Valeria Latorre's Theory of Openness

I feel safe

when

I do not feel alone

but

not alone

with my true feelings

when I

when I express myself

and see

see that I am alone

when

none shares my thoughts

or

one denies my thoughts

when one denies

things I believe to be true

I feel scared

I feel scared

when there is this kind of

denial

no willingness to understand

each other

and safety

safety is only related to people

in my life

but sometimes people make me feel scared

*

I do not think

I have ever been in the situation

when I was truly alone

forced to face

a dangerous

environment

I have never been isolated

in one place

with no contacts

thinking

there is no one that could help me

that would probably be a

different

feeling of safety

that would probably be

when I would discover

what it truly means

to feel safe

what my strategies are

but for now -

I do not feel safe

*

I am safe if I protect myself

from things

that hurt me

that make me

feel alone

and

not understood

not listened to

so

I find

I protect myself

I turn to my world

it gives me comfort

my world

inspired

by my mind

my world

developing

since I was a child

I was turning inwards

now

safety is still

my world

but

inspired

by the others

other people who went

inwards

and found their comfort

nurturing

their worlds

like me

so

there is a connection

even if it is

just

an audio

or

a video

or

a book

I feel safe

so

it means

I feel safe

when

I feel understood

when

I feel a connection with people

and

their truth

is

very close

to

my truth

when

there is a desire

for

understanding

and

opening up

and acceptance

but

true acceptance

and

true comprehension

of

what the other person

feels

the openness

makes me feel safe

but

when people are

closing themselves off

I do not feel safe

I feel

scared

and

angry

so

when I am scared

I am

angry

not

all the time

but

most of the time

*

so

going back to

when

I was a child

feeling of safety

I felt safe

because

I was free

to

dive into

my world

I did not have to please

anyone

I was free

before school

before I was forced

to

do

things

but

my inner world

it has never

left me

it is always

here

when I was a child

I remember

everyone was going out

and I

was going in

I could stay in

and

I was the happiest

I could ever be

and

I felt safe

*

I feel safe

when

I feel really confident

in being me

being myself

completely

because

I am

an insecure person

but

I turned insecure

just

when

I was outside

of

my inner world

because

I was

misunderstood

outside of

my inner world

I remember

not being

an insecure child

before rejections

and

before

not being

understood

by

the outside

so

I want to

say

I felt safe

when

I could express myself

and

I started to fell

insecure

when I met with rejection

when I was not understood

at all

by

the outside

and

then

this

turned to anger

because

when you do not understand -

it takes time

to understand

that each one of us is just trying their best

and we have different experience

but

in my world

I could not be understood

and I could not understand

so

it was both sides

I could not understand

others’ worlds

*

this feeling

insecure

in time it became a block to my abilities

and now

to unblock

my abilities

I really have to focus

and

the moments

when

I feel really focused

are few

when I was a child

there were no blocks at all

but now -

I feel

these blocks

and unblocks

and

it is much more difficult

to

get liberated

again

and

go back to

unblocked

and

child-like mind

it is

very

difficult

but

this is what I am trying to do

because

this is

the only way

to

feel safe

and

when it happens

I feel safe

and I do not need

anyone

I do not need to lean

on anyone

so

that block

of the mind

is

what makes me feel unsafe

in any situation

and the mind

unblocked

makes me feel safe

and

this is the most

beautiful feeling

when you are free

to be yourself

and your mind is

completely unblocked