would take a deep breath. He would take the book he found yesterday and start reading it. He would think again: "I'll have time to think this trough."
Et j'ai gâché ma vie et mes jeunes années. Du meilleur et du pire, en jettant le meilleur. [...] Où sont-ils à présent? À présent, mes 20 ans?

The song of That's Life by Frank Sinatra would start playing in Anchors earphones 

That's life (that's life). That's what all the people say 

Alastair would be sitting down in the aquarium as he always does. Enjoying the calmness to answer his multiple questions. What is freedom, how can one achieve it. What is life, what was the meaning of it. What is the human mind, how it works. Even tho all of theses questions, Anchor couldn't stop thinking about the one H gave him. What makes a thing, an action or decision, right or wrong, good or bad. 

I said that's life (that's life). [...] 'Cause this fine old world, it keeps spinnin' around 

Anchor couldn't answer, as always. He just looked at the fishes, wondering if they also questioned their existences, questioned their views. All of theses questions will never have an answer, just maybes. Each time repeating themself until one goes crazy, until one discover the true meaning of it. That's life (that's life). I tell you, I can't deny it. I thought of quitting, baby 

What if their was no real answers to it, what if their were just made to confuse, to give a false sense of hope. Alastair would shake his head, this wasn't possible, it couldn't be. There was an answer, there was an end. He would continue to think, like he was a prisoner of his own mind, of his own thoughts. Wasting his life to answer these questions, forgetting what real life was. 

I've been up and down and over and out. And I know one thing. [...] I just pick myself up and get. Back in the race 

Alastair would snap out of this, remembering that this wasn't why he was there. He needed to find his brother, find a clue at least. He knew he was still alive. He know he would help him, help him from his questioning. He was the true answer. 

That's life (that's life). That's life and I can't deny it.

The song would end and Anchor would still be sitting at the aquarium, this time crossing his arms, trying to get an idea from where he can get his clues. Thinking about his multiple questions. He once again was prisoner to himself.

The song I Don't Want To Set The World On Fire by The Ink Spots would start to play in Anchor's earphone

"I don't want to set the owrld on fire. [...] In my heart I have but one desire"

Anchor would be sitting in Aquarium, as always. This time, his mind would think of the future, of questions, of doubt but in nostalgia. He finally made it back to where he was betrayed, back to a SGT. Memories flooded his mind, his camarade, his friends, his enemies, all of the time he spent helping others, all the time he wished for a better world. He would pinch his nose, trying to hold tears, making his monocle fall down, only being held by the chain.

"I've lost all ambition. All worldly claim. [...] I'll have reached the goal that I'm dreaming, oh, believe me."

He would take a deep breath, trying to gain back his sense. He would look for once not a the fish but at the floor. He was scared. Scared to do the same mistake that could have cost him his life, that made everyone turn its back on him. He was scared to once again loose all his friend, to loose what the only thing that could make him feel alive again. The only thing that makes him stop thinking about his brother, about his mother. The rank of Sergeant, the rank where he lost everything. He couldn't let this happen again.

"I don't want to set the world on fire."

Anchor grab his monocle again, placing it back infront of his left eye. He would then stand up, leaving aquarium. Walking towards EZ. He would go first to the garden, trying to find another black rose for Katrina but failed to do so. He would pull out his from his book, admiring it. He wondered how is it the only one. He wondered if he could find something like that again, something that he would protect with his life. He would then notice the person starring at the ceiling. Anchor would approach them, sitting down in front of them.*

"Are you alright?"

The song Comme ils disent by Charles Aznavour Would start to play in Anchor's earphone

 
"J'habite seul avec maman. Dans un très vieil appartement"

-=[Rough translation: I live alone with mother, I a very old apartment]=-

Anchor would lay down in his bed. For once, he was not near the aquarium. He would play with something in his hand, his SSGT badge. He would not admire it. He would not even look at it. He would fidget with it, moving it from hand to hand. He still couldn't think about how this time he finally broke a curse that seemed unbreakable. He would turn his head around, now shifting his attention to his Québéc patch near his name. His name... Right, he now wasn't known as Alastair Anchor now, he was known as "Kairos". It felt weird for him.

 
"Je range, je lave, j'essuie. À l'occasion je pique aussi"

-=[Rough translation: I clean. In occasion, I drink as well]=-

Anchor would stand back up from his bed. He would start walking towards the GENSEC elevator, stopping in front of the door. His memories would submerge him from the time he was taken in that room, the room where he felt so close to death. The room where he felt so calm, yet so anxious. Anchor would remember the smell, the noise, the fear of who could be behind that window. He was reliving these memories like they were just happening. He felt the fear that XI-8 had that day, he felt the doubt of his own action. Anchor would then fall down to his knee, breathing rapidly 

"On déballe des vérités. Sur des gens qu'on a dans le nez"

-=[Rough translation: We uncover truth on people we hate]=-

Alastair would lose all of his sense, loosing himself in his memory. He would go back from the last time he felt lost. The time where he was forced out of his last site. He would wear an E6 SGT uniform where next to his nametag, he would also have a Québéc flag. In this memory, he would also be on his knee. Only this time, he was not panicking, but crying. He looked up to someone in a SD outfit, with a gun pointed at him. Anchor would hear himself plead for his life, plead to see his mother, brother and Katrina again. Before anything else happen, a flash would bring him back to that room, to the room where "Arcana" showed him the wound they had. Proving they were not a Sarkics. Another flash would bring him infront of "Obsidian" desk before snapping out of this memory episode. 

Je suis un homme, oh. Comme ils disent.

-=[Rough translation: I am a man, oh. Like they say]=-

Anchor would snap back, snap back into reality. Taking deep breath before standing back up, shaking his head. These were the past, these were memories of a shittier life. He would head towards the elevator, standing in it looking at the buttons for a quick minute before heading towards the small library in front the elevator. He would pick a book, opening it and started reading it. He wouldn't realize that his leg would be tapping at the beat of his mind. 

The song Let It Be by The Beatles would start to play in "Kairos" earphone 

"When I find myself in times of trouble/[...]/And in my hour of darkness/She is standing right in front of me/Speaking words of wisdom, let it be" 

"Kairos" would be standing in aquarium, when was the last time he stood there. Hell, why was he even there? That's what he wondered. Did he come back here after being so much absent because of the recent talk with Cristoph? Was it because of the D-Class? Was it about himself? Without a doubt, for someone else other then him it would be a mix of everything. He questioned if Berger was right, if he was too much soft on the D-Class. But then again, maybe the D-Class acted so because he wasn't soft enough. But then again, why does he feel threaten each time he pass by them, why does he have to fake an accent for his life? 

"And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree/There will be an answer, let it be

He would then get his focus on the fish, letting his leg tap to the beat of his mind. God does he wish he could become a fish, letting all is problem behind and swim until his death. God does he still wish for a peaceful world. If only. If only he could do something about it. If only he wasn't held back by damm rules, by the fear of treason. He would then snap back to reality, looking at his badge. "Damm world..." he would whisper to himself. He would then leave the aquarium heading to D-Block, heading to were he could hopefully make a change 

"And when the night is cloudy there is still a light that shines on me/Shinin-"

He would remove his earphone and stopped his music as soon as he entered D-Block. He would soon lay on the fence infront of the armory, watching the D-Class do D-Class stuff. They just like the fishes. Roaming around clueless of their faith. In a cell where they know its there but cannot do anything. Waiting for their 30days to end. Waiting at death doorstep. He would grab his pack of cigarette, take one out and lights it up with his lighter. His leg now tapping to an unknow beat, waiting for something to happen.

The song Happy Together by The Turtles play in "Kairos" earphone. Reviewing certain memories. In his hands would be an opened letter

"Imagine me and you, I do/I think about you day and night"
In a random high school classroom, both a younger Alastair Anchor and Katrina Kosnov would sit next to eachother. At that time they wouldn't know what waited for them in the future, but for now they would only be stranger. Months went by, they talked, they laugh and they kissed. Months went by and they started to know eachother. Months went by and they loved eachoter. At the end of the year, they already talked about marriage.

"To think about the girl you love/And hold her thight"
They are now in cégep, both in different  programs but in the same establishement.  Even in different programs they made time for them. Both gave the effort to go study in McGill, both didn't want to leave the other. They even made plan on how their first house are gonna be so big. They made plans to have a big familly. They couldn't live without one another. They followed eachother, they loved eachother.

"So happy together"
Back to the present, he would look at this letter. He couldn't believe what happen. His hand was shaking. Finally a letter from her

"Me and you, and you and me/No matter how they tossed the dice/It had to be"
As both of them would apply for Uni, Anchor got his scholarship at the University of Oxford, while Katrina got her scholarship at the Université de Québec à Montréal. For the first time in nearly 5 years, they would be separated. It was a though choice for both of them. They loved eachother to death. Their love was a drug, they needed it to live. Anchor didn't want to leave her alone but Katrina force him to go live his dream, as long as he came back after his study. The promise that he still has to fullfil.

"The only one for me is you/And you for me"
Before he left, Alastair proposed to her. After 5 years, after half a decade, they were now married. The celebration was big, they invited all of their family members. They spent the last summer together. They spent the most time possible together, because this was the last time they would see eachother.

"So Happy together"
The letter that "Kairos" received was from Katrina. He opened it without waiting. He missed her hand writing, he missed her, he wanted to know how se was. The letter was written in French.

"Dear Alastair,

This is Katrina parents writing you this. It's with an heavy heart that we have to tell you that Katrina..."

"We're happy together"
He would trash the paper, throwing it on the ground. Tears would burst down from his face. Tears would fill his eyes and mind. He would stand up from his personal chest walking to god knows where. The rest of the letter read this:

"has passed away in a protocol flight. Her plane lost control and she couldn't get it back. She crashed landed last week.

Please come attend her funeral. I know it as been difficult with you two but do it as her husband, as her lover.

Take care, for her.

-Katrina's parent"

// Hey guys! So here is some fun fact about Anchor's character and some other fun fact from other characters mentioned in this DCB. Lets start shall we?

The first time the name Alastair Anchor popped up was in a Roblox game called World of Magic (now Arcane Odyssey). It was a game I used to grind a lot when I was younger. Due to this, Anchor became my OC, where I slowly built a story to him, a world to him.
Upon some years after his creation, I bought Gmod and joined my first RP server. Of course, Anchor had already got a story with him. The logical choice was to use him. He then became a second life for me. A way to enjoy another world and talking to people. He was first PK after a defection, something that to this day I regret doing.
Now I go could for hours, transforming this section into a nostalgia one but I feel like I have to let this Anchor go.

Now for that "Kairos" codename, this one is REALLY special to me. I first got wind of that name in a Tiktok vid explaining some meaning of names (Kairos would have relation with time or something[Its been since 2021 since I saw that vid, dont quote me on shit]). The first time that I would use this name would be for my first ever SCPRP character in another server and it stuck with me ever since. Now, with the acceptance of GENSEC command, I can finally get this good ol "Kairos" back in shape, to be the greater man of his past. There's also another meaning for Anchor to have a codename but FOIRP :]