JULY

JULY

Wind - Akeboshi

“Don’t try to live so wise.

Don’t cry ’cause you’re so right.

Don’t dry with fakes or fears,

’Cause you will hate yourself in the end.”

July became a month of reckoning, marked by devastation and forced self-examination. Akeboshi’s *Wind* confronted the moment with quiet honesty, pushing reflection rather than anger. The song echoed the questions that dominated this period—what went right, what went wrong—and framed July as a pause where truth could no longer be avoided.

The sudden loss of a decade-long source of income, without explanation or closure, deepened the pain. More than the financial loss, the silence was destructive, turning self-reflection into self-blame without context. Acknowledging personal flaws felt necessary, but bearing responsibility without truth became an unbearable weight, reinforcing the violence of unanswered quiet.

*Wind* resonated because it revealed rather than dramatized suffering. Its warning against false strength and pretense mirrored the reality of giving too much—time, energy, and even family—out of passion and belief in reciprocity. Instead of return, there was a gradual, almost invisible push away, culminating in exhaustion, unhealthy work patterns, and eventual failure despite relentless effort.

July ultimately stripped away illusions. It exposed how silence can destroy, how unchecked generosity can lead to self-erasure, and how passion without boundaries can consume a person. While the song did not repair the damage, it carried away false narratives and left behind a hard but sustaining truth: as long as life remains, so does hope.