It has become clear that the doctor prescribed medication which caused intense hallucination for 2 external months and nobody picked up on it. The delusion fit reality so well that nobody knew I was full-on-hallucinating.
My family were labelled hysterical despite being the only ones who knew, apart from my internal meditator who kept notes. I was not in control, but I appeared to be. I think this is what happened to Mikhail and the others.
It was 3 subjective years of physical torture while everyone outside says I am losing my mind, and inside I actually am. All because of a med mismatch. A med labeled 'no abuse profile' but which is far more addictive than cocaine.
I was being invited to ascend at the end and needed my wife to observe as they opened schroedinger's box. If she hadn't, I am sure I would have killed myself.
All because I went to the doctor and the system is broken.
I could have killed myself or my family.
Because I went to a psychiatrist.
As requested.
I was successfully self-medicating with THC-analogs until the recent round of bans made that untenable. The new drugs are NOT THC DERIVED and are more like meth. Hundred of thousands of people are using them to self medicate too.
The only solution I see is rapid legalisation of the natural plant. A joint and a chat would really help me right now. No fucking way am I putting any pharmaceuticals in there again.
I knew this was happening which it why I recorded it all......... I made myself into the experiment so that I would survive.