MY LIFE
AT 5 AM

By Shams Erfan

It’s five in the afternoon, and I’ve just arrived home from work. The sun is still high in the sky, sunbeams pouring among the budding trees, the flowers in full bloom, and the new green grass.

Gratefully, I take off my heavy work boots.


The air is so clean and fresh that I want to spend the rest of the afternoon outside, so I get on my bike and head down to the local lake. I ride slowly through the spotless neighborhood, passing men and women standing on their front lawns sipping glasses of wine and beer.


Now I’m halfway between my house and the lake —a special place that gives me tranquility and peace of mind when I feel down. Approaching the shoreline, I decide to grab a quick coffee. As I wait for it, I squeeze my eyes shut as a soft, pleasant breeze blows in and gently kisses my forehead. My drink is hot and steaming, so while it cools I lie down on the grass, looking up at the brilliant blue sky.


Around the lake pigeons, robins, and crows are busy pecking seeds from the ground. A couple of laid-back ducks are lazily paddling around without a care in the world. I gaze down at the surface of the water and see wavy reflections of my face, and bushy tree branches above. I breathe deeply and collect my scattered thoughts, contemplating my shifting image in the water. It prompts me to firm up the picture of my future in my mind.


I see myself sitting on a wooden chair on the porch of a house in Burlington, overlooking a river, listening to the chirping of the birds. My wonderful partner brings out the chicken biryani she cooked for dinner.  As we enjoy our meal, we talk about the kindness of the people who saved my life.

"As we enjoy our meal, we talk about the kindness of the people who saved my life."

I look my partner in the eye and tell her I don’t know what would have happened to me by now if I hadn't connected with the people who ended my long, arduous journey of escape from Afghanistan to Indonesia. 


She comforts me with a hug. We go back indoors, fill our cups with coffee from the machine, and sit comfortably on the couch.


We talk about how inspired we are by the commitment of the small group of people who worked together to rescue my life. While I’m describing some of the traumatic experiences I endured she suddenly interrupts saying, ‘Let's form a team to help people struggling for survival in dire living conditions.’ 


I welcome her compassionate suggestion. Together, we make a solid commitment to form teams to help those whose needs are desperate.