Life has been cruel to you, you were good in a Gnostic world. To reconcile your experiences you've decided to put all your eggs into one basket, the charity basket to be exact. With your humble life savings,  you've donated most to the church and plan on donating whatever's left when you've passed on to the church as well. 

In exchange, the church makes you feel warm and fuzzy.  Congratulations, you've found a community.

Just one more thing...