ÍLLRA.

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ÍLLRA'S NAME:   it says so in the ‘basics’ section as well, but just to be clear, even though my muse’s name is íllra, your muse will never have heard of that name before nor associate him with it. unless plotted out and agreed with me beforehand, your muse will know him as lucius forrest, and they will think that he is just an ordinary human and psychiatrist. that said, if you are sending memes and such his way, specify it's for "íllra" because otherwise it's gonna get confusing, since i also write the actual lucius forrest as a muse who is a seperate person from íllra.  

CANON OC:   as this character is my own original character, but is technically canon as I have published the first novel in the book series he's in, there will be some parts of his biography that might not align with canon / future canon, in order to not spoil everything lmao, so take everything with a grain of salt i guess.

TRIGGER WARNINGS:   descriptive abuse, torture, manipulation, abuse of his position of power (aka his position as a psychiatrist), cults, possession, occult-y vibes, necromancy, violence, murder, horror... basically, íllra is a terrible, horrible person, so there's going to be lots and lots of potential triggers here, so if you're easily triggered by the mentioned topics, or even topics not mentioned here, i would proceed with caution as there might be a chance i've forgotten to mention some triggers.

biography.

íllra has lived for billions of billions of years, before the universe's existence. before the universe came to, he didn't really live per se, he more "existed", as the initial singularity which contained all energy and timespace of what would become the universe during the big bang (which is the point when íllra accidentally created the universe.) his actual life began after the universe was created, on a different world (the world of the gods). he was the first of the deities. the one who (albeit accidentally) created the universe and brought magic into it, to the other gods who had been created when the universe came to. in other words, the other gods whose life started at the beginning of the universe are in a sense a part of him, kind of like siblings, and the newer gods are still from his essence. none of the other gods know this, nor that he created the universe itself.

but the fact that he bestowed magic and immortality upon them and the fact that he was the oldest of them, naturally led to him being in a very high position in his world, as more and more deities came into existence. he was respected. his fellow gods often looked to him for guidance, for answers and for solutions in the beginning.

similar to earth’s progression, the gods' world developed through exploration, through progression and advancements. íllra, his brother íarle, his best friends frór and elli, as well as fælinn, várr, eyrir and some other gods were some of the first, all finding each other in the city of tivarhall during the early days, and deciding to explore the world together. they travelled north and discovered súnna, then they travelled south-east and discovered raudskogi, before travelling further in the same direction, discovering autridalr. then they travelled further south to discover suðri sólar, before taking to the seas further west, reaching the region that would later be called eyrrhæd, as eyrir claimed the land for himself. they travelled further south-west into the land, coming to a place that would be called blómbiǫð, then west to skýggdal where the ocean met them once more. instead of setting sail, they went north into a region that would come to be called snorás, then even further north a region that would be called hreggfell, before at last going back east and discovering thoka, before they headed back home to tivarhall again.

and for a while, their world developed and lived in peace, cities being built, some gods taking leadership over various regions, an economy being created, while a few brave gods explored the wildlands between the territories, where dangerous creatures roamed, trying to study them to learn about their habits, their usefulness, their weaknesses, their threats, etc. these places were called the outerlands.

however, the gods started to have more disagreements with each other as time went on, silly disputes turning to hatred, wars and fights for power and money and greedy desires. íllra would try to make alliances, to gather friends and acquaintances to fight for a common cause to bring people together and stop the reckless fighting among each other. several attempts were made. none worked. allies became corrupted. betrayed their own. good people died. íllra brought them back, unwittingly at the cost of pieces of his own soul that he could never get back, all the while unknowingly taking their souls as well. their death and resurrection had thus given them a new perspective. more and more friends turned their backs on him, abandoning the cause. a losing battle. their world falling into disarray. the strongest surviving, and the weakest left to fend for themselves. all the while, everyone using the powers he had granted them with, for destruction, or to further their own selfish needs rather than for good, like he had wanted them to...

seeing the state of their own world only getting worse for decades. centuries. spanning into several millennia. still getting worse and worse, it was hard not to lose hope. hope in people. in the world. in everything.

