June 6, 2023 - My actions towards someone I went to school with caused me to spiral even though it wasn't a big big deal.

I attempted suicide September the same year.

April 2024 - Burned more bridges while not in my right mind. It would take years for me to recover from the guilt and shame from that. Felt it was necessary to leave where I was working. Did find another place to work very quickly. Left that job due to some stuff among the staff and to go to Bible college.

Early-Mid 2026 - I start healing from my guilt and shame caused by what happened in April 2024.

March 2026 - I start a new position at the Burlington Mission Thrift Store. My friends there have helped me continue to heal, mature, and improve.

April 2026 - I get baptized.

God is still writing my story. I'm still learning, growing, and healing. He's not done with me.

If you're considering taking your life, please know that this difficult season isn't the end of the road for you. It may seem like there is absolutely no way that you could possibly get out of this. I've been there. I couldn't see light at the end of the tunnel. I was desperate to stop feeling guilt and shame. It's going to be a long battle. I'm still fighting - over 3 years. It's not going to be easy and likely not fast. It will be worth it. Turn to God. He'll hear your cries.