Creative Content (words)

Wrath of a Daydream

The Funeral of James Baldwin (August 2, 1924 – December 1, 1987)

by Janice Mautner Markham

first published in the African American Review Vol.29 No.4 - 1995



i sit at home

day in hand

gray cat turned

around my feet

knowing

headlights

pavement

the stopping of

clocks

            carnival

            of African Drums

            dislocates the church hymnals

            in unison

            the pulse of rhythm beats

            hearts into hands

            Baraka rants and raves

            on a tattered life raft coughing

            each word as though it would

            bounce back to wound him

            Maya's profile pauses in

            reverence bowed to a friendship

            of pen in hand with red wine

            glasses tip-tappin' their

            numerous word upon word

            a humble tide of David Baldwin

            rests safe as a brother can

            navigate off shore

            but his eyes can not touch

            a mother's disbelief

               or a mother's question-

           "Why has He taken my son?"

            Silence and

            off

rising from the day

concrete fingerprints of

your blood at my temples

Jimmy

Do not think

I want to hang

I want to fall to you in hell

No

I want to drown

I want to swim to you in heaven





My Lunch with Gertrude Stein

Art Book collaboration with Laurent Neveu, 2018


It was a little awkward at first, my lunch with Gertrude Stein. She seemed generally annoyed with everything at the West Village eatery, from the waiter to the color of the china to the leaves falling off a nearby magnolia.


Decades as an ex-pat and now she’s back, 1934, as our nation falters and climbs and falters again through chronic depression. I see how we could be viewed as twins from afar, though she had seven years on me, and her build and gait were that of a train conductor, whereas mine was more of the commuter, attempting to leap on to that 8:05am into the city. The lapels on my suit were a bit thinner than hers, though I noticed we both kept a folded white handkerchief in our right suit pocket. I was, however, accessory-poor, lacking a broach to hold together a loosely draped neck scarf.


So, I am going to meet with him tomorrow…

Pause.

Did you hear me, Janice? I am going to meet with Charlie Chaplain tomorrow.


I didn’t respond as Gert was always making stuff up. She was constantly writing in her head, so conversation seemed to hang in a loose hammock between trees of reality and fantasy.


Is he going to teach you how to twirl a cane? I asked, unsarcastically.


There was something about this Jane Street Cafe, in heart of my heart of New York, something about this time, about this moment that made me feel I suddenly knew myself. I wanted to tell Gertrude, but she was already leafing through some manuscripts and frowning about something else. And, besides, this lunch doesn’t have to be about me. I wanted to talk about identity and gender pronouns and binary shminary contrary illusionary concepts, but I was interrupted by my lunch-mate:


Scones are useless. I do believe I could write about them, however. So. So. I was saying. I think I will go with Random House, though Alice and I were discussing the name - Random. An unfortunate name for a book publisher, don’t you think?


Well, I --


I mean to say, we dwell in specificity in our most successful moments, so…

It doesn’t matter. The matter doesn’t matter.


But I wouldn’t want to live in a random house.





Lady McBeth with a Hangover

The Poetry Motel, 1996



two

many vodka

tonics with Banquo

the fight before

some bad sex


now 

a matinee in a 

fogged chorus of

shaking heads


Hecate stares at

me from the wings

twists grey

synthetic

strands of hair


out damn slot

out i say i want

out of i can't 

quite remember the

past out

before

curtain call