worse still, the humans on earth that prayed to them was utterly unaware of the darkness that had taken hold of the gods. íllra knew it was only a matter of time before the other gods would direct their focus onto new worlds. so he set out on his own to earth, in hopes of helping them prepare of what was to come, hoping that they would be stronger in spirit than the gods were, and not allow corruption to fester in their hearts so easily...

and for a while, it seemed the humans were more reasonable, and he spent some time enjoying his time on earth, providing a few friends he had made and come to trust with magic, and they convinced him to go back home and make one last attempt at saving his own people from themselves.

and so he returned to his world. and he tried... oh, he tried. but all to no avail. getting more angry, more frustrated as his hope began to unravel, íllra started to despise his fellow gods, and though he had promised himself never to do it, after his brother attempted to kill him, íllra snapped, and took away their powers, their immortality, and set their world on fire, quite literally, with his magic, the flames targeting any and all living creature that came in its way. and he left the burning and dying world behind, with only a tiny sliver of hope that the humans would prove to be better.

though alas, he would find that last shred of hope crushed as well. wars being fought on battle-hills, people taking advantage of the magic he had provided them with. the others who was unfortunate enough to have no powers to defend themselves with, praying to the very gods he had murdered while villainizing him for providing humans with "wretched" magic.

and that was the last straw.

for all his attempts, people seemed to be hellbent on destroying themselves and their worlds... and perhaps that was for the best, if this was the true nature of gods and men alike. corrupt, selfish, evil... so let’s help them speed up the process, shall we? let’s see the world eat itself up, why not?

though at some point, íllra realized that if he continued in the same way, that the humans’ rapidly growing fear of him was going to spiral out of control, which might lead to them trying to find a way to protect themselves against him or even stop him. and while he didn’t necessarily fear humans, he did know better than to underestimate them. and so, he decided to take action. he found a village that knew of his name and was fearful of him, and came across a teenage boy there, lucius forrest, who not only was not fearful like the rest, but were identical to íllra in his own childhood, as well as possessed powers beyond any human being. however, the boy didn't even seem to be aware of it himself.

realizing that lucius was his doppelgänger, íllra decided to take advantage of the situation. seeing an opportunity to take advantage of the village’s fear to direct their focus elsewhere, íllra made a deal with lucius, and manipulated the boy into carrying out his plan to have the villagers turn on themselves, getting rid of those who feared him, and leaving behind only those who worshiped him. he convinced lucius to spend his years growing up to become a trusted devoted in the village, pretending to be determined to get rid of íllra and anyone who had or was planning to make deals with him. while in reality, lucius would use the magic provided to him by íllra to frame others of using magic. soon, there was a mass hysteria in town. everyone was on the lookout for potential followers of íllra, and those suspected of showing intrigue for magic or the deity himself, was taken to lucius to steer them away from íllra’s path before it was too late. what they didn’t realize, of course, was that lucius would in secret be leading them further down it. those who had been accused of using magic, on the other hand, were put on trials, where lucius again would use his magic to frame them, making it appear as if they used their magic to try to save themselves, thus riling up the other villagers to kill them.

lucius would eventually start having doubts about íllra’s promises that this was the right thing to do, and, sensing lucius’ doubts, íllra immediately possessed him, having come too far in his plan to have lucius ruin it for him. after dealing with the village, íllra decided to keep using lucius’ body as his host, and even took on lucius’ identity. he decided to be a little more careful forwards, after his real name seemed to have finally disappeared from everyone’s lips.

with his true identity lost to history, new theories and speculations began to arise about what he was. anything from the devil, to loki, or the grim reaper, or evil incarnate, or death, or a demon... the list was endless. but none, of course, not even those who accurately guessed he was a deity, came close to the full truth... which was precisely how íllra wanted it to be. the more they thought he was something else, the further away from the truth they’d stay. over the centuries since then, íllra (now posing as lucius forrest,) has taken on many different roles to best fit his purpose as he's traveled across countries, seeking out people who can easily be manipulated into making deals with him as well as seeking out people with potential for evil to guide them further down that path, while otherwise keeping up appearances of being a normal, inconspicuous human. in modern times, he is now working as a psychiatrist and secretly leads a cult.

abilities.

connections.

universes.