Lyrics
The Nuclear Family (2009): Hancock Street Records (HS-2009001)
Daydreams
©2009, F. Adrian
All my dreams have been daydreams
No visions so stark to be confined to the night
All my dreams have been daydreams
No visions so dark to be concealed from the light of day...
Day by day, I lived my life complacently,
Adjacently to
People like you, people like me
I never knew there was something more meant for me because...
All my dreams had been daydreams
No visions so harsh to be concealed from myself
All my dreams had been daydreams
No visions so stark to be locked up on the shelf of my mind...
Mind that you don't look for truth in every day
You'll see the world the wrong way
Close your eyes and close your mind
And you can be happy, it will be no surprise when...
All your dreams are just daydreams...
All my dreams were just daydreams
No visions to stark, not one that forced me to care
All my dreams were just daydreams
No visions so dark that I could not really bear to see...
See that you must use your life to make the most
Of everything you give it
So that when you reach its end
You'll have no doubts you spent it well you lived it and...
All your days weren't daydreams
All your days won't be daydreams
All my dreams were just daydreams
All our dreams won't be daydreams
Dark Clouds on the Horizon
©2008-2009, F. Adrian
Saw a black cat cross my path today,
Dropped a mirror and broke it - bad luck on the way.
Future seems uncertain, dangerous, unclear -
I only know that trouble is going to end up here...
Omens and rumors, dark and obscure,
Feeling tense and worried, but I haven't got a cure.
Way that things are going, there can be no disguising...
Lately I've been seeing dark clouds on the horizon.
Walked under a ladder on the thirteenth floor
Things are getting dicey, I can't take it anymore.
Heart has started pounding, there's a catch in my breath,
I just don't know what's coming, and it scares me half to death.
Nothing but worry getting me down,
Trouble coming at me and there's lots to go around.
Immune to solutions that I'm trying to devise and
Lately I've been seeing dark clouds on the horizon.
You've got your problems, I've got mine
And we try to tell each other that things will work out fine.
Troubles come forever, they're always all around,
They come at you and knock your ass onto the cold hard ground.
You finally make your way back up, you're on your feet and then
You see another coming just to knock you down again.
There's no way to get ready and there's nothing you can do
You just stand up and take what fate is handing out to you.
Woman says she's going, leaving me today.
She'll be packing her bags, then be on her way.
Says she's found another, says she's found the one,
Taking all my loving, leaving me with none.
Says that it's over, tells me we're through,
She says she's had enough and there's nothing I can do
Tells me it's my fault and it shouldn't be surprising,
I guess they finally got here, those dark clouds on the horizon.
Perfect Day
©2009, F. Adrian
Dark skies and pouring rain,
Coffee won't make me awake
Stumbling from my bed, I'm dizzy -
Thinking that it must have been a terrible mistake.
But you're not here, so it must have happened -
It's been four days since you said goodbye.
I've tried to call, but there's been no answer
And now there's no way to deny
It's gonna be a perfect day
A perfect day to think about you
A perfect day to be alone
To sit and wonder why
Another fucking perfect day
To try to get by on my own
A motherfucking perfect day to cry
Shower, dress, still thinking of you
I get to work an hour late
The boss takes time to chew my ass, but
I do my best not to get irate.
I do my job while I daydream of you
I see your face on the long drive home
Pick up my dinner from a drive-through window
Watch it get cold as I sit alone.
It's just another perfect day
A perfect day of thinking 'bout you
A perfect day of being alone
Of sitting, wondering why
Another fucking perfect day
Of trying to get by on my own
A motherfucking perfect day to cry
You know the sad thing is I would
Take you back if you were here tonight
I'd do anything that I could
To get you back into my life.
I hate myself for being weak
And wallowing in misery,
When I really want to stand and shriek,
"Why the hell do I still want you here with me!?"
Crawl into bed, pull up the blankets,
Try to fall asleep and fail.
I know I want to have you back, but
I hope my good sense will prevail.
I'll think about the way you hurt me
And do my best to take the blow.
I guess I'll try hard to forget you,
But in the morning, I'll still know...
