NOVEMBER 2021
i don’t know why the rain feels so strangely relieving
i don’t know if it means that this feeling is leaving
i’ve been watching the seasons change
hoping that we’re just the same
but i know we’ll be strangers the next time we meet
oh i know letting go is the right thing to do
it just hurts to be loved and to love you like this
i’m still falling for the man that left
it hurts but i won’t let it rest
it’s the pain of missing you when the love is still there
hey there stranger
i’m still in love with you
i miss the way you’d always tease me
and i couldn’t help but smile
remember the way you looked at me
even when we said goodbye
i just hope one day we won’t be strangers to one another
now i know why the rain feels so strangely relieving
it’s the hope and the pain that are slowly leaving
this is where we part i wish you love
and happiness above it all
but just so you know
you’ll always have a place in my heart
hey there stranger
i’m still in love with you
strangers in love
OCTOBER 2020
i’ve never felt this feeling deep inside my heart
who knew i’d be chasing you
down the stairs on a sunday night
i don’t know what was going through my mind
yet i followed my heart
and look at where we are now
i’ve never felt so sure about one person in my life
when i met you there was something about you that never left my mind
it was your perfect smile, your sweet soft voice,
your electric touch and the passion i saw in your eyes
i never knew there was someone like you out there
oh, you stole my heart
time is suspended when we’re together
you make me feel so alive
i’ve never felt this feeling
deep inside my heart
who knew i’d fall in love with you
when you’re miles and miles away
i couldn’t help but stay on the phone all night
till the sun came up
and i fell in love with you
JULY 2022
the last time i saw you
i was on a train to the airport
i was going back to london
and that was the day our love died
the last time i saw you
you said something felt different
there was nothing i could do
except swallow my pride
i wanted to stay
take your hand
and say i love you
but this time it was different
i don’t know how it left so soon
the sun set and it’s noon
i still see the fading orange hue
but to you it’s dark blue
you fell out of love
without me
you fell out of love
the last time i saw you
something felt different
was it pain was it relief
i don’t know what to believe
did i really want to stay
take your hand
and say i love you?
i ignored all the signs
i don’t know how it left so soon
the sun set and it’s noon
i still see the fading orange hue
but to you it’s dark blue
you fell out of love
without me
there’s nothing romantic
about selling your soul to someone
who doesn’t love you anymore
one foot out the door
your heart’s on the floor
when they fall out of love
let go
the last time i saw you
something was different
MAY 2022
tattoo my soul
then i’ll be whole
the lights are flickering
and we’re bickering
you lay on my sheets
and my heart skips a beat
we are intertwined
but please don’t be mine
follow my ghost
she’ll lead you to the door
it’s time for you to leave
it’s not you it’s me
i look at my reflection and it’s you
i don’t know what to do
i’ve lost myself in everyone around me
who am i supposed to be
it’s time for me to leave
and find what i’ve been looking for
and tattoo my soul
tattoo my soul
then i’ll be whole
the pages are flipping
and we’re slipping away
AUGUST 2022
lately you’ve been driving through red lights
and you’ve left everything behind you
oh you’re slipping into this trance
where nothing can define you
so breathe
let it go
don’t let the past haunt you
can’t you see
you’ve got so much to live for
that you’re driving past
lately you’ve been wondering where they’ve gone
as you lay here in silence
in the morning as it dawns on you
you realize you don’t need their guidance
so breathe
let it go
don’t let the past haunt you
can’t you see
you’re driving the wrong way
on a one way street
DECEMBER 2022
give me a sign if i should know
give me a reason i should let you go
cuz i’m holding on to this love
cuz i’m holding on to you, love
i miss you
i miss you
staring at the water at my reflection
i can see the tears i've shed
and i hear the words i've bled
holding on so tightly to this moment
i can paint it in my mind
and relive it if you don't mind
cuz i'm holding on to this love
cuz i'm holding on to you love
i miss you
i miss you
NOVEMBER 2022
on the rooftop
we stare at the stars
in the moonlight
i hold you in my arms
the nostalgia surrounds me
in the bittersweet winter air
but you’re not here and
there’s no way we could be
on the rooftop
i look in your eyes
and i tell you
i love you for the lies
that you tell me
to let me go on my way
but i don’t want to leave you
when our love remains
holding onto this mess
i have bled i confess
so it’s time to let you go
although i love you so
on the rooftop
i listen to the wind
and it tells me
there’s no way we could win
this whole battle against us
though we’re on the same side
oh but trust me
we’re lying softly now
SEPTEMBER 2022
the sun kisses my neck
the wind brushes my skin
as i close my eyes
the feeling settles in
the words left unsaid
the air smells like autumn
not the change we thought of
the birds fly away
as i’m stuck in this cage
and time passes by without me
the words that i bled
the hum of your voice
the silence it surrounds
the leaves drift down
without a sound
as i stare up at the clouds
the words slipped away
who am i?
a leaf in the wind
a hair on your sheets
i don’t understand
how to move on and find myself
so here as we part
you’ll never leave my heart
we’re just two lost birds
flying out of this cage
learning to let go
and find ourselves
the sun holds my hand
the wind whispers your name
as i fall asleep
the feeling settles in
the words left unsaid
FEBRUARY 2023
driving home on 84
tears streaming down my face to the floor
the music captures memories
so i’m choking on the melodies
holding on with both hands
i’m in cruise control
but i’ve lost control
the words flow onto the page
the words i thought i’d never say
i filled all the lines with love
closed the book and now i’m dreaming of
walking through the pages
going back through the ages
oh the bittersweet nostalgia lies here
driving home on 84
i don’t know what i’m looking for
the sunlight flickers through the trees
and my thoughts slip into the breeze
the bittersweet nostalgia lies here <3