I am choking on the

Ambience of the dull day as

It wraps its arms around my torso

The wind portends of something to come

Horrible, maybe, joyful, maybe

The unknowns of life seep into me

The sacred act of sleeping and eating

The regret before anything has been

Done worth regretting

Standing in the fen as my boots

Sink into the mud, I catch

One last glimpse of the willow tree

I cannot move in my shell

I pound my fists against the walls of

Myself, but I will not budge

The timbre of familiar voices on the edge of my hearing

It is amusing, it is a distraction

I am grasping desperately