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Apple: "I was so self-critical. I still am, but it's not as bad anymore."
Apple: "When you're surrounded by all these people, it can be even lonelier than when you're by yourself. You can be in a huge crowd, but if you don't feel like you can trust anybody or talk to anybody, you feel like you're really alone."
Apple: "The only reason that it takes me seven years to do stuff is because I just don't really have a plan."
Apple: "This world is bullshit. And you shouldn't model your life — wait a second — you shouldn't model your life about what you think that we think is cool and what we're wearing and what we're saying and everything. Go with yourself."
Apple: "If I respect myself and believe in what I'm doing, no one can touch me."
Apple: "I feel like I'm 100 years old. I can't tell you what I did today. I can't tell you what I did for seven years. I can't tell you. It happens so seamlessly - I'm just floating along and seven years go by."
Apple: "The way I feel about music is that there is no right and wrong. Only true and false."
Apple: "I got into therapy in the fifth grade because I said in a sarcastic way that I was going to kill myself, and they didn't get it then. Nothing's changed."
Apple: "I don't care what people do. I don't care how people remember my albums. I do them for my own reasons."
Apple: "The worst pain in the world is shame. I spend a lot of time trying to not do anything bad to anyone, but you can't live your life and not hurt people."
Apple: "I resent limitations. I'm going to be this way for a while."
Apple: "Life is all about the friendship and the love and the music. It sounds silly, but it is. I want to have that experience as much as I can as an adult, not as a kid doing something that people are telling her she has to do. If anyone gets in my way, I'm going to get them out of my way."
Apple: "I can't remember writing any of the songs that I've written."
Apple: "But I honestly don't read critics. My dad reads absolutely everything ever written about me. He calls me up to read ecstatic reviews, but I always insist that I can't hear them. If you give value to the good reviews, you have to give value to the criticism."
Apple: "I never went to concerts when I was a kid, so I never knew if what I was doing onstage was right."
Apple: "I just tend to do things to myself that I don't realize I'm doing. Sometimes I bite my lip so that it splits and hurts, and yet I can't stop. And sometimes I'd play shows on the last run, I'd scratch my neck while I was singing, and I'd horrified to see these red streaks of blood after."
Apple: "You can live your whole life in your brain and not experience what's around you. You go crazy that way."
Apple: "I don't go on lunch dates with friends. I hear about people having dinner parties, but I never do that. I'm not really human."
Apple: "I don't want to give any advice to a 19-year-old, because I want a 19-year-old to make mistakes and learn from them. Make mistakes, make mistakes, make mistakes. Just make sure they're your mistakes."
Apple: "Five years from now I'm probably going to look back on the things I'm doing and cringe."
Apple: "You know, I've always thought that it would be really funny if somebody made a romantic comedy where absolutely everything went well from beginning to end."
Apple: "I really don't think anything I do is a mistake. It could be if I didn't learn from it."
Apple: "I'm such an incredibly, stupidly sensitive person that everything that happens to me, I experience it really intensely. I feel everything very deeply. And when you feel things deeply and you think about things a lot and you think about how you feel, you learn a lot about yourself. And when you know yourself, you know life."
Apple: "Nothing that you do will ever feel good if you let people convince you that you have no choice."
Apple: "Sometimes interviews are fun and good conversations, but stuff like photo shoots and appearances at places where you have to meet a lot of people - I was never really made for this kind of stuff."
Apple: "I don't think what I look like is relevant."
Apple: "Everybody sees me as this sullen and insecure little thing. Those are just the sides of me that I feel it's necessary to show because no one else seems to be showing them."
Apple: "My whole life, people have been saying, 'Why are you so angry?'"
Apple: "I got all my work done to graduate in two months and then they were like, I'm sorry, you have to take driver's ed. I just kind of went, Oh, forget it."
Apple: "When you feel things deeply and you think about things a lot and you think about how you feel, you learn a lot about yourself."
Apple: "I can bake. I made myself some nice French fries once. But otherwise I just eat out. Lots of salad bars."
Apple: "It pisses me off to think we're conditioned to push away bad feelings and think anything that's uncomfortable is to be avoided. When things are really bad nowadays, I recognize the value in it because it's me filling my quota- it's going to make my joy more intense later."
Apple: "Because for whatever reason, even though I want to stay home all the time and be left alone, I want to tell the world who I am now."
Apple: "Everybody sees me as this sullen and insecure little thing. Those are just the sides of me that I feel it's necessary to show because no one else seems to be showing them."
Apple: "I don't know if anybody wants to mix their politics with their entertainment."
Apple: "When I was a kid--10, 11, 12, 13--the thing I wanted most in the world was a best friend. I wanted to be important to people; to have people that understood me. I wanted to just be close to somebody. And back then, a thought would go through my head almost constantly: 'There's never gonna be a room someplace where there's a group of people sitting around, having fun, hanging out, where one of them goes, 'You know what would be great? We should call Fiona. Yeah, that would be good.' That'll never happen. There's nothing interesting about me.' I just felt like I was a sad little boring thing."
Apple: "Men are my bread and butter. It's what I live for! I have no shame about that."
Apple: "I'm incredibly impressed by people who organize to achieve a goal, and believe that they can make a difference and then go ahead and do just that. I think it's incredible."
Apple: "I know what my job is: I write the songs, I sing them, I play them on the piano."
[TW: quote mentions a traumatic experience]
Apple: "My problem was that I felt ashamed of feeling sad or angry. Now, I don't hide my vulnerability in my lyrics. There's no way I was going to get raped and not get something out of it. I learned about power and hope and forgiveness. I like who I am now and I wouldn't be who I am if that hadn't happened."
Apple: "I don't have a big thing about leaving my mark or being historic."