APRIL

APRIL

Million Reasons – Lady Gaga

“I bow down to pray,

I try to make the worst seem better.”

April unfolded as a month of quiet surrender and inner realignment. In the spirit of Lent—a season of repentance, renewal, and reflection—this song resonated not as a plea for others to ask me to stay, but as a personal conversation with faith. The lyrics echoed the internal struggle of weighing countless reasons to walk away against the hope of finding even one reason to remain grounded.

The line “I’ve got a hundred million reasons to walk away, but, baby I just need one good one to stay...Every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith...” reflected the tension of the month: exhaustion pulling in one direction, faith gently calling in another. The attempt to retrieve the signed letter of intent resurfaced, driven by the belief that reversing a decision might offer relief. Yet true clarity came not from action alone, but through the sacrament of confession—where perspective shifted, burdens lightened, and intentions were purified.

Through prayer and reconciliation, pessimism loosened its grip. April did not erase the struggles, but it reframed them. Renewal arrived quietly, aligned with Easter’s promise of new life. In surviving the weight of doubt and choosing reflection over escape, the month restored a refreshed sense of hope—one rooted not in certainty, but in the state of grace.