JOHN WINCHESTER.

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important.

        my john winchester is  not  based on the show, but rather on the novel "john winchester's journal" by alex irvine, with my own headcanons. i will not acknowledge any mentions of my john being an abusive father. he is not perfect, but he has never laid a hand on his kids, nor been mentally abusive towards them, he has not sent dean away on some sort of behavioral correction thing, he has not told dean he might have to kill sam, etc, etc.        

biography.

john was born on january 8th, to henry and millie winchester. it was unknown to him that his father belonged to a secret society called the men of letters, as had his grandfather and his great-grandfather before him. henry bought john a little music box which played "as time goes by" from the film "casablanca" to help him sleep after he took him to see "abbott and costello meet the mummy" at the drive-in one night, which scared the "beeswax" out of him. when john was four years old, he went to the club, leaving john at home. however, due to the attack by abaddon, henry was forced to flee to 2013, where he died at the hands of abaddon. this led john to believe that his father had abandoned him.

raised by his mother, john left to fight in vietnam as a marine, and held the rank of corporal. he later returned to lawrence, where he worked as a mechanic and eventually fell in love with a woman named mary campbell. john intended to propose to mary, but later when mary ran away from her family, john was killed by a demon named azazel, as the demon was possessing mary's father, samuel, prompting mary to strike a deal with the demon to bring john back to life at the cost of allowing it into her home ten years later. in january, 1979, john and mary had their first child, dean, and in may, 1983, they had their second child, sam.

november 2nd, 1983. john winchester had fallen asleep in front of the tv, while watching horror movies, when he was woken up by his wife’s scream coming from upstairs. running up and into sam’s room, everything seemed quiet. fine. just for a moment. but then, blood dripped down on him. and looking up, there was mary, on the ceiling, bleeding from her stomach. and immediately after, she caught on fire - a fire that leapt at him when he tried to get closer, as if it had a will of it’s own.

grabbing baby sam, and hurrying to get dean, john gave his youngest son to dean and told him to get his brother outside as fast as he could, while john tried one more time to get to mary - but to no avail.

their house gone. their belongings gone. his wife, the mother to his kids, gone, john’s boss allowed him and his kids to stay at their house until things got sorted, and he spent the next week being questioned by the police, until they eventually ruled him out as a suspect, and closed the case as an accident. something that john refused to believe it was — because how could his wife have been on the ceiling? how could the fire have a will of it’s own, if it was just an accident? — and rightly so.

john tried to tell the police what he thought had happened. that there was someone, or rather something that had caused the fire. but the police wanted a tidy answer. john tried telling his boss about it, and not long after, his boss’ wife suggested he go see a shrink. john tried telling his friends, and he could tell by their looks that they thought he was going insane.

during this time, john found himself drinking too much, filled with guilt over having left bed that night, over not being able to protect mary. filled with sorrow and grief. with confusion over his wife’s unnatural death. with anger at whatever had killed her. with despair at no one, not even his friends, believing him. with frustration at the police ignoring the evidence. with anxiety about whatever had killed mary might still be a threat to his boys.

it wasn’t until his boss told him to get it together for his kids sake about two weeks after mary’s death, that john stopped drinking. though his boss seemed more concerned about the garage than john’s kids. so john told him he could have it, and walked out with a check. dropping his kids off at one of his friends, julie, for a bit, john drove to buy guns and ammo for protection in case whatever had killed mary decided to come back, and then went to see a psychic woman named missouri. there, he made a blood sacrifice by pulling out his own nail, and she had a vision and they found a bloody mess in the neighbor’s house with the words ‘we’re coming for the children’ written in blood. terrified, he hurried back to sam and dean, luckily finding them alive, although his friend, julie, was dead. torn apart by something, a tooth found in her body. he took his sons and left lawrence.

