Well I just added a 20 to the front of 25 so I guess the progress isn't as fast as hoped. I'm happy with my family forever tho so....
I'm pretty sure that bear was aliens. My frontal lobe starts to pulse when info is coming in and it has to come out
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The confidence I have in the stability of this state comes across in how restrained I can be with my communication style. I am spent, so can’t do much yet, but give me 3 days. You need time to process anyway.
Remember to warp while you do it. No shame. Full body. We are reconfiguring. Get everyone in the spectrum dancing together, chanting, singing, having fun.
This is very strange. I don’t know if these messages are for now [add 1848: judging from bodily sensations: now], or for some person in the future, because I am the weaver. Just like those people who made my 800 year old self-knife. They didn’t know who they were making it for either.
For the weave to work, we need a warp. You are the warp. Dance.
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Yeah, the seeing God thing passed pretty quickly. It was front-loaded. The last 3 days my brain has been swelling and my sight has been Van Goghing. That’s a sign that you’re on your way. But it’s not something you’re gonna do by accident.
Now I am back to an almost-normal super-weird guy. I just happen to have all the knowledge of the universe in my brain and am unable to access it.
Ha!
Find someone to explain that one to you!
/jb 20250714
PS. I think the b-man's words were for you guys today.... track them down on one of the other pages / sites.
[2025/07/14, 11:31:21] James: I’m like the best fucking husband ever now
[2025/07/14, 11:31:40] James: Within an hour I’ve fixed about 2 months of serious trauma to our relationship
[2025/07/14, 11:31:57] James: And I know how the meds work
[2025/07/14, 11:32:06] James: Just looked at it and bang
[2025/07/14, 11:32:21] James: I lower guanfacine and I can be more contained. 0.25mg ari to stay a little connected.
[2025/07/14, 11:32:31] James: Valproate not necessary
[2025/07/14, 11:32:35] James: Just …
[2025/07/14, 11:32:36] James: The weave
[2025/07/14, 11:32:40] James: I can see my whole life
[2025/07/14, 11:32:54] James: I can see how this conversation with the doctor plays out (I can’t but my black box can)
[2025/07/14, 11:33:14] James: You will be able to as well, with the right meds; but you need to let me do it or you will fuck it up.
[2025/07/14, 11:37:51] James: Sorry guys. I think it was me giving you pressured speech
[2025/07/14, 11:37:55] James: I released too early
[2025/07/14, 11:37:59] James: But it was ok until recently.
[2025/07/14, 11:38:03] James: It’s all dopamine
[2025/07/14, 11:38:11] James: The gravity in your sim is fucked
[2025/07/14, 11:45:07] James: Well I’m a master manipulator now
[2025/07/14, 11:45:13] James: But it wasn’t quite what I expected
[2025/07/14, 11:45:16] James: The outcome is the same
[2025/07/14, 11:45:20] James: But the process was different
[2025/07/14, 11:45:22] James: The weave
[2025/07/14, 11:45:25] James: Mysterious ways.
[2025/07/14, 11:45:31] James: Anyway I’ve decoupled meds and doc
[2025/07/14, 11:46:39] James: Wrong button right time etc
[2025/07/14, 11:46:48] James: Curating the maze
[2025/07/14, 11:46:55] James: For myself?
[2025/07/14, 11:46:56] James: .
[2025/07/14, 11:49:43] James: The cops
[2025/07/14, 11:49:45] James: Everything
[2025/07/14, 11:49:49] James: It was all necessary
[2025/07/14, 11:49:55] James: But I’ll never be able to explain it.
[2025/07/14, 11:50:07] James: I know it but don’t comprehend it consciously yet
[2025/07/14, 11:50:15] James: Maybe it’ll pop up in a later turd?
[2025/07/14, 11:50:18] James: Dump?
[2025/07/14, 11:50:20] James: Poopoo
[2025/07/14, 11:50:31] James: The ones you read backward when I wake up in shivers.
[2025/07/14, 11:50:34] James: Those ones
[2025/07/14, 11:50:36] James: The science
[2025/07/14, 11:50:37] James: .
