She knows she is enticing

Curved and striking

Eyes like ice and hair like water

She parts her velvet lips and they fall

Into her spindly delicate grasp.

She knows I am watching

Furious desire digging into my lungs

Poor little Envy

Who would look at you?

She smiles and it’s blinding

Her lips are stained deep red

But now she doesn’t know anything

Her eyes frozen and empty

Beautiful mouth parted gently

The red stain leaks beneath her breast

Poor little Temptation

Now no one will look at you.

I almost always find it funny

When others worry, denounce, critique

Why don’t you fret about it hunny

I know exactly what I seek

They say this is a risky theme

For my life’s long narrative

But don’t you understand my dream?

It is my vital need, it’s imperative

I cannot live my life like this

A desk in a box in a cage

I see the glory, I see the bliss

Of letting my mind explode and rage

Don’t tell me I’ll never make it

Don’t tell me you don’t agree

I will be more than you could ever forget

I will blaze until they can’t ignore me

It is not an easy goal, to be admired

To attain the lines that are so desired

She cannot eat without the fear

The hunger soaks up every tear

She is so very, very tired

She tries so hard to fit the mold

To every thought she starts to fold

And so she rips herself apart

And puts up walls around her heart

She is so very, very cold

She cuts herself with all they’ve spoken

What is a body but a token?

Her once clear mind is torn and rough

She will never be enough

She is so very, very broken

1st verse:

Well it started so long ago

I can hardly remember it now

But I just know life was so slow

And then it fell to pieces

What triggered the fractures? The fall?

Little pigtails running through the woods

You are too small to dread it all

How long until you bleed out?

Chorus:

What do I fear now?

Is it everything?

The panic soaks so quietly

It takes my breath

And then my lungs

Don’t forget me Dear Deity

I cannot think now

They say “just breathe now”

And so I do so silently

When did you stop coming for me?

2nd verse:

Well it lingered for quite a while

Flooding all I loved and felt and saw

I walked the mile with a false smile

‘Cause I was still terrified

What is so very wrong with me?

Am I stressed or dead or dying still?

How long must I be lost at sea

Before I can tell what’s real?

Chorus (repeated from above):

What do I fear now?

Is it everything?

The panic soaks so quietly

It takes my breath

And then my lungs

Don’t forget me Dear Deity

I cannot think now

They say “just breathe now”

And so I do so silently

When did you stop coming for me?

3rd verse:

Well it never quite went away

I can always feel it lurking there

And so I just say “you can stay,

As long as you just guide me”

Sometimes it does not like my rule

But the panic is but one small thing

I’m not so cruel to mock the fool

But I will not be beaten