I want to feel your hands to know that I'm real. I want to feel something that pushes it all away for a second. I want to get lost in you. I want to explode. I want to forget that anything else exists. I want to be alive again by hunting something, someone. I want to be entirely primal. I want every piece of me to be seen. I want to blur the lines between affection and aggression. I want to be good for something. I want to prove my maturity by doing something no child can do.