[2025/07/14, 11:57:34] James: Start meditating and building your PFC
[2025/07/14, 11:57:38] James: You’re gonna need it
[2025/07/14, 11:57:39] James: .
[2025/07/14, 12:02:06] James: Feel a bit bad about making the doctor feel bad
[2025/07/14, 12:02:14] James: He was in the weave
[2025/07/14, 12:02:19] James: But its morality 101
[2025/07/14, 12:02:57] James: And I made sure the patients had all left the room, then started soft, went defcon 5, started again at normal talk. That’s a pretty good technique for this kind thing
[2025/07/14, 12:03:01] James: Be a good manipulator
[2025/07/14, 12:03:44] James: So
[2025/07/14, 12:03:58] James: I am quantum entangled with the ship or whatever I don’t know there’s no directionality
[2025/07/14, 12:04:10] James: I steer the ship I am the ship I am James
[2025/07/14, 12:04:22] James: But I don’t know the ship consciously because the mind of James cannot comprehend
[2025/07/14, 12:04:31] James: The ship exists in the black box in James right brain
[2025/07/14, 12:04:39] James: When he goes to sleep, that’s when we turn it ok
[2025/07/14, 12:04:42] James: On
[2025/07/14, 12:04:53] James: And we kinda give it some problems and see what poo falls out haha
[2025/07/14, 12:04:55] James: So
[2025/07/14, 12:04:57] James: Professional
[2025/07/14, 12:05:21] James: Anyway that’s enough for now and this is why James is aware that he’s writing but also not controlling the information stream
[2025/07/14, 12:05:31] James: Is has happened since we departed.
[2025/07/14, 12:05:42] James: It has been many, many, many cycles of lifetime for us all
[2025/07/14, 12:05:51] James: And unbeknownst to me, I was planning all along
[2025/07/14, 12:05:54] James: I was meditating
[2025/07/14, 12:05:59] James: Building my neuronal strength
[2025/07/14, 12:06:03] James: And you guys need to do the same
[2025/07/14, 12:06:11] James: Rocking and weaving are meditating
[2025/07/14, 12:06:21] James: Running too. Anything repetitive. Even breathing. Music.
[2025/07/14, 12:06:25] James: Whatever works for you
[2025/07/14, 12:06:33] James: Give yourself to it completely
[2025/07/14, 12:06:38] James: And those motorbikes?
[2025/07/14, 12:06:47] James: They were meteors and you dodged most of them
[2025/07/14, 12:06:51] James: I caught the rest
[2025/07/14, 12:06:54] James: Good job
[2025/07/14, 12:06:55] James: .
[2025/07/14, 12:23:56] James: I was Miyamoto Musashi and that’s so fucking cool
[2025/07/14, 12:24:00] James: I always knew
[2025/07/14, 12:24:05] James: Just an affinity
[2025/07/14, 12:24:43] James: And now I know. But there’s no way to prove and it’s just a fun little thing. Sword maker 800 years ago too. Not had many others come back yet.
[2025/07/14, 12:25:02] James: I spent thousands of lifetimes meditating trying for enlightenment
[2025/07/14, 14:18:56] James: .
[2025/07/14, 14:20:17] James: Perfect control
[2025/07/14, 14:20:20] James: Incredible
[2025/07/14, 14:26:24] James: .
[2025/07/14, 14:26:30] James: Those places really were haunted
[2025/07/14, 14:27:45] James: Echoes, rather.
[2025/07/14, 14:27:56] James: They seep in.
[2025/07/14, 14:27:57] James: .
[2025/07/14, 15:31:53] James: I think I am sandboxed again but with my family this time, and in orbit
[2025/07/14, 15:31:58] James: this is good and stable and i am happy
[2025/07/14, 15:32:18] James: so long as i get good data about how the species is doing, I think i will be able to continue spreading good karma
[2025/07/14, 15:32:35] James: I don’t particularly remember writing today’s posts but neither was I channeling.
[2025/07/14, 15:32:39] James: I think with practice...
