alexandra grunberg

"I CHALLENGE THE SUN"

I challenge the sun almost every day / and fail / but do you have any idea what it takes / to repeat the same mistakes / to pull your body off the ground / and stare / open / hollow but still so full of hope / One day the sun will tremble / on a day like any other / only miraculous / light will be warm again / those pins that hold my chest taut will slip out / ribs unspooling into threads of whispering bone / that will never be ash / I will turn my bleached face to a sky / tender as the purring back of a black cat / a cocoon of quiet closed eyelids / quest complete / The sun will turn off in a spark of inconsequential static / a beautiful day / Everyone will forget / the great unfurling fire / the teeth / memories of pink sunsets will paint over the darkened horizon / in hues of romance and nostalgia / Why would anyone want to challenge the sun / I stand back up / to change inevitability / sometimes I forget that I still need to win