Sharing With Your Peers
2/24/2018
Recently a new topic was touched on in one of my chats - can you be a, "Prophet in your own school?" One leader was saying no, others were saying yes. It was interesting. There are definitive arguments on both sides. Emotions that change the argument, and concerns that layer that emotion. On the one hand, we are in the business of sharing, all teachers should want to learn from each other, all educators should have the humility to have their ideas questioned. On the other hand, it's hard to present ideas you know will be questioned, concepts that are uncomfortable, thoughts that smack of criticism of the masses. There's a feeling of excitement, a desire to share these fantastic learnings with your friends and peers, contrasted with a frisson of nervousness as you already know of opinions and have heard the whispers ("She's one of the reasons we have a problem. If these kids would just learn about deadlines and consequences, we could get somewhere." "It all sounds great, but don't expect me to put in these extra hours."). Even though you KNOW that your staff is top notch, many are far better teachers than yourself, and most are actually supportive of what you do...it is always that handful of negatives that weigh on the mind.
Part of human nature, right? We don't listen to the positives nearly as much as we allow the negatives to impact our psyche. Ugh.
So, we were asked to put ourselves out there and volunteer to lead professional development sessions at our recent in-school PL day. I didn't really feel that I had a choice. The school had covered my registration fees for the Association of Middle Level Educators last fall, and part of the agreement was that I would present lessons learned at a faculty meeting or training. I already had an overview in mind to share, but this would be something different as it wasn't a 15 minute snippet of lessons learned, more a 45 minute opportunity to share specifics. Plus, it's good for me. I am a huge believer that putting together a training helps me in so many ways - I have to collect my thoughts, I have to ponder on what I'd planned to do compared to moments missed, I have to think about next steps, I have to challenge myself to put my actions where my intentions are.
Challenges
So, the first challenge was, what the heck was I going to talk about. No, not true. I knew what I wanted to talk about. How was I going to develop a conversation that shared so many of the shifts I have made that have been SO powerful, that was organized, to the point, linked in with my conference experience, and gave teachers takeaways for them to use in their classroom today.
The second challenge was, would I be able to find that motivation to prepare for something that I knew would have a small audience. Our teachers would have several options, my musings on how to shift things in our classrooms would probably not make the A list for many - there were so many more practical options to be had. Plus, when I read my own description, I wasn't too enthused myself! Lesson learned, sell yourself a little better!
Putting it Together
I set myself a goal. I determined that I would go back through my blog, read over my website, check back through my notes, and brainstorm what had really made a difference in my classroom this year. I looked at the basic premise of how relationships and 'every student' engagement made a difference - and the research and multiple expert voices who supported it. I came up with this list:
Shifting the balance of power in the classroom
Room #1113 not Mrs Bryson's room
Our whiteboard set up with kids creating the quotes and answering the questions each day
Postcards, emails, messages and use of private comments
Idea button, class council
Ways to help create retrieval techniques - notemaking instead of notetaking
Things/activities that have helped in Room #1113 to involve all in the space
From ways to summarize to sketchnoting
Feedback
Changes I've made in how I give feedback
And yes, I dared to touch on grades.
How it Went
I thought that no one was coming. That was hard. One teacher had texted me that she was going to be there, so I was hopeful, but this was one teacher who already did what I do and more, so that felt a bit awkward - would she think that I was telling her what to think....when she knew already? The class next door was filling up - and I mean teacher after teacher was entering and sitting. I had no one.
The positive to this situation was that I had reminded myself of plenty of things as I had put my presentation together. I had seen some missed opportunities and had realized that there were intentions that had not yet been fulfilled. The day's preparation had definitely NOT been a waste! The positives of creating the presentation were clear. But, I really didn't want to bomb quite that badly. I mean, let's be real here, it hurt. Maybe it shouldn't have, maybe it's silly, but this is MY reflection - and it bothered me!!
But then I was not alone. Perhaps not the vibrant crowd I'd hoped for, but definitely three of the teachers I would have chosen to have on my team! And of course, probably three of the teachers who I should have been listening TOO, not giving my advice and thoughts! But that's OK, I wasn't alone, and it meant that the discussion times that I had peppered throughout gave ME plenty to think about and chew on.
As a presenter I feed off my audience. It was hard with a small group, and I didn't feel that I did either my topic or my peers justice. They definitely didn't see the best of me, and I was conscious of missing some of my best points (tableau, anyone?) that I had planned to share. But I did it. They stayed. We shared.
Lessons Learned
A good reflection shows learning.
I heard that somewhere. My learning:
It's a LOT easier to present to the county.
Stay humble. To remember that my ideas excite me, but might not enthuse others - and that's OK!
Next time, don't think so pedagogically. Think more 'practica'l if I want folk to come. Think '10 activities that helps students summarize'. Be a bit more boilerplate and sneak in the snippets where you can.
Listen to my own message and keep shifting. It's what's right for kids - and that's all that matters!
You can be a prophet in your own school - but it's tough and you can't expect to be followed. It takes courage and determination. Don't lose focus of the main thing. People will find their way - and maybe your way will help them. Perhaps their way is better. Watch and learn.