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[arachnidsGrip] - started direct messaging - [ectoBiologist] - at - ||4:13:19||
EB: why did you want to go into "DMs?"
AG: 8ecause something is very wrong, June.
AG: Something is very fucking wrong and I do not understand it.
EB: oh shit?
EB: what are you feeling? do you need help?
AG: I feel kinda shitty in all honesty.
AG: Like all of my past mistakes are coming 8ack from the dead and clawing at my legs.
AG: That's all I can really understand from it 8ut nothing else.
AG: This shit fucking sucks and I know I need help 8ut I can't even fucking 8other half of the time.
AG: What the hell would Marquise think of me like this?
AG: I'm completely misera8le.
AG: She'd consider me a fucijn failre nd
AG: I jstu can't
AG: I fucking h8 myself.
AG: I can't stand to even look myself in the mirror.
AG: It's not even a "I'm not pretty" or "My hair looks weird today" kind of thing.
AG: It's a fucking "God I want to kill you" moment.
EB: vriska.
AG: What.
EB: no keep going i jumped in at the wrong time sorry.
AG: No I want to hear what you were going to say.
EB: oh ok.
EB: well i dont really think youre that much of a failure.
EB: im not marquise obviously or whoever that is (i dont remember who they were to you im sorry).
EB: but id be really proud of you if i was this mysterious "marquise" person!
AG: You don't fucking know who she was, June.
AG: She is fucking amazing.
AG: She's my god damn idol.
AG: She'd think I'm a complete idiot for how I feel right now and tell me to just walk the plank.
EB: would she actually tell you to walk the plank or is that a metaphor for what i'm thinking it is.
AG: That's not the fucking point, June.
EB: i'm sorry! i just wanted to know if you weren't mentioning...
EB: ...you know.
AG: No don't apologize, it's my fault for lashing out at you for no reason at all.
AG: You don't deserve my 8ullshit, I'm sorry.
EB: no vriska you're fine!
EB: well not like
EB: fuck.
EB: vriska, there's no need to apologize. if you need to keep typing and get everything pent up out feel free to.
EB: i'd be happy to help you get through it even if it might not be the biggest help.
AG: ...
AG: You don't h8 me?
EB: well.
EB: not really.
AG: So kinda?
EB: well, you're kind of a bitch.
EB: but that's completely fine since i know that isn't you all of the time.
AG: 8ecause I don't want to 8e a 8itch around you. You don't deserve that.
AG: I don't want you to feel the same way I do.
EB: so you're a bitch most of the time except when we talk?
AG: Yyyyyyyyep.
AG: You and someone I used to know.
EB: oh.
EB: cool?
EB: i mean that's kind of weird but haha i get special treatment. >:)
EB: wait who?
EB: do we both know them?
AG: Yeah. Not anymore though. Haven't seen them in a while.
EB: oh.
EB: are you feeling any better?
AG: Kind of?
AG: I stopped crying like a minute ago.
EB: wait you were crying?
AG: No I never cry.
EB: sureeeeeeee.
AG: Nice.
AG: Thanks for trying to at least somewhat help, Egbert.
EB: you're welcome, serket!
AG: Ew never call me that again.
EB: will do.
AG: LOL
EB: we should probably head back to the memo though. dave invited me to talk to people, not help people lol.
AG: Yeah...
EB: before we go back, if i think of something cool that'd prolly cheer you up a bit would you do it?
AG: Wouldn't hurt to try I guess.
EB: great!
EB: okay, see you in the memo vriska!
AG: Sure thing, June.
[ectobiologist] - ceased direct messaging - [arachnidsGrip] - at - ||4:20:21||