about three weeks after his wife’s death, john had been introduced to a man simply called ‘h’, a hunter of the supernatural, and had come along to learn the ropes, so to speak. disapproving of h’s methods and philosophy that made h seem both cold and heartless, john only tagged along because despite disagreeing with him, he seemed to know his stuff about hunting, and john wanted to learn — though promising himself to never become like him. with a heavy heart, john left his sons with pam and bill ( friends of john ) for a week while he and h went hunting, though as they finally arrived, a hellhound came to h like a trained dog and h told john that he hadn’t killed mary, but set the hellhound on him anyway, and said that he knew some of the players involved. john killed the hound, and h said everything he’d done was to get john to hunt, and that he wasn’t h, but something else in a hunter’s body. john killed h, and decided that he’d damn well hunt, and find whatever had killed mary.

back with sam and dean again, john decided they would stay and bill and ellen’s roadhouse, in which he spent a lot of time reading up on strange fires and similar incidents to his own, trying to get as much information he could about whatever had killed his wife, and asking hunters about what they know, while simultaneously watching over sam and dean.

1985. john put dean into first grade at age 6 and a half. over the next one and a half year, john began briefly teaching dean about the existence of supernatural creatures and how to fire a gun.

may, 1987. john had to pull dean out of school after learning that a demon knew where they were, and decided they would get on the road and move to a different state.

may, 1988. john made a poor decision of leaving a nine-year-old dean to watch sam while he went out, that almost went horribly wrong when a monster came while john was out and dean couldn’t pull the trigger. john showed up just in time to shoot the monster.

over the next two and a half years ( give or take,) they were on the road a lot, and john started hunting more, this time always making sure to leave his boys with someone to look after them while he was out. they then settled in albuquerque around feb, 1991, john picked up a job working construction. trying to get some normalcy back in their lives again.

april, 1991. sam was almost kidnapped by a demon posing as his teacher. john caught up with her, and she almost killed him, but dean, having followed him, picked up his journal and read the exorcism pages and saved sam and john both. before the demon was exorcised, she had said that sam was special. back on the road again. driving to a fellow hunter named bobby.

john went to see another friend of bobby’s, silas, and it turned out he had been in a coma since november 2nd last year, on the seventh anniversary of mary’s death. when john went to see him, he snapped out of his coma long enough to tell john that he believed sam was special and that they had to be ready for what was to come.

the day after, sam told them that he’d seen the same man that had been following them before, outside of bobby’s house. once they got back to bobby’s place, bobby told john to go see silas again, which john did, and it turned out he was no longer in a coma. he said the same thing as the day before, then asked to talk to sam for a bit. so dean and john left for an hour. and upon their return, john found silas inside, in pieces, bits of him stuck to the walls and floors, and in blood, written ‘kill him’. john once more found himself taking his kids with him and going on the run, staying on the road over the next three and a half years. the man that had been following them claimed he was a hunter and that sam had killed silas. john tried to tell him it wasn’t possible for a little kid to do that, but he wouldn’t listen. and so, before the hunter could try to hurt sam, john killed him.

jan, 1995, the day after dean’s sixteenth birthday, john let dean take the lead on a hunt for the first time. it went well. as sam is getting older, he and john is starting to get trouble with a lot of arguing between the two, sam wishing for a normal life, and john unable to provide that for him, knowing just how many times monsters has been after him, apparently because he’s ‘special’ somehow.

jan, 1996. dean’s seventeenth birthday. john let him go on a hunt alone. it went fine, but john felt uneasy and doubted he’d send dean on his own again anytime soon.

march, 2002. sam decided he would leave for college, which ended up creating a heated argument between him and john and dean. in august, sam left for college, like he had decided on, and dean cut off contact with his brother. john told sam that if he left, it would be permanent. but despite this, john continued to keep an eye on sam from afar to make sure he was safe. may, 2004. john finally got a lead on what killed mary; a demon. at this point, john also starts tracking down a gun that can kill anything. jul, 2005. a big lead. house fires in california, new jersey, arizona. matching the same details as the night mary died. six of them within a couple of days. oct, 2005. john finally got the lead on the demon that made him go after him. he didn’t tell sam or dean, not wanting to put them in danger.

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