Childhood Friend

""Hey! SO my childhood best friend and I had many romantic interactions and gestures early last year continuing to the time of quarantine. Like we held hands, he bought me my favorite food, we will hug for longer than we usually do. These are things friends do for friends, but I feel attracted to him because usually we just bully each other and laugh together, but now we're really nice to each other and caring in ways that people who date would. I don't want to blow his actions out of proportion and scare him away. We never really talked about these things, we just do them and then act mean again. It's like an off and on like a switch. It's driving me crazy because now I rarely see him or talk to him anymore because of Covid. And I miss him even more. I read all these articles that be like 10 signs to know if he likes you, etc. and took some seventeen quizzes, but virtually got nowhere. Help!!!!""