stupor - suburbianism

I know how, you,, want me to,? you want, and, Too. and it feels like ...I've not written basically anything to Redeemed of myself,
Ah, exit Through - hit the mer. When do you want me there? And to set - the Whole world to Wait with me. Although I am self taught, it took the 

experience of over 3 years of Teaching. I was able to lift it with my upper set, (arms and hands,) body. I still to yet haven't
seen any resources or community about it. I don't know how to get my creation out. there? Drawing yourself as a disgusting monster, too, is shielding yourself from your looks.

           i dont know why but sometimes when i look at these i get these really vivid thoughts - I know you are scared. I know you are scared. I know you are scared of the fact that you can break. You can break. You can break in a way that no human can and you are scared. I know somewhere in you wants to look like that disgusting monster. Because then, in your mind, you have an excuse. You don't need to confront your own skin.

           There are structures of bricks.
           There are structures of bricks the size of planets reaching over your head with big blank walls the size of trains and intensely decorated flourishments the size of coins and crevices for nothing to hide in with sorts of reds and blues and grays and yellows and oranges and browns, unknowing, unforgiving megalyths. There are structures of bricks.
And it feels like I've redeemed myself.
And it feels like I've redeemed myself.
And it feels like I've gone out of my way to redeem myself.
And it feels like I've redeemed myself.
And it feels like I have redeemed myself.
And it feels like I have redeemed myself.
And it feels like I've redeemed myself, and something feels off.
And it feels like I've redeemed myself, and something feels strange about where I am.
And it feels like I've redeemed myself.
There, you don't even need to. There is a good
Fear eats people and then it turns into reason in their mind.

When it's hungry, fear can eat as many people as there ever are and if you taste good, to fear, fear will to prepare a meal for keep eating you. fear, first... get the pe and keep eating you person. And it feels like I've been. Who's out there. I know you're out there. I know you're out there. I know you are out there. I know you are out there. I can see that you are out there.

I just

I don't know

don't-
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I don't know.

I just hate it.

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I don't know how to explain it but like

I always feel hungry
But not in a way where I actually want to eat

It's like my body is just trying to get as much in as it can at all times

""
""- I just can't.

my stomach never feels good or full. it's like I'm constantly sick
And it forces me to always be looking for food. But I can never find it. I go back and forth looking through cupboards and the fridge, and

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And like, just to try and make myself less hungry I go find a bunch of candy or other junk food and I hate eating it. I hate the taste of candy. When it started I would go to the game room and dig through the leftover Halloween candies and take handfuls. I'd bring it back and eat it all at once to try and calm my stomach.

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No, I-
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"".

It hasn't stopped, though.

I hate it.

Don't-

I don't know.