RESEARCH identity

My research identity begins long before academia. In a living room where a small girl watched TV and saw an adventurer walking through forests and over ridges. He was a character from a commercial, not a story meant to shape a life. And yet something in him resonated deeply. Not because of the product, but because of the image of someone choosing their own path. That quiet spark stayed, becoming a way of seeing the world long before I had words for it.

Years later, that resonance became a way of thinking. The girl grew into a researcher who stepped into landscapes that didn’t have ready‑made answers. Curiosity pushed her forward. But she soon discovered that the academic world is full of boxes. Are you digital enough? Pedagogical enough? Quantitative? Qualitative? I was always too much of one thing and not enough of another. Not fully Digital, not fully pedagogical. Not purely quantitative, not purely qualitative. I lived in the methodological in‑between. A place that often felt like a mismatch. And this in‑betweenness shaped my journey.

Some doors closed. Reviewers asked me to fit the mold. Co‑authors worried my approach was too hybrid, too boundary‑crossing, too something. I tried to explain, but the boxes remained small, and I refused to shrink my ideas to fit inside them. However, the path did not end there.

Along the way, I met researchers who saw what I was trying to do. People who didn’t ask me to choose a side. Colleagues who understood that some phenomena require movement across boundaries. Mentors who helped refine instead of restrict. With their support, the trail was lighted up, and slowly, clarity emerged.

I realized I am not “between boxes.” I am outside them, and that is actually my strength. My work lives in the spaces where methods meet. I see shapes before categories, patterns before paradigms, phenomena before methods. And once I understood that I could be proudly out‑of‑the‑box, the path opened again, toward new horizons, new boundary‑crossing insights, and new ways of understanding complex, evolving worlds.

My research identity is not about fitting in. It is about expanding what research can be.