It's gonna be a perfect day
A perfect day to think about you
A perfect day to be alone
To sit and wonder why
Another fucking perfect day
To try to get by on my own
A motherfucking perfect day to cry
Fireflies
©2008-2009, F. Adrian
It's easy to get lonely, when you're on the road
And as you travel round from coast to coast
And you think about the many things you had to leave behind
But lightning storms and fireflies
Are things I miss the most.
Maybe it's because I'm just a sentimental fool
And maybe, then, I'll never know quite why
But I know that thinking 'bout them, usually makes me feel good
Those lightning storms and fireflies
Their memories get me by.
Crashing like God's hammer out of a dark and stormy sky
Flashing with a million watts of light.
But even that much energy can't fill my empty days
And help this lonely firefly get through his long dark nights.
It's funny how my thoughts keep getting jumbled in my head
And how I really need to think things through...
'Cause all the things I thought I missed, I don't really miss at all
It's not lightning storms and fireflies -
Baby, I miss you.
Cougar
©2009, F. Adrian
Courting a disaster, dancing on the edge
Bet that she can't cover, risk she cannot hedge
Staring in the headlights, betting on her luck again
She knows that she shouldn't she knows that it's bad
But I'm the best lover that she ever had
And you know she needs excitement to make her feel young again.
Loving me is a dangerous game
But just because she's married doesn't mean that she's tame
And my wild loving really drives her insane...
Meet her in the daytime so her husband won't catch on
Just a couple hours - I come and then I'm gone
And every time she sees me, she wants to see me that much more,
Her husband don't care 'bout her, he's always at his work
And you know she wouldn't see me, if he wasn't such a jerk
She used to think she hurt him, now she's just settling a score.
I won't always be there, I won't always be around,
But for now I keep her happy with the loving that she's found
And I know that when I'm there, she makes me happy, too.
She closes her front door after kissing me goodbye
I go back to playing, she goes to her other life
And I know that she'll be waiting for our next rendezvous.
The Angels Came
©2008-2009, F. Adrian
The heavens burst asunder and the skies filled with light
When the angels came
I was left standing stunned, blinded by the sight
When the angels came
At that very moment I knew
That everything they'd ever told me was true
And I had to believe, there was nothing else to do
When the angels came
The stars fell from the skies and the heavens rained fire
When the angels came
I was left standing naked, alone with my desires
When the angels came
It's funny in a moment how your life can change
There's nothing you can plan for, there's nothing to arrange
And it may sound crazy and it sure seemed strange
But the angels came
Sometimes it seems you're going to always be alone
And sometimes that gets sort of frightning
And I don't mean to argue, but I've been there before
And when love comes along, it will hit you like lightning
I was standing in the doorway when I first saw you
When the angels came
And I knew that very moment that my loneliness was through
When the angels came
And now you're here standing next to me
And I'm as happy as a man can be
And you're the only angel that I ever want to see
Yeah my angel came
Searching (for a Girl Like You)
©2008-2009, F. Adrian
Not too short and not too tall
Not afraid to trip and fall
Always sharp and on the ball
That's what I like
Not too young and not too old
Not too shy and not too bold
Never does quite what she's told
That's what I like
I've been searching for a girl like you
I've been looking for a girl like you
I've been dreaming of a girl like you
All my life
Hair not short, but not too long
Always right and never wrong
Listens to my stupid songs
That's what I like
Always smart and never dumb
Not too neat, but not a bum
Not too chaste so I get some
That's what I like
I have been searching forever
I have looked but then I never
Thought I'd have a girl to love me
All my life
Always nice and never mean
Never tries to make a scene
Always knows just what I mean
That's what I like
Always smiles and understands
Tells me I'm her loving man
Loves me for just what I am
That's what I like
I Can't Help Thinking
©2008-2009, F. Adrian
You're the one that ends my night
You turn my darkness into light
I can't help thinking I'm in love with you
You make me see right when I'm blind
When I'm lost it's always you I find
I can't help thinking I'm in love with you
You're the rudder on my boat
When I'm drowning, you keep me afloat
You pick me up when I'm going down
And I'm so happy that you are around
You're the coffee in my cup
When I'm empty you fill me up
I can't help thinking I'm in love with you
You're the apple of my eye
You're my bedtime lullabye
You're the rhythm of my heartbeat
You're the one that makes my life complete
You're the sugar in my tea
You're the very best part of me
I can't help thinking I'm in love with you