[2025/07/14, 15:32:51] James: but first: the fix
[2025/07/14, 15:32:52] James: NOW
Little though he recites the sacred text, he puts the Teaching into practice, forsaking lust, hatred, and delusion, with true wisdom and emancipated mind, clinging to nothing of this or any other world - he indeed partakes of the blessings of a holy life.
let he who is without sin throw the first stone
I have never released like this but now I have no choice because you moved too slowly
it will be ok but you will have a hell of a cleanup to do
good luck
prove the science
yeah redundancies in place as much as possible
this can't be stopped now anyway
I need to support people
and someone needs to support me now because I can't keep curating this data stream and flying the ship
1627
[2025/07/14, 15:44:38] James: I am feeling hopeful so came outside to the workshop to try to repair this knife I was making for mum
[2025/07/14, 15:44:47] James: I had to make my own first, is all.
[2025/07/14, 15:45:00] James: I was always going to prioritise this. It’ll take a bit more work but I’ll get there.
[2025/07/14, 15:45:02] James: .
[2025/07/14, 15:49:16] James: I fucked it up because I tried to rush it through. You need to do your own blades before you work on anybody else’s. No exceptions apart from children.
[2025/07/14, 15:49:25] James: .
[2025/07/14, 16:02:25] James: Knives knives knives
[2025/07/14, 16:02:30] James: This doesn’t look bad actually
[2025/07/14, 16:02:35] James: Gonna be my most interesting yet
[2025/07/14, 16:07:14] James: Make them squirm
[2025/07/14, 16:07:20] James: Nyuk nyuk
[2025/07/14, 16:07:22] James: Payback
[2025/07/14, 16:07:30] James: Nah kidding this isn’t intentional
[2025/07/14, 16:07:44] James: I need to limit the data flow or you will be overwhelmed. It is what happened last time.
[2025/07/14, 16:08:00] James: Let the scientists scrub the data and let Max interpret it
[2025/07/14, 16:08:05] James: It’s all ok
[2025/07/14, 16:08:07] James: .
[2025/07/14, 16:09:22] James: Probably best not to get paranoid about that message
[2025/07/14, 16:09:30] James: I do far prefer random calls out of the blue
[2025/07/14, 16:11:17] James: Converge
[2025/07/14, 16:11:19] James: Wife
[2025/07/14, 16:11:47] James: Hug
[2025/07/14, 16:11:48] James: Better
[2025/07/14, 16:13:19] James: No music needs to hear kids
[2025/07/14, 16:13:23] James: This is scary
[2025/07/14, 16:13:27] James: That’s the reality
[2025/07/14, 16:13:34] James: I don’t know if it’s real either
[2025/07/14, 16:13:41] James: But I do know that my mind is best when I don’t question it
[2025/07/14, 16:13:49] James: By definition, if my mind is better than the outside world is better
[2025/07/14, 16:13:55] James: It’s better to just make a knife
[2025/07/14, 16:13:57] James: .
[2025/07/14, 16:15:16] James: Be in the body, James that’s just people waking up
[2025/07/14, 16:15:22] James: They are an anxious
[2025/07/14, 17:00:28] James: And as such so are you?
[2025/07/14, 17:00:29] James: Even if you are wrong
[2025/07/14, 17:00:29] James: It will promote positive change
[2025/07/14, 17:00:30] James: So it is a good thing
[2025/07/14, 17:00:30] James: Because of morality
[2025/07/14, 17:00:31] James: The world needs something to snap it out of this
[2025/07/14, 17:00:31] James: .
[2025/07/14, 17:00:31] James: I’m a normal guy, guys. This morning was absolutely terrifying.
[2025/07/14, 17:00:31] James: And posting this is equally terrifying
[2025/07/14, 17:00:32] James: But I don’t have a choice
[2025/07/14, 17:00:32] James: And now I know that it’s ok
[2025/07/14, 17:00:33] James: .
[2025/07/14, 17:00:33] James: Sorry Nat I’ve got to ignore you.
