Ethel Cain
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Demographics
Gender Transgender Female
Legal Name Hayden Silas Anhedönia
Birthplace Tallahassee, Florida, U.S.
Birth Date March 24, 1998
Ethnicity Northwestern European
Overview English, likely other European
Nationality American
Career Singer, songwriter, musician, producer, model
Color Season Soft Autumn
Notes and Motifs
Reviser creative
Inspired by Christian music and Gregorian chant, with lyrics focused on nostalgic and Southern Gothic themes, her music has been associated with the ambient, indie rock, and folk genres
LGBT
Diagnosed with Autism
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Cain: "I get so caught up in the fantasy and the fun of making a story that I forget that there are real-world reasons that I do what I do."
Cain: "I’m used to being alone in a quiet, isolated environment – I’m kind of a low-energy, low-vibration, low-stamina person to begin with – so let’s just say I’m very out of shape"
Cain: "I kind of just sat in a room for six years making music, and then suddenly I was on the road all the time."
Cain: "I just sit in my cave all day and write or embroider, watch a movie, play a game. My friends and I will go to the woods or a river, anywhere there’s not a lot of people."
Cain: "I’m trying to push my own envelope a bit. I’m trying to be super intentional about it and careful and dedicated and meticulous."
Cain: "I remember just lots of time outdoors. I remember there was a very specific way that it feels to listen to a streetlight hum — those old, I guess fluorescent ones — and the way that they look glowing through the leaves of an oak tree.… I remember the way it felt to stand in a dank shed and smell that powdery dirt that’s in Florida. Just the way that it felt to be a child and try to make sense of things."
Cain: "I don’t want to have all of my personal business and every innermost thought just out there on the internet for the world to see."
Cain: "I wanted to not be known as a trans artist, I think, not because I didn’t want people to know I was trans, or because I didn’t want to be proud of that fact, but.… It has shaped the way that I am in certain ways, but it’s not everything."
Cain: "If I had to describe it in a silly way, I would say there’s three people living in my body."
Cain: "There’s a punk-ass 16-year-old boy who lives with his grandma, the grandma that he lives with, and then the demon that lives in their basement."
Cain: "I almost resent touring sometimes. I’m like, ‘Let me go home. I need to sink into my hole.’ Let it come to me, and then create."
Cain: "Maybe someday, if I can figure out a way that I can perform that is better for me, but the standard setup of, ‘Go out, be in front of a bunch of people’ — I don’t like to be in front of a bunch of people. I don’t like to be the center of attention 100 percent."
Cain: "When you are trans, you are living a very specific experience that not many other people in the world have."
Cain: "It’s so hard when you try to represent the South because there’s so much just straight-up depravity and kind of human insanity, but there’s also really beautiful parts."
Cain: "I had crushes on girls, I had crushes on boys, and I didn’t even really know what that meant."
Cain: "You’ll get up at 9 a.m. to start working, and then you’re like, ‘Oh, what time is it?’ It’s 4 a.m. the next day, but it’s fun — and insane and frustrating, and it makes me want to rip my hair out."
Cain: "I don’t like performing."
Cain: "I was literally going to the hospital because I was malnourished, and I was passing out all the time. My landlord was sending me angry texts every day because I was behind on rent. I was like, ‘I need money,’ and I signed."
Cain: "I work very slow. That’s how I like it."