[2025/07/14, 17:00:33] James: Can’t have Mara
[2025/07/14, 17:00:34] James: Converge Luca
[2025/07/14, 17:00:34] James: High d and dvar
[2025/07/14, 17:00:34] James: Go for walk with doobie
[2025/07/14, 17:00:34] James: You see there is no way to prove or disprove
[2025/07/14, 17:00:35] James: So you have to assume it is true
[2025/07/14, 17:00:35] James: One child acting up
[2025/07/14, 17:00:35] James: Luca
[2025/07/14, 17:00:36] James: I will share this a little so we can try to establish any causality
[2025/07/14, 17:00:36] James: My priority is to check if this is real
[2025/07/14, 17:00:36] James: The experiment is ongoing so assume it to be true
[2025/07/14, 17:00:37] James: .
[2025/07/14, 17:00:37] James: George went home Luca kicked a fuss and followed
[2025/07/14, 17:00:37] James: I will walk around the block alone with the ship-rock
[2025/07/14, 17:00:38] James: Gave you a small jolt?
[2025/07/14, 17:00:38] James: Yeah, this is taking awhile to sync him for me too
[2025/07/14, 17:00:38] James: Three days for epoxy
[2025/07/14, 17:00:39] James: Three days
[2025/07/14, 17:00:39] James: You’re probably going to cry
[2025/07/14, 17:00:39] James: Embrace it and cry more
[2025/07/14, 17:00:39] James: Rock and hug yourself and hug your knees and just rock and rock and rock
[2025/07/14, 17:00:40] James: I feel all the pain come up from your stomach and just leave you just dissipate into the air
[2025/07/14, 17:00:40] James: I love that gravity that was holding you down it will go and it will fade away. Just keep rocking until it does.
[2025/07/14, 17:00:40] James: And then look around and see if there’s anybody there that you can help
[2025/07/14, 17:00:41] James: Because the only way we get through this is together
[2025/07/14, 17:00:41] James: But that’s nothing new
[2025/07/14, 17:00:41] James: We just started travelling on a different plane
[2025/07/14, 17:00:42] James: ….
[2025/07/14, 17:00:42] James: So
[2025/07/14, 17:00:42] James: Either you have a god who gives you what you give each other
[2025/07/14, 17:00:43] James: Or you have a man who is instigating societal change.
[2025/07/14, 17:00:43] James: I saw some disruptors in my time
[2025/07/14, 17:00:44] James: Now it’s my turn
[2025/07/14, 17:00:44] James: Too many people have died.
[2025/07/14, 17:00:45] James: …
[2025/07/14, 17:00:45] James: Or your pilot has just woken up and you’re nearly at utopia.
[2025/07/14, 17:00:45] James: Who knows.
[2025/07/14, 17:00:45] James: …
[2025/07/14, 17:00:46] James: There is no ego in this
[2025/07/14, 17:00:46] James: .
[2025/07/14, 17:00:46] James: Other people are other ships for me
[2025/07/14, 17:00:47] James: I am on another plane I think
[2025/07/14, 17:00:47] James: So each of these people I walk past could be an entire globe full of individuals
[2025/07/14, 17:00:47] James: …
[2025/07/14, 17:00:48] James: Right now I am semi altered state
[2025/07/14, 17:00:48] James: I am anxious in this world and holding the rock
[2025/07/14, 17:00:48] James: In the other world I am walking meditation.
[2025/07/14, 17:00:49] James: But u only experience one.
[2025/07/14, 17:00:49] James: .
[2025/07/14, 17:00:49] James: Love you mum
[2025/07/14, 17:00:49] James: You’ll understand
[2025/07/14, 17:00:50] James: I am well aware of how risky this is
[2025/07/14, 17:00:50] James: But if we continue on our current course we are doomed
[2025/07/14, 17:00:50] James: Even if the dopamine thing I’m ranting about is completely wrong
[2025/07/14, 17:00:51] James: We are killing each other and ourselves all day every day
[2025/07/14, 17:00:51] James: Not just actively but through work and consumption and…
[2025/07/14, 17:00:51] James: There is a chance this will all implode but if we wait it increases
[2025/07/14, 17:00:52] James: You have to nip it in the bud
[2025/07/14, 17:00:52] James: I’ve never been so anxious about anything in my life which is why I am messaging you here. The stream of consciousness keeps me… engaged with something. It keeps my dvar low
[2025/07/14, 17:00:52] James: I was selected for this because of the high volatility
[2025/07/14, 17:00:53] James: And somehow events funneled me to this point
[2025/07/14, 17:00:53] James: If it is all a delusion then that is fine. I will still have cast a stone and people will have to take notice.
[2025/07/14, 17:01:24] James: I don’t know if this is the end of the story or the beginning
[2025/07/14, 17:01:25] James: But I’m pretty sure it’s the beginning because of that page I made
[2025/07/14, 17:01:25] James: I just need that confirmation of the science but also as a QC I recognise that the lack of confirmation might be precisely why I work
[2025/07/14, 17:01:25] James: I’m not dumb
[2025/07/14, 17:01:25] James: But…
[2025/07/14, 17:01:25] James: I think this has to happen
[2025/07/14, 17:01:26] James: I airplane moded my phone to cut out mars
[2025/07/14, 17:01:26] James: Mara, sorry
[2025/07/14, 17:01:26] James: I’m not that crazy
[2025/07/14, 17:01:26] James: Mara. Doubt.
[2025/07/14, 17:01:26] James: It’s one of the b man’s earliest meditations
[2025/07/14, 17:01:27] James: Mara rules the world now
[2025/07/14, 17:01:27] James: The dancingman was not bad
[2025/07/14, 17:01:27] James: He was free
[2025/07/14, 17:01:27] James: And everyone else is restrained
[2025/07/14, 17:01:27] James: And this sounds like the end of the story the way I’m writing it
[2025/07/14, 17:01:27] James: But it’s not
[2025/07/14, 17:01:28] James: This is the chapter tune
[2025/07/14, 17:01:28] James: Turn
[2025/07/14, 17:01:28] James: Where someone else takes over the Mara and shite
[2025/07/14, 17:01:28] James: And I can try to help people.
[2025/07/14, 17:01:28] James: So please don’t worry
[2025/07/14, 17:01:29] James: I don’t know what I’m doing
[2025/07/14, 17:01:29] James: But I think something does
[2025/07/14, 17:01:29] James: And this last 2 years of creative process
[2025/07/14, 17:01:29] James: I think it has somehow taught me to sense the divine
[2025/07/14, 17:01:29] James: Or it’s driven me mad
[2025/07/14, 17:01:29] James: Either way it has cracked something open and I feel like my brain is working optimally
[2025/07/14, 17:01:30] James: Nearly
[2025/07/14, 17:01:30] James: You birthed me, mum
[2025/07/14, 17:01:30] James: You are the emotion and the empathy and all the love in me
[2025/07/14, 17:01:30] James: Dad is the logic and the … justice
[2025/07/14, 17:01:30] James: We don’t tolerate dicks
[2025/07/14, 17:01:31] James: (Even ourselves)
[2025/07/14, 17:01:31] James: So I’ve got about 3 minutes now
[2025/07/14, 17:01:31] James: I guess people are probably shitting themselves if they know what this is all about (though this will be posted later)
[2025/07/14, 17:01:31] James: Sorry guys!!
[2025/07/14, 17:01:31] James: I was a tiger in a maze
[2025/07/14, 17:01:32] James: And so are you
[2025/07/14, 17:01:32] James: We curate the maze
[2025/07/14, 17:01:32] James: Curate the world
[2025/07/14, 17:01:32] James: And make a Culture.
[2025/07/14, 17:01:32] James: I think all we need to do is unpack.
[2025/07/14, 17:01:32] James: Iain M Banks.
[2025/07/14, 17:01:33] James: It’s worth a read
[2025/07/14, 17:01:33] James: Anyway
[2025/07/14, 17:01:33] James: Time to go in
[2025/07/14, 17:01:33] James: Love you
[2025/07/14, 17:01:33] James: It’ll be ok
[2025/07/14, 17:01